I also realized i need to get better in my walk with Christ that has wondered so much in the past few years i am so far from where i once was and it does hurt. i need to find my place cause i am lost right now and it cause much of my despair. Also To those in churches please understand no church can save you only the love of jesus does that if you like your church good but dont think if i go to another one in means im going to hell the church doesnt save the religion of christianity they were set on does and make sure it teaches you lets you speak/discuss and can help keep you accountable...some of these things you probably dont like too but those are the things i look for still havent found one with all of these but hey its a never ending process
such as learning always keep yourt mind open and eyes and ears .....look around smell the roses...like robert frost said paraphrased two roads diverged in the wood and i took the one less traveled and that has made all the difference...dont comform do what ya want a lot some of my greatest advetures memories come from doing things on thw him and taking that road less traveled
To MY BESTS FRIENDS and those with friends----- I love you guys as brothers and i miss you guys a lot i understand lifebut that doesnt mean i have to like it...i need you guys in my life i understand in a moments notice you would be there for me as i have tried to be for you. but it just gets lonely sometimes when you sit at a friends house not really there to hang with him but to wait to see if you come by which doesnt hardly happens except for little increments of time where its like cool i need this i need to talk and conversate then its woosh of back to another world to be polite about it but DAMMIT we have all our lifes to be with certain people but a certain amount to hang out and be young these times will come and go while being with someone is for life what im saying is we have all our life to fullfil certain human needs but only certain amoun of time to be stupid hang out shoot the breeze cause some will say no we have all the time to do that too but here whats happens here in a little while we will move on move out of limits and get married and make lives and seeing each other once a day becomes twice a week(allready there for some) then it becomes once a week then it beomce once veryweekend then it becomes well ill call this weekend and see whats up and then every other week then every month we will do something then it becomes every other month...we grow apart then someday along the road we get a message that the other died and relish on the past which comes back hauntingly disturbing how things went.....your like no it wont come to that but life happens ......live a life while you can cause in a blink of an eye the moments to be spent makin memories is gone i know that now took me this long but i do..AND I KNOW YOUR LIKE THAT HARD BECUASE IT IS>..no dont think im depressed or antyhing its a thought and i want people to think it over