Family.
dear father
did i ever exist in your eyes?
the child you never wanted
the child forced into your life
constantly i strive to meet your standards
and even when i do, it's not enough
the harshness of your words
the coldness of your touch
always proving to me
i could not belong to you
dear mother
did i ever exist in your eyes
the daughter you so wanted
until you got her
if only i could do this or that
i could be beautiful in your eyes
you, dear mother
may take credit for my lack of self-esteem
always proving to me
i could not belong to you
dear brother
did i ever exist in your eyes?
so close as children
so distant as adults
the violence you enforced
was it worth the beating
just because i wanted something different
you helped to make me cringe at a touch
always proving to me
i could not belong to you
dear sister
did i ever exist in your eyes?
since i was born
i have been the one to come into your life
to take everything from you
all i ever wanted
was to be the best of friends
your animosity
always proved to me
I could not belong to you
dear friend
did i ever exist in your eyes?
willing to lend a hand
until i need it
why the lies
why pretend to care
at least my family never made any promises
promises meant to be broken
always proving to me
i could not belong to you
dear lover
did I ever exist in your eyes?
a gentle touch turned forceful
a sweet kiss gone sour
my heart and soul
pounded and stomped on
always proving to me
I could not belong to you
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