A Study in Jin

Name: Jin Yan
Age: 17
D. O. B.: unknown
Height: approx. 4 ft. 8 in.
Weight: unknown
Hair: black
Eyes: brown
Place of Birth: China
Education: Jin lived in China in the years prior to 4th or 5th grade. She attended Marin Elementary for 5th grade (and possibly 4th). She spent part of the sixth grade at Albany Middle School before returning to China part way through the year. During her time in China attended a Communist military school. She returned to the United States for high school and currently attends Albany High School.

Overview

Contrary to popular belief, Jin Yan is not an object of my affection, but rather is to me an object of interest. (Okay, for those super-feminist ones of you I know that's it's extremely disrespectful and non PC to call a women and "object." Put that aside for now.) Jin fascinates me because of the way she reacts to everything I do. It's so easy to get her upset. Now maybe that's kind of messed up. And maybe she doesn't fascinate me but is rather amuses me. But she doesn't have to get so upset because of every little thing I do. Whenever I say "hi Jin" or "have a nice day" with the biggest, friendliest smile on my face that I can manage, she responds to my gesture of good will by kicking or punching me. Now that's what I call rude. Even when just passing by me Jin will often either kick me or make some sort of face. It's as if she finds my very face offensive. She gets even more violent when I make some sort of joke to her or about her, especially when those jokes pertain to her stature.

Emotions

Jin's hatred for me does not follow any logic. She is a severe case of someone who has let their emotions runs loose (see my essay on emotion ). Jin has obviously been scarred by people or events in her past and she has allowed her emotions to take over and dictate her interactions with other people. She has a hatred for a wide variety of people: Whites, Chinese, males, and tall people. Obviously a hatred for such a large group of people designated by such superficial means cannot be based on logic or reason. In addition Jin displays a lack of any emotional control in her interactions with those that she currently views as her friends. She tends to make a big scene (in attempt to gain sympathy) over items such as a B+ on a test. She also can be very moody and pouty when she chooses. Such moods in general do not last if she realizes that they are not having the intended effect on the people she is putting them on for. These leads me to believe that Jin is a person who needs to have attention and support.

Jin's Hatred

I believe that I have the honor of being the person most hated by Jin. I have never really been told by her the exact reason why Jin has such a strong hatred for me, but Xin Lu has provided me with a theory. Xin says that Jin hates me because I am a combination of everything that she dislikes. She dislikes (as mentioned earlier) males, tall people, whites, chinese, and males. I fit into all of those categories. I thus am blessed with the combined hatred Jin has for all of those groups (and then some).

My Reaction

Many people are puzzled by my reaction to Jin's extreme hatred. They simply can't understand why I appear to friendly to her and seem to enjoy having her punch and kick me. I'll admit, I often deliberately do things to arouse Jin's ire, but I do not do them because I enjoy being hurt. I am not, as some people have suggested (because of my love of sad country songs), a masochist. The first point is that Jin's punching and kicking me don't really hurt. Second, I find her extreme reactions to my slightest sign of goodwill or most light-hearted teasing to be rather amusing. Therefore, the possibility of having some minor pain inflicted is outweighed by the amusement I derive from Jin's response. One thing that I have noticed is that Jin's reactions have become less extreme as time has progressed. This greatly disappoints me because that is what I look forward to in our interactions. Instead, Jin has started to simply ignore me at times. Since this is intolerable, I have decided to sometime pull back when it comes to irritate her so that she will not become worn out in our confrontation. Thus, hopefully our wonderful relationship will last until the end of the year — maybe I'll celebrate the last day of school by getting Jin to chase me across campus.

JIN IS CRAZY! JIN IS CRAZY! JIN IS CRAZY! JIN IS CRAZY! JIN IS CRAZY! JIN IS CRAZY! JIN IS CRAZY! JIN IS CRAZY! JIN IS CRAZY!

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