Becky'

A Vampire's Tale
The day is cold and the night is black
As cold as your heart and as black as your blood
Although it is mortality that I lack
You're non-existent as well like a lightbulb gone dud
The night has ended and dead as I may seem
You can still hear the cries of children, scream

The Dead
The deceased may want sepulchre
The earth, the colour of ochre
Dead, with the blood so vile
So stupid to think this is only a trial
The taste of blood, I want to crave
The unpredictable victims, oh so brave
Kill the victims and kill the mortals
To other worlds from other portals

Non-Existent
The night has taken over the day
The children of the night, on the bed they lay
They scream at the unmortal sight
They dissolve at the fright of the light
Dead, the children so deceased
Existence, they do not seem to have
The amount of blood, they have the least
Blood overdose, come and help me now
The day will come, when the light will overcome

The Night
The blood so red and the sky so blue
Immortality will finally come true
Dead as the night
And the pain from the light
The number of the deceased
Is going to be increased
The radical sight of Satan himself
You will not regret, to what they have done to yourself

Slash
The slashing of a wrist
Of which blood will drip
People so stupid will finally get the jist
Some may feel that their skin should rip
The pain inside of which they feel
Never even to stop to think that this is real
They only hope that this is surreal
They hope and pray of which they will kneel
They don't even realise
NONE OF THESE ARE LIES

Unearthly End
I know I don't exist in this portal
It's so hard trying to live life as a mortal
In the end, I cannot live this life
I may as well kill myself with a knife
Hell, the unearthly world were the deceased torment
Even those who think their heaven sent
Red, the colour of blood
Will soon be the colour of mud
Blood so pure
Couldn't be wasted that's for sure
My soul has been taken from me
It's like a door, which has lost its key

The Pain
Take it all away
This pain I have of the day
I disintegrate and setting me on fire
Blood, is what I most desire
People don't understand what I go through
They don't believe that this is true
I belong with the ones most common to me
Way deep under the very core of the sea
Kill all the mortals cos they don't belong here
Why should we both live together, when it is us they fear?

The Cycle
The tears that you cry
Will always be replaced when you die
It's the cycle of life you have to live with
It's not a made up rule or a made up myth
You might hate the ones who surround you
But these are sometimes the people who love you so true
You might want to kill yourself
And you might feel that your life is placed on a shelf
Never to be picked up and past its sell-by date
Nothing going on at its own rate
Don't be so selfish and think of the ones you love
Or an angel you will not fly like a dove
However the impurity your blood is
Life still goes on although its like a drink flat out of fizz
Death will come upon you but not at this early stage
Bring it all out, all your rage
Love will be the icon you will surround
To be loved and to love you will bound
It's the circle of life you have to live with
It's not a made up rule or a made up myth

What You Know
You think you know me inside out
How my life works and how much I want to shout
My personality, my interests and how I think
But you don't know me as a link
You have to be like me to know me
But the person I am, you don't want to be
Sometimes I want to kill myself, I want to die
You don't know how much I want to cry
No one to surround me with comfort
Everybody knows I hate being hurt
They don't know how I feel
The world I live in is surreal
No one can go out or come in
Even the nasty fucker up there will think of it as a sin
Inside I want to burst
What I feel right now is not a first
You don't know anything although you think you do
I want to commit suicide to hurt you
You won't cry anyway, this I know
The day I go to hell, the day I go
My thoughts you cannot come into
I hate myself and sometimes you

Suffer
Take away all this pain I have inside
Everyday I have a knife by my side
To slash my wrists, of which blood will drip
So obliged to take a sip
To bleed and a big puddle of it on the floor
Wouldn't even think that its sore
External and internal scars
Would rather be run over by cars
Rather die now and die of ease
Die of an illness, die of a disease
Suffering trying to stay alive
What is the point in trying to survive?
Birth, death and reincarnation
Why do we suffer as youth of the nation?
Maybe I should go off to a better place
There are certain people I would rather not face
Too shitty to live life as a rebel
I have sold my soul to the devil
All I can think of is suicide
But there are those who believe in genocide
To make themselves more powerful
And would rather break the rule
Blood is what I crave
Right until I die into my fucking grave
My life is fucked and so am I
All I want to do is die

Wait And Bleed
Burning my skin like fire
To bleed, oh the desire
One cut, one scar
To be opened up again like in a bar
Never to be closed, always to be seen
A cut you would have to make clean
A new meaning to a Bloody Mary
With real blood so you have to be wary
The substance dripping down
My face, I would have to frown
To catch the drops at the side
All children run and hide!

