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::. Sunday| May 13th, 2007 | 11:11 pm .::
XIN FU HE KUAI LE SHI JIE JU
These past few months I've received a lot of harsh words, sarcasm, disrespectful and lots of words that are really hurting and negative in some way as if I am the mixture of Tin Man and The Scarecrow in The Wizard of Oz. If only people would think how they would feel and if those words we're said to them instead of saying those words to someone else.
They were wrong, I have a heart like Menelaus and he is tired of being the pawn in Helen's little games. Her words are really saturated with lies and atrocity. If only people could understand that it doesn't matter what's on the outside but what's on the inside that counts.
…and again, if only people would understand.
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::. Tuesday| May 1st, 2007 | 9:41 pm .::
HYPNOTIST
I
thought I recognized your face amongst all of those
strangers
But I was wrong, I am the stranger now amongst all of
the recognized
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::. Monday| Mar 30th, 2007 | 12:39 pm .::
NAPOLEON
Some people changed and still cherish the moments that they had but some people changed and totally forget the past. They could not remember those who have walked into their lives. They could not remember those who have planted the smile upon their faces. They just don’t fucking care and keep on insulting you for who you are.
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Friday| Mar 27th, 2007 | 8:10 am .::
DECEIVING
Mental torture just activated.. Patience!!
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Thursday| Mar 26th, 2007 | 7:18 pm .::
CARTWHEELS
1) Have you ever felt lonely and needed someone to talk to in the middle of the night but that someone wasn’t there for you?
2) Have you ever felt as if you’re drowning in a black abyss and couldn’t get out? No one can hear you, see you, or understand you.
3) Have you ever felt like you can’t be yourself around anyone because they don't understand you, and they wouldn't like you for what you really are?
4) Have you ever pretended as if you’re happy, meanwhile you’re dying a little on the inside?
5) Have you ever felt depressed or discouraged by the failure of one's hopes or expectations?
I did. I am bitterly disappointed in myself, and these make me sad and feel depressed.
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Wednesday| Mar 25th, 2007 | 8:56 pm .::
COMFORTABLE
Thank
you for the long talk and John Mayer!!
I really appreciate it. Miss
the old days so much.. :)
Bak kata John Mayer, "Our love was comfortable and so broken in.."
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Tuesday| Mar 24th, 2007 | 10:21 pm .::
...
i’ve been shutting myself for urhm.. few days. oh well, to be precise 2 months plus. well, people don’t really talk these days. maybe there’s nothing left to say.
what i’ve been doing lately. busy with works. and now currently, i’m hunting for jobs. a friend of mine is leaving to UK next week for working holidays. how i wish i could follow her, leave everything here and start a new life. but that’s not that easy pitsy.
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Wednesday| Feb 21st, 2007 | 12:32 am .::
SHUTTING DOWN?
Yes.
It's about time.
THE END of Euphoria.
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Saturday| Jan 20th, 2007 | 3:34 pm .::
Ani DiFranco describes it perfectly..
"the only thing i can think of saying is fuck you".
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::. Tuesday| Jan 16th, 2007 | 8:41 pm .::
HARSH REALISM
I’ve never been so insulted in my life.
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::. Monday| Jan 1st, 2007 | 12:36 am .::
A TOAST?
Happy new year peeps!!
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::. Thursday| Dec 28th, 2006 | 9:16 pm .::
ADIOS SHITTY YEAR
Don’t ask me why? Because I do not really know how to answer.
I’ve been pondering..Sometimes I feel like running away from everything. To the place where nobody can find me or even, know me. Life is getting hard these days and everything seem not right but I am not complaining. Don’t fret. I am not going to end up like Kurt Cobain. All I need is a little motivation.
Well, I'm beginning to realize that all this worrying and pondering going on is absolute worthless and pointless. All I gotta do is just get over it, it's all in my head. But.. urhm is there such things as, ‘you need to be scared to be brave?’
Hmm.. I just hope one day I will stop feeling scared.
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::. Thursday| Dec 21th, 2006 | 9:31 pm .::
THE UNKNOWN FUTURE
My new year’s resolutions? I don’t have one at the moment.
2007. Hurm.. I just do not understand why I should fear the future. I remembered back then, my teachers used to ask me “What are you going to do when you grow up, Adam?”. I just smiled and said, “doctor!!” But look at me now? I was never a doctor.
