why are we here?

why do we live?

Is it not for our family?

is it not for ourselves?

is it not for love?

Life is a mystery,it is a constant struggle in discovering its real meaning....

Time is 5:39 in the afternoon, august 14, 2005. Without a thing to do I decided to write this blog, simply to make myself useful while waiting for a call from pesky unsatisfied customers.

I remember that when I was young I wanted to have a simple family and a simple life where I will not worry and think of out of this world possibilities. I dreamed of having a simple hut in the middle of a ricefield with wide lawn and trees, where there is a lot of fresh air and all you can see is the wide horizon embraced by the blue light of the sky. A stream in the foot of the mountain with cool clear water glittering in the middle of the green field. During evening, I would go to the cottage and lie down viewing the stars as if it is a wide screen television with the moon smiling at you and the stars twinkling its mightiest glow. What you can hear are the sound of the crickets and the flow of the stream and I'll fall asleep.

As I grow up, my values and perceptions of life has changed but I still live up to this dream that no matter how high my ambition will be I will still settle down to have this. All I want is a place where I can settle down as I grow old, where all that embraces me is nature.

When I was still young, I already know what my life would be in the future but because of some constraints, I have become a person with limited capacity and that's not what I wanted. I don't want to be a person trapped in a box, I want to be someone who is aware and in the know of what is happening in the world. I dreamed of being in the television reporting to the world the latest issues and the latest news concerning the lives of human beings. I dreamed that I would be a person with a lot of space, a wide horizon and a broad thinker.