Another one of these creative writing exercises, courtesy of Ms. Sumberg.  Damn.  I figure 
IÕll just use this time to get some of my thoughts out.  ThatÕs one of the best parts of writing.  You 
can write whatever you want, just get out whateverÕs in side of you Ñ whatever you need to say.  
And you can do it without actually saying anything.  Now, thatÕs the only type of writing that I like 
to do.  Before, both essay writing and article writing were almost a little fun for me.  Now I know 
that may sound a little weird, but itÕs true.  I enjoyed crafting an article, describing people, places, 
and thinking of how to make them come alive for my reader.  I like to see how skillfully I could 
blend in quotes from the person.  Writing the lead was an enjoyable challenge.  Essay writing also 
wasnÕt that bad.  IÕve never really enjoyed writing essays because itÕs always on a topic assigned 
by some teacher Ñ something they want to read, but I donÕt want to write.
	But when I sat down with a pen in my hand for an in class essay I always started writing 
right away.  Unlike some people I never needed to really develop my thoughts before I started.  
What I wanted to say or what I could say would just come to me, at about the same speed my pen 
could rush across the paper.  Articles were always really fun.  ThatÕs one of my favorite part of 
Journalism other than the computers Ñ thatÕs the best part.  I always sort of enjoyed writing a 
good article.  I donÕt mean that I would walk in every day trying to find an article to write, but it 
was never a real chore.  Of course, I often had to make my self do it Ñ surfing the web has 
always been more fun.  But it was never something I tried to avoid.
	Now it is.  Now I am doing my best to assign articles to other people and not have any 
myself.  I tell myself that I will pick up an article from some other person who drops theirs, or will 
grab a topic that suddenly presents itself.  But the truth is I really donÕt want to have to sit down 
and start writing an organized story.  Sure, I can do this free write just fine.  ItÕs writing exactly 
what I want to.  And I can do the writing for my page easily:  that also is for me, is something I 
enjoy.  But not an article.  It almost scared me.  It shows how disullusioned I have become with 
writing and Journalism.  Pardridge and Sumberg have come together in one aspect:  they ruined 
my love for Journalism.  ItÕs something that makes me bitter, something that I donÕt know if I will 
ever get back.  At the end of last year Amy Chen did not want to write.  She had a strong resistence 
to starting a story Ñ that from a person who absolutely loved to write, who was in Journalism 
because of her love of writing.  Even now she told me that she has discovered that life outside the 
newsroom is more interesting than life inside (she isnÕt writing for the NW daily).  That means that 
even now that sheÕs out of AHS she hasnÕt recovered her love for Journalism.  I am afraid that the 
same may be true for me.