As I am making my way through the muddy minutes, I kept asking myself, “What I want to be?” But a part of me said, “I just want to be a better man”. Time flies so fastttttttt!!!!! So many times, I have started on the right road and somehow gotten side-tracked. The fact, I am not prepared for tomorrow, how can I be prepared for next year?
Somehow, I could not imagine what my life might be like in future even when I’m closing my eyes. My future may have dark stormy clouds ahead and may be bright like a rainbow appearing out of the blue. I don’t know. All I know the sun will rise tomorrow but the details of my tomorrows are unknown and uncertain.
Well, the tribe of Andes "Indians" once said, “The past is known, so it lies ahead of you. The future is unknown, so it lies behind you, where you can't see”.
So, are you ready for the future?
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::. Tuesday| Dec 19th, 2006 | 2:16 am .::
The year is almost coming to an end and I realised like a baby boy I never was a man.
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::. Saturday| Dec 16th, 2006 | 12:26 pm .::
VOUS VOULEZ SAVOIR POURQUOI JE VOUS HAIS AUJOURD?
Watching Eragon makes me miss Margarita so much. Just like Eragon who is proud of Saphira, that’s how I felt about Margarita as well. I am so proud of her eventhough Margarita did not touch my right palm and gives me the Gedwey Ignasia, symbol of the Dragon Rider and even Cat Rider. Now, I feel like having a dragon as my constant companion and closest confidante. But I know it’s impossible. Somehow, I think to concern about my so called dragon (yeah!! in my dreams) is much more better rather than to concern or worry about other people who just couldn’t be bothered at all about other people.
So, dragon anyone?
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::. Monday| Dec 11th, 2006 | 1:04 pm .::
AS TIME GOES BY
People are too busy these days and can't even pick up the bloody phone anymore. How about sms?

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::. Saturday| Dec 2nd, 2006 | 2:57 pm .::
ME, MY BABY AND I
"I
love you without knowing how, or when, or from where,
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride,
So I love you because I know no other way than this:
Where 'I' does not exist, nor 'you,'
So close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
So close that your eyes close as I fall asleep."
...Sonnet 17 by Pablo Neruda
I love you in this way because I don't know any other way of loving..
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::. Friday| Dec 1st, 2006 | 4:11 am .::
DOUKA KAMISAMA BOKU NI YUUKI WO KUDASAI
What is there to talk about? Life is hectic as ever. My body is getting weak as I don't have enough rest. Things had been different. I am lying to myself but I am still living. Anyways, sit back and enjoy the song.
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::. Sunday| Nov 19th, 2006 | 6:59 pm .::
Aih!! It's already Sunday evening. My weekend seems to fly by so fast. I don't want to go to work. There are still lots of works to be done. I want increment so that I can go travelling. I was thinking of spending my Christmas holidays in Philippines but too bad, i have to cancel my plan. My friend is no longer staying there. Damn!!
So, my next destination maybe somewhere in Malaysia or Asia. But somehow, I always wanted to go to Hong Kong. I dunno why. Insyallah kalau ada rezeki.
A question to my baby:
Do
you realize that it had been raining hard lately in the
evening?
You know what it means. And it even has caused flood around
here. LOL!! I miss you that bad, huh? :P
And a note to my baby:
Just wanna say i fall in love with you again today. Thank you and you really made my day. Love you motcit. I’m glad you’re back!!
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::. Friday| Nov 17th, 2006 | 11:45 pm .::
I haven't posted for quite awhile. Life has been so hectic these past few weeks with neverending workload. So many things in my head but what i want to do right now is..
1) FIND A JOB
2) STILL TO FIND A JOB
3) YES, I NEED TO FIND A JOB!!!
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Whatever date, whatever time. I don't fucking care. If you ask me whether i'm okay? I would say "fuck that! no, as a matter of fact, i'm not o fucking kay, at all, mentally nor emotionally"... Too much damage has been done and too much honour and respect has been lost. Sometimes people just dont appreciate what you've done. You always be there for them, trying to be a good listener, support them and catch them when they fall.. but whatever i do, i did, i done..
i am always the one to blame. i'm fucked up!!!
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::. Wednesday| Nov 3rd, 2006 | 12:39 am .::
WISHFUL THINKING
There are so many things in my mind especially regarding works. There are so many books to read.. to be finished by end of this week. So many things to be done. So many kids and other human beings to be pleased and to be entertained. I wish I could fast forward the time just like a dvd player where i can just use the remote control to rewind and fast forward, search by title, chapter, track, and timecode or even freeze the picture or time. I wish I don't have to go to work tomorrow. I still have my annual leave. I wish and I wish..
