Fan Fic
So Complicated
Part 2
© Mel
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I tried to wipe away the tears from my face but it was no use, the more I wiped them away the more I cried.
Matt walked over and knelt down beside me. �What�s happened? Where�s Lewis?� �� He�s gone.� I sobbed �He� He cheated on me.� He held both of my hands �I�m sorry Kace�� There was then the longest silence ever. I had a feeling Matt wasn�t too good in these situations. �But why, why did he have to do it? Wasn�t I good enough for him? Maybe he wanted me to change. If I changed maybe he would want me back, maybe�and what if-� �Don�t get worked up about it, you�re too good for him. He�ll end up knowing how much he has lost.� Matt reassured me, hugged me and stroked my hair. �Maybe we should get you to bed eh?� �No, not yet Matt. I don�t want to be alone. Not just yet. Stay here for a while� please.� I went to stand up but fell back on to the sofa. �You been drinking all my booze?� Frowned Matt. �I don�t think I drank it all�� �Ah well� I can never stay mad at you for more than a minute!� He walked off in the direction of his room and brought back his quilt and some DVD�s. �Might as well enjoy our selves if we�re gonna be stuck in �ere all night.� I looked at the DVD�s that were placed on the coffee table. �We are not watching these� I said, holding up Titanic and Romeo and Juliet. �Oh god I swear to god those are Charlie�s I swear!� Matt shouted �Oh? So how come I�ve seen these in your room for about 4 months!� I looked at him. He didn�t say anything. �Ha ha ha you girl!� �Well even if I did buy those films, its made you laugh which is good to see! So anyway� Which one do you want to watch?� He asked, taking them out of my hand. �Not bothered� I said quietly. I didn�t want to watch either of these films. Watching films about love and romance was the last thing I wanted to do. Matt may of made me laugh earlier but that doesn�t mean the pain I�m feeling has gone. I felt like screaming. I felt like hitting Lewis for what he did to me, but I want him to be with me, I need him. I felt tears swell up in my eyes. I really didn�t want to start crying again, not with Matt here. He wasn�t any good in these situations anyway so it would just make him feel really uncomfortable. As Matt went to put the DVD in I started to sob quietly. Maybe he wouldn�t notice. But he did. �Oh come on Kace� The films not that bad!� He turned to look at me and I started to sob more. Matt was great about it. He kept hugging me, stroking my hair and reassuring me that everything was gonna be ok, that its for the best. Of course, I didn�t think it was for the best, but it helped. I�d known him for about a year and I thought I knew him pretty well but I�d never seen him this way before, he was really caring and sweet, but in a way I�d never seen before. He pulled the quilt over me and got up. �I�ll be one minute.� Walking back into the living room I saw that he was holding a pink glittery bag. �What�s in the bag?!� I asked �I thought pink wasn�t your colour anyway� I joked. Matt handed me the bag. �I know it isn�t your birthday until next week but�� A smile appeared on his face. �Open it.� I opened the bag. Inside was the complete set of Friends series 8 on DVD, and a denim corset and skirt. �Oh�Matt I�ve wanted this outfit for ages. How did you know I wanted it?� �I over heard you telling Lauren and Laura that you saw it when you went to Guilford�� �You�re so great Matt, really you are.� I said as I kissed him on the cheek. �Oooooooh you only kiss special people. I feel privileged!� He laughed. And then, at that very moment our eyes met. It seemed like it was happening in slow motion. He lent in to kiss me and I found myself kissing back. Maybe it was all of the alcohol that I had drank, I dunno, but I didn�t want it to stop. Before I knew it Matt pulled away. �I can�t do this Kace.� �Why not?� �Because� I would be taking advantage, you�re still upset. You don�t know what you�re feeling right now�� I moved away from him a little �So your saying you went to kiss me just because you had the chance to maybe go all the way with me tonight and me, being so upset and hurt right now wouldn�t say no because I�m in the state that I am?� Matt looked hurt. I knew what I said was unfair but I was allowed to be unfair...right? �I didn�t mean it like that� It�s just� Just that�� �Spit it out then you fool� I playfully threw a pillow at him. �I have feelings for you ok!? But you were� With him� I couldn�t believe that this was happening. He had feelings for me? So many things were going on in my mind. I was feeling so emotional right now and I was under the influence of drink (not forgetting that excuse) but we kiss again. It just felt right. And it felt right being with him. We did end up going�further but to be honest I really could not remember much. The next morning we both knew what had happened that night, there was no mistaking it. I tried to act as nothing had happened, but Matt wanted to talk. Ok so we were gonna talk. We both got a lot of things off of our minds. I didn�t want to let this ruin our friendship; neither did he, and other stuff like that. I took the few days leading up to my birthday off from work. I needed to think things over about Lewis. I needed some time to put it all in perspective. Well� Not only that but I was feeling pretty shit anyway. I just put it down to stress. ~*~ It was my birthday and that night we were all gonna meet up outside somewhere. It was Matt�s idea and he didn�t tell me much about it. But I like that about him. He keeps me guessing. Seeing as it was a special occasion, I decided that I was going to wear the denim corset and skirt that he had bought me. But first I had to go to the doctors, I still wasn�t feeling any better so I thought I should get it checked out. ~*~ �Its positive.� Those words, those two little words. It�s. Positive. Made me feel like my whole world had fallen apart. So many things were going through my head. Who should I tell? When should I tell them? What�s going to happen now? How am I gonna cope? I got home as quickly as I could. As I walked through the door I slammed it shut. �Matt? Matt are you there?!� There was no reply. He was out. Great. I made my way into my room and I lay on my bed. As much as I needed to think about what had just happened, I wanted to keep myself busy, so I got ready for later on tonight� Wherever we were going but one thing was certain, I was telling him as soon as he comes through the front door. ~*~ �Hey birthday girl! You here?� I heard from the living room. I opened the door and ran to where he was �Matt, it was such a mistake, why did that night have to happen, why? Why?� I said, tears streaming down my face. �I�m� I�m�Preg-� I stopped as I saw James, Charlie, Laura and Lauren appear from different parts of the living room and kitchen. �-nant� Matt looked devastated, and the others were in shock too. I thought this was the start of the end for Matt and me now that things had got so complicated. The End..? |