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Poetry of the VampirePub
and various writtings
Guilty
They keep trying to hurt me
but soon i'll make them pay
to spill the blood to kill the sin
i will find a way
i'll shatter and destroy them
i'll twist and knot their brains
their thoughts i'll take and tear apart
with hate and crushing pain
they'll writhe beneath the fury
their soles will come undone
empty corpses on the ground
and they will know i won
Believe
Believe in me believe i can
still grasp some goodness in my hands
still hold some kindness in my soul
but in my mind i've lost control
all i hear are screams of rage
sobs of sadness, cries of pain
and the prophets speak of coming doom
all my thoughts this has consumed
or maybe they're not thoughts at all
i've lost contact
i've built the wall
sight
to close my eyes
its hell inside
but i won't show
i want to know
who'll turn away
your truth is frayed
your penance waved
for i am blind
unto the lies
the dark proceeds
to kill the needs
except your own
my feelings thrown
i only want
to close my eyes
All your truth
Speak in riddles
and in rhyme
not all wounds
will heal with time
spill the secret
not my fault
it wasn't me
my tongue's been cut
cut with razors
left to bleed
a morbid child
an evil seed
all that's here
that you will read
they will once
call blasphemy
show them magick
show them joy
if you can
they will destroy
all your knowledge
all your truth
build your anger
let it loose
everything's fine
a habitual notion
of intuition
of knowing something's wrong
a continuos feeling
that sends your mind reeling
and you know that you don't belong
you feel yourself falling
you know that they're stalling
but you won't know for long
your defences are dropping
you feel yourself stopping
and you know that you're out of time
you're losing control
you're no longer whole
tying knots you can never unwind
you're sick of the pain
you don't know if you're sane
but you'll pretend that everything's fine
ERYNN
Tearful memories of then
cut and marred by imagined sins
doubt and jealousy combined
hope and happiness confined
the dampness of the emptiness
the acceptance of the loneliness
the contempt that grows within her soul
will cause a blackened hate to flow
the grotesqueness of the hate engraved
can a ray of light be saved
can the damage be repaired
all i know is that i'm scared
never was it my intent
to do something to earn this repent
i'm sorry that i hurt you so
that's what i wanted you to know
but to hurt you have to care
can we find our way back there
we watched our friendship come undone
and now i'm drowning in the flood
how can you leave me here and watch me ..... bleed
one more chance is all i need
Superglue
Superglue smiles and pale blue eyes
sleepy, swirling heart felt sighs
pull away rubberband
elastic firecracker hand
sparkle, shine rear-view mirror
clouded thoughts and dreams burn clear
sacred truths and faded whispers
rotted pumpkins and broken glass slippers
shiny, happy people tears
tasteless, bitter candy fears
forever twisted pile of metal
mixed in with the flower petals
neurotic, shaking, stressed and rampant
i thought i could, but i guess i can't
worlds away from here and free
silver threads and golden wings
deception's a normality
shattered spasmodic reality
psychotic, wasting time by hating
psychedelic colour paintings
kool-aid kaleidoscope
glimmer, shimmer change and hope
hopeless, shapeless august fires
slept all day, but i'm still tired
and to the ironies of now
forgotten and disguised
with plastic people, paper bags,
and cellophane coated lies
by Maegan Fisher
your lies
contradiction of hypocrisy
aching somatomy
soul burnt
and hell turned
icy hand burn the flesh
bind the mouth
and blind the eyes
cultivate the anger
i am the prophet
but i am the fool
and i am the hated
charred hopes and scorched dreams
of a bleeding child
her pain and her wounds
will bleed into the hands of the guilty
but they won't see the blood
only the weakness in her tears
the naive and the innocent
hold the erudition
that society has contaminated and soiled
the only constant is change
and change is the killer
but so are you
and your hate
and your accusations
and your lies
lucid
The discord and the disenchantment
leaves an awful stain
my stomach twists
and knots and turns
in violent aching pain
i think i used to try
to try
but apparently all in vain
the essence of lucidity
lost inside my eyes
the blankness of society
has caused it all to die
i fought and tore
and broke away
so they couldn't see my cry
boy
i'm not your little play-thing
you can use to have your fun
you can't just take apart me
to find out how i run
you see when you abuse me
it shreds and splits my mind
and when you see me shed a tear
another scar is left inside
i don't expect much from people
don't think i expect you to understand
but it would be nice if you could pretend to care
and act a little like a man!