Anyways, a wish is just a wish.
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::. Saturday| Oct 28th, 2006 | 11:03 am .::
:|
Monday is coming. I hate Mondays. I am still in the mood of holidaying. I do not want to go to work, as I know there are so much works to be done. And comot left for Japan last night for holidays until next month. Sigh. Damn!! Already miss her.
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::. Friday| Oct 27th, 2006 | 12:54 am .::
SOMERSAULT
This raya is not like once I had before. Everything had changed. Raya is not like raya but somewhat like ordinary days. Too much sadness and even drama. Happiness faded over time. No more apologies, no more teasing and laughter in the morning of raya. Only hatred, grudge and some questions that need to be answered aren't answerable.
I’m tired.
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::. Sunday| Oct 22nd, 2006 | 4:42 pm .::
RAYA
Totally sangap. Didn't do anything today except menemani makcik-makcik ke PKNS untuk membeli baju raya for their children. As for me, aku tengok-tengok je, window shopping sebab lam wallet pun ada RM20 tolak parking kereta RM1. Hajat dihati for the first time nak bagi duit raya kat anak-anak buah. Tapi nampak gayanya kena pinjam duit FAMA dulu sementara tunggu gaji masuk. Boss pun last minute baru kasi cheque. Mana nak dan.
For raya, as usual i'll be celebrating here dekat kampung yang jauh perjalanan 6 jam tolak 5 jam 45 minit. Menariklah sangat pemandangan. Tapi yang pasti, aku tak sabar nak makan ketupat dengan rendang, kuah kacang dan juga kari ayam. Lapar plak bila cerita pasal makan. Nasib puasa. Somehow, I am proud of myself sebab aku bleh anyam ketupat. Terima kasih kepada mak ndak aku yang tak give up nak ajar aku anyam eventhough ia cuma mengambil masa selama semalam untuk menganyam. Thank you, mak ndak. Huhu :P
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::. Tuesday| Oct 17th, 2006 | 11:36 pm .::
HUARGHH
I’ve got disconnected from the net these past few weeks as my laptop wire nyawa-nyawa ikan. Plus, I’ve been busy traveling back and forth to IKEA. I’ve spent most of my salary buying things which is not important rather than buying raya clothes. This raya I don’t even manage to buy raya cards for friends. Kepada rakan-rakan seperjuangan, raya ni nampak gaya tade kad raya yang akan dipos. Lain kali la kot or probably after raya or before raya. Insyallah..
Raya pun dah nak dekat. Lagi beberapa hari. Apa pun dengan kesempatan ini ingin saya mengucapkan selamat nak raya kepada anda semua dan maaf zahir batin. Maafkan atas keterlanjuran kata. Ampun maaf dipinta.
To edna and shell, all the best and good luck for your exams. :)
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::. Saturday| Oct 13th, 2006 | 12:34 am .::
RAYA MOOD
Banyak-banyak lagu raya. Lagu ini tetap menjadi idaman hati. Sempena raya pun tinggal beberapa minggu. Marilah melayan. Raya ni rasanya tade baju raya, sebab tailor tanak dah terima tempahan. Uhuks. Nampak gaya pakai baju lama gamaknya..
GNIROB
Not feeling well today. Had fever with free packages of flu, sore throat and cough. Somehow, I am still fasting eventhough my boss persuaded me not to. But I don’t care. Malas nak menggantikannya. Pembaziran jek. So, boss decided that I should stay at home and rest and he was hoping I could perform better for tomorrow’s classes.
So, here I am staying at home. Nama je MC. Tapi kena gi banklah, sidai kainlah, lipat bajulah. Amik kesempatan betul bonda ni. Boringnya. Margarita pun takde dah. Kalau tak, boleh harass. Nak tengok tv, not in the mood to watch any movies. Browsing the phonebook and decided to disturb comot. Somehow, can’t talk much to her as she is currently busy working. Haihh! Bowingnyaaaaaaa..
Shapik plak skolah. Lynn asked me a favour to update her myspace. Kejap nak camni, kejap nak camtu. Nak suh masuk lagu la. Inilah, itulah. Kesabaran jelah dibulan puasa. Tu je la update untuk hari ini. Sekian. Selamat puasa dan menjamu selera bagi mereka yang sakit pompwan.