Die Open up an unopened grave
The dead deceased, you cannot save
Blood so evil and black
Into my life, they have to ransack
I wanna die, I wanna cry
I don't deserve to live
To my hunger, I have to satisfy
Life just drips down like holes in a sieve
Take me now or never
Let me be the one I most desire
My soul has been taken from me
Pour my ashes into the sea
Remember that I died depressed
Whose whole life is messed

Life As It Is
My life has been overruled with a load of shit
One of these days, I know I'm going to take a fit
I hate myself and all those around me
Through the doors of hell, i can just about see
Depression, stress and sadness i have been through
Why should i continue life as it is for you?
I want to kill myself so i can get away from all this pain
All these people are driving me insane
If i die suddenly because of suicide
Its because i want genocide
I hate people on my educational grounds
Always hating what i hear of the sounds
Listen to what i am saying
I want to die
In a coffin i want to lie
I'm being serious and it's a fact
I don't even need my bags packed
Why is my life so depressing?
What have i done that has given me this blessing?
I want to cut myself and bleed
To let the viscous animals feed

Upon My Grave
I can't explain this pain I have inside
Life is just taking me for a ride
I want to devour, recover
Inside out I am just a freak
Nobody should find me, nobody should seek
Upon my grave they will write 'Here lays a gruesome sight
Took those who crossed her path
She didn't care about the aftermath
The blood and vanquish mortals suffered
As well as those who were devoured
Love was never a word in her lifetime
She has always crossed the line
Never managed to discover
Or even managed to recover'

What I Want
I want to devour
I want to recover
I want to die
I want to cry
These tears that flow down like a river
Could not be stopped and would wither
Suffering lasts all through my life
Stabbed many times by a knife
Open the gates of hell
There I know I will be well
To live in fire and those who torture
Is what I have always lived for
Never for love, never you
No one to pull me through
I will be better off somewhere else

Inside
Tears that cannot run down my face
Makes me feel I should belong to another race
I don't live here anymore
I don't have anything to live for
It devours inside
I try to run, try to hide
Feelings from within
Cannot be revealed cos life is a sin
Blasphemous thoughts run through my mind
Trying to see what I could find
I hate this feeling
I can't get out of me
I want to spread my ashes over the sea
The day I die, the day I end
It's the day when I don't have to defend

Myself
Depression is something I am common to
Nothing to help me, nothing to pull me through
I am so lost in this life, this feeling
I have never found out the meaning
Is it guilt or is it hate?
I can't say anything cos people cant relate
I feel like crying
I feel like dying
Others would be happy, others would be sad
Some may even be mad
I can't stop feeling this way
No one wants to hear what I've got to say

End
My whole world is at an end
Though my soul I have to send
The pain has lasted years gone by
To many people, I have to lie
I put on a brave face
But I know this isnt the case
I don't look up to myself
Cos I know id rather not be myself
It's too late to make up for these mistakes
My grave has been dug over by rakes
No pain, not insane
A death certificate is what I want to gain

Shattered
Broken-hearted and the pain it causes
Like a mourning of the deceased, nothing pauses
How I feel inside but wonder how they feel on the other side
Its something you have to face, you cannot hide
Bleeding, not only internally but externally too
Thinking over and over again what I'm going to do
Theres not anything I want to lose
But some things I know I have to choose
I led myself into this path
And yet pain has given me its wrath

Life
The slashing, the pain
I have this sudden adrenaline rush that I can refrain
It flows through the body
Suddenly it is done so much to be a hobby
Not done enough
Although life can seem tough
So much energy but so much pain
To bleed so much but you can't complain
Death and suffering
Wasted and covering
The cut on your wrist you can't ignore
Never think what you are living for

Black Shadows
The shadows that complete you
A personality that might fall through
It is part of you like it is your soul
No more black than a lump of coal
Appearing only in the light
Disappearing in the night
Outlining your body
Seen more times than Noddy
The image it creates
Not really thinking to what it relates

Sacrifice
Tears that flood my eyes
Thinking of the people I despise
Suicidal thoughts run through my mind
Knowing of what ways, of what kind
Look back into the part where it should've been forgotten
Know that I was not as soft as cotton
Life so fucked up and wasted
Depression, pressure, sadness, anger have all been tasted