What's born in me without a heart
Resides in me another part
That wills me to a darker half
And waits for my humanity to pass
Like the darkness the seeps in the blacken mud
My soul is jaded and bleeds for peace
That will never be until you are a part of me
So on the winds that spirits glide
And the oceans that ran from your eyes
You leave me now in this savage world
To reap for you and die once more
thick
my melan
choly childhood
jaded with despair
fear and hate and sorrow
remorse, thick in the air
all of my wash-away thoughts
dispensable, insecure
and variably truthful
swaying and unsure
nothing matters
trust in no one
value nothing
question everything
live and die
for the now
close yourself
speak of nothing
that could hurt you
believe in none
regretfully ever after
disregard the obvious
analyse the insignificant
things i've said
remembered and forgotten
in the same breath
no one will accept anything
you say
or do
or feel
and nothings real
and nothing heals
and no one cares
but they all lie
and they all stare
and everyone hurts
someone else
what have i done?
it doesn't matter anymore
nothing matters anymore
Echo
the collapse of sanity
destruction of fidelity
conception of normality
is changed each time we wake
the coldness of the permanent
the sadness of the sentiment
and listlessness of constants
in buried in my eyes
observation of the callous
filled with destitute and malice
hate is amplified by madness
that echoes through our minds
patience , too
patience breaks the pain of now
few and rare, those who know how
the wild and weak this virtue throws
into the bitter breeze it blows
lucky are those who know they've found
one whose sincerity keeps them bound
with strands of life unto the sane
but i know they still feel pain
sometime you'll ask me how i do
you see, i used to be one, too
lose
to cry is to lose
to lose is to win
to win is to try
to try is to care
to care is to love
to love is to feel
to feel is to hurt
to hurt is to die
to die is to lose
keep you weak
In memory of things i've done
so many more battles lost than won
enlightenment shall elude
from my grief i can conclude
that i still care
and i still feel
and words can hurt
and hurt is real
ignorant are they
who can not see
the blatant, maliciou
s hypocrisy
and the religious monotony
of which aristocracy speaks
ignore, ignore, endure some more
anguish and suffering that keeps you weak
breathe
holding on
reminding myself to breathe
i am
a dan
cing puppet on these strings
trying hard not to fall from this high wire
closing in
to shield myself from the scalding fire
shadowed sight
scratch and claw away from here
tear away
from all those that pretend to care
blood dries
on their hands they'll close their eyes
that's alright
i'm not surprised
out of myself
i'm worthless and confused
i've been neglected and abused
crying myself to sleep has become a habit
i'm broken and ignored
i'm lonely and i'm bored
and all the dreams i've stored
i cannot find
i'm beaten and i'm bruised
i'm discarded after use
my brain is burning up and burning out
their pretences began to fray
things are the same everyday
help me find a way
out of myself
vain
my soul is darkened,
filled with need
my heart is broken,
left to bleed
a lesson learned,
a burden freed
my mind is burning
with acidic rage
my hands are shaking,
cut in vain
i am buried
distended with shame fall
dark and closing cornerv
shadowed with despair
cower down forever
your thoughts shall be impaired
behind your eyes, protect and hide
feel the searing affliction of guilt
and the burning gash of pride
and if i can see through the blinding rage
should the jealousy fall from our
minds like rain?
wanna play?