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::. Sunday| Oct 1st, 2006 | 12:11 pm .::
IT AIN’T A LOVE LETTER
Is feeling guilty is VERY normal? I guess it depends on the situation. :|
Well, the hardest thing I did was to leave her all alone in the dark. I was not sure whether I have made a wise decision. Deep down in my heart I felt guilty, I questioned my decision. It’s killing me seeing her that night. It broke my heart to leave her just like that after what we’ve been through together for these past few years. I met her when I least expected to. I was at my lowest point and she was like a shooting star. She brought light where there was only darkness, hope where there was despair, love where there was none and passion where there was numbness.
She has been there with me through some of the toughest times of my life, and always cheers me out. I loved holding her, kissing her and just being with her. She always put that “Mona Lisa smile” upon my face. I know she definitely never read this and even understand this but I have to let it out. I love her so much. Goodbye, margarita. You’re the best cat I’ve ever had and I miss the way you purr..
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::. Sunday| Sept 24th, 2006 | 11:18 pm .::
SUSHI FOR TWO
First day of fasting, woke up quite early. Not for breakfast instead painted the house and decorated my own room. Well, comot was teasing me during sahur about those were the days when I started to confess my feelings to her. I could not help but blush when she recalls what I have said to her, and the rest is history.
What can I say, I am totally in love with this girl. There is just something that I couldn't explain. The woosh woosh feelings that I am feeling. I know sometimes I can be a real pain in the ass. Just like others, we do argue. So, life isn’t that perfect. There is always a rollercoaster ride.
Anyways whatever it is..one thing for sure I love her to the core of my being and just like a blossom growing, my love for her grows and it gets stronger and stronger everyday.
To you baby:
This world is full of beautiful characters and for me you are one of them. The most beautiful girl I know, both on the inside as well as the outside.. and here's you fav. song :*
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::. Wednesday| Sept 20th, 2006 | 10:48 pm .::
SUICIDE
It’s better to keep myself shut or else I’ll kill myself..
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::. Wednesday| Sept 6th, 2006 | 8:15 pm .::
JUST ANOTHER FUCKING DAY
I had a fucking day the whole day of Wednesday.
Somehow, today is my sister's birthday. I hope I could tell her of how much I care and love her very much. Maybe someday…
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::. Monday| Sept 3th, 2006 | 9:25 pm .::
ALERT
I feel like typing more sentences. More vocabulary. But I just can't think of any good sentences. I think and I think. I think I should be thinking about the things that are bothering. But on second thoughts, I think I shouldn't be thinking about the things that are really bothering because the things that are really bothering are totally disturbing my sleeping and now it's really confusing. I dunno what am I typing.
I think and I think my uncle fever is attacking..
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::. Sunday| August 20th, 2006 | 10:59 pm .::
MOREISH
Arghh!! What an entirely busy and knackering weekend. Somehow, for the first time I went to National Science Centre at Bukit Kiara. I felt like a kiddie, been pushing all the buttons and made a rocket. Huhu! After that, headed to One Utama and had sushi for lunch. Now, I’m not only in love with chuka iidako but also smoked salmon, unagi, uzura and loads more. Yummy!!!
But most of all, I'm in love with her. Of course my one and only baby, comot..
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::. Friday| August 18th, 2006 | 11:23 pm .::
!@#$%^&*
I’ve been cursing and cursing these past few weeks as I really hated one of my officemate. I just couldn’t even look at her face. I don’t really know whether she’s acting dumb or she’s actually dumb. She is so proud of herself and claiming that she used to study in Aussie. So what? I need to give her special treatment? Like I care? I don’t even give a damn. Ada otak, tapi letak kat kepala lutut. Use your brain la. HOH!! !@#$%^&*
Oh btw, I went to PC Fair last Sunday and spent few hundred ringgits for gadget stuff and proudly I had the chance to shake hands with Tun Dr. Mahathir bin Mohamad. :)

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::. Wednesday| August 16th, 2006 | 12:14 am .::
TONG KU NAN YI SHI HUAI
Things have been bloody hard these days. Anyways, sit back and enjoy this song.
*singing*
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::. Wednesday| August 9th, 2006 | 10:24 pm .::
The genre of my life is unscripted comedy. Eventhough sometimes it is drama but people still laugh at it. To them it's very entertaining, amusing, compelling and humorous. In other word, FUNNY. But hey!! It ain't funny mister!!! I ain't laughing.
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::. Sunday| August 6th, 2006 | 9:33 pm .::
Well, had an “intellectual discussion” with my sister. What can I say she is just plain evil