Lost
My eyes filled with tears
My head filled with fears
This pain inside I can't understand
I cannot find the answer from the palm of my hand
This hate in life that will not go away
Whatever life brings, come what may

Desire
Blood so pure dripping down to the depths of hell
People down under would never tell
For they are already dead
Hungry from the site of red
Burning desire like a flame on a candle
It burns inside but is too hot to handle
A sudden adrenaline rush through the body
Like an electric charge, it's like a lightning bolt
This desire and pleasure was not their fault
It was the dead of the night
All praise through the awesome sight

Fucked
You think you know me
But you don't know shit
My mind has flee
The candle is not longer lit
Depression remaining through my soul
Do not know what to take as a role
Am I dead or am I alive?
A mortal or immortal?
Into the depths of hell I want to dive
Way deep into a fucking portal
I'm fucked up
More broken than a jagged cup
Contemplated suicide
Soon thinking of genocide
Death is my only answer
My only way out of a massacre

Depression
You introduced depression into my life
As I had began cutting myself with a knife
It's like an adrenaline rush, running throughout my soul
My heart as black as coal
My blood as red as crimson
Wish I was locked up in prison
Wish I was put down like an animal
Never wanted to be normal
I am no longer a human being
A life that would not be worth seeing

The Way
Life has its own death defying ways
Each decades of our lives we go through another phase
Not as easy as it may seem
For so many people, they can live their dream
Natural feelings which may fall through in each of us
Living as simple as possible, no need for any fuss
Take on step at a time
Things always turn out fine
Face the abnormal feelings you don't relate with
Face your fears but don't deny them like they're a myth
Love is a topic, which turns out quite difficult
If something doesn't work out, lose it and move on
but don't let yourself think it was your fault
If it wasn't meant to be, it won't be anybody's fault
In each and every person there is bound to be a time where they were sad
These words which I speak might sound mad
But they are true and it's how I lived my life
Instead of destroying it with a knife
Nobody said life was easy and certainly not me
Some things were just meant to be

My Dying Angel
I fall like a shooting star of the velvet sky
Hurt by being devoured, prevention for me to cry
Love was once the death, the death of you
It wasnt until a dying angel told me what to do
Like fallen soldiers, we will all learn
Like a fire, we will all burn
Sacrificing your happiness just so you can win
Whatever you do is from the heart within
Locked up emotions like stolen pearls
So innocent, just like little girls
Wake up to the world today
So many people who let their minds decay
I was the heart of my own weakness
It wasnt just you who stole my precious happiness

Virgin of Creed
Save the last dance for this dying bride
She believes theres no one to confide
Blood and tears shed
The hunger of defeat is fed
Depressed and scared of wanting a new world
Locked inside an opening pearl
Dirty as she thought she had become
Not as pure as some
Creatures of this greed
Cannot heal this person of creed

The Garden of Mortality
The seeds of yesterday haunt me
The garden of shadows possess me
The flowers of the future remain closed
The ivy of depression i am enclosed
The wind blows its wistful tune
Into the earth, i maroon
The morbid earth devours its atmosphere
The leaves inject their own fear

My Morbid Heaven
My halo is a circle of blood
An angel with wings of a dragon
A morbid heaven of which i came here
Blood running through cities like a flood
Drowning all the sorrows of the children
For this is my morbid heaven
Lives poisoned by my living resin

Emotion
Love, an undetermined word
Happiness, seems almost absurd
Anger, a feeling frequently awakened
Depression, seriously strickened
Sadness, arisen by depression
Death, tears fall from this confession

Flower of Mortality
You surrounded me in your pool of fears
Keeping me occupied by drying my tears
I hate you but i will return to my morbid tomb
Inside, im like a flower that cannot bloom
I cannot open up to the truth
I cant breathe in the toxicated air
Risks to take but i dont dare
I thought i loved but i dont at all
I hate more than i fall
I always thought it was something beautiful
But the more i thought about it, the more i became hateful

Truth
Sad but true to my heart
Id fallen for a mere mortal
At times he seems to tear me apart
I get driven into another portal
Yet he can recombine me
Im not the girl i used to be
He is a work of art
But all i have left is a broken heart

A Life of Sombre
Your life is just beginning
But mine has no ending
I wont give up in this determination
To be able to taste the blood of the nation
No lifeline when i cry out for a rescue
Sunset, my time is due
I will show those who deceive me
I wish i could sedate them then kill slowly
Those who looked down on this morbid little girl
Will simply see death in a twirl