spin you round and round
drop you hit the ground
what you think is love
could only be a game
deafened, numbed and blinded
isn't it a shame
holding on to something
that was never there
it will drive you crazy
ask me if i care
your suffering is my redemption
your desire is my release
your confusion, my repose
your frustration, my relief
you can only have
what i let you keep
left to bleed
Paranoia fucks things up
dementia will tear apart
i could never find a way
out of this place
i wouldn't ask for help
if i could help myself
but i don't like the pity
and i don't enjoy the pious
my memories will never dim
and the colours will stay grey and red
adhere to what the voices said
they will save you from yourself
save your caustic incisiveness
for some one it will affect
i will cut you deeper
i will leave you there to bleed
i don't like the pity
all i find
a sallow tinted bitterness
the recourse of the randomness
serpentine are the halls we walk
the sentiment of which you talk
the serenity of broken dreams
retribution tears us at the seems
terse are all the words i say
the throes that help you find a way
a timorous whisper in your ear
the spectral zenith that you fear
the sublimity that will upset
the morbid feelings i shall whet
the rumination pains me so
they're unscrupulous of every blow
it staves my heart and taints my mind
spasmodic tangibility is all i can find
fear
excitement will well as fear comes near
the chill of screams seep in your ears
the sweetness that tingles down your spine
and you wish that you could run and hide
but you can't run, you can't even move
frozen with fright, stuck with its glue
and you will ask why you do
you see, you love, but hate it, too
and why bother moving
you ask yourself
the fear will find you someplace else
My turn
melt the ice
stop the storm
clear the clouds
keep them warm
hold your breath
close my eyes
feel the pain
i have inside
build the fire
feed the flame
its my turn
to place the blame
remember
Heard a whisper of a memory
i turned around
nothings there - just the past
i walked away
like i have from everything
i closed my eyes
i saw your face
i felt the same
i remember
She's alone
She locked herself in her room again
she's gazing out the window
and she would sell her gentle soul
to get what she wanted
if she knew what she wanted
She locked herself in her head again
she's talking to herself
if someone would just reach out to her
to save her from her own mistrust
tension
If no one will mention
an uncomfortable tension
will everyone choose to ignore?
If a formidable silence
is incredibly pious
is nothingness what the weak will adore?
If the strong will survive
how many alive
are not strong only overly sure?
If you were so high
and had such a time
just how many days are a blur?
torn
though the sorrow is inborn
from me remorse has all been torn
all i know is hate and scorn
because that's all that i've been shown
deceit has cut me to the bone
their lies have left me raw and sore
and i won't listen anymore
i will hurt as i've been hurt
but i will hurt them worse
Laughter
A hollow void inside me filled
all my buried secrets spilled
the indecision now is gone
the prepubescent head games done
i'll kill their laughter
kill their fun
what will they reap from the blackened mud?
they will have to clean the blood
they will reap what they have sown
their bitter seeds of hatred grown
Behind my eyes
Blue and sliver lightening flows
from the earth into my toes
up my body through my veins
as thoughts of vengeance course through my brain
down my arms and out my hands
electricity will help them understand
that they hurt me, know watch them scream
things were never as they seemed
they burned my pride
now watch them die
from the hate that waits behind my eyes
all you have
my nails scratch inside your nightmares
i will laugh as you will scream
my hands reach deep within your thoughts
do you think you could tear away?
twist and tie
and lie some more
inflict the pain you will adore
control your mind and own your soul
all you have is my gaping hole
Why
cracking visions of what could be
why can't you tell me what you need
impossible to stay this way
my heart is slipping more each day
is it hopeless was i used
the confusion has helped to blow a fuse
hate and melted, lovely rage
replace it, for another day
Joel
You ignore the tears caught in my eyes
i hit the floor, you walked right by
the disappointment as i speak
your blankness has left me sore a
nd weak
either hold me or let me be
if you don't want me, cut me free
Kris
You look at me with crystal eyes
a portrait of lost innocence
of regretfulness and bitterness
but i can see through all the pain
i could make you whole again
or would my smile melt your defense
would it make us more than friends
what we had our 3 hour talks could slip right through our hands
where we were we could not return
we'd light the bridge and watch it burn
i have a feeling we will burn it
but here i am, a willing servant
Choke
sleepless, thoughtless
free of guilt
starving, smiling
glimpse of self
sinning saviours
save your souls
blank but blatant
clear and sure
sorry is the word of choice
boldly silent helpless voice
solid glassy blinding smoke
spoiled lies that make you choke
massive force fed advertisement
chalkboard bloody fingers
broken aerosol eyeliner
rumination, cogitation
screaming naseating silent screams
bright and bolted
nameless game
shameless written
neon green
falling down
midnight seconds
timing's off
lead but flying
heavy feet
intercom front row seats
all you can take
of things that will break
mosh unit
oh shit
carbonated revolution
insanity's institution
eat your toys, play with your food
i wouldn't help me if i could
crayon shavings
paper airplanes
students here may not escape
their thoughts to burn
their minds to rape
.........
END
for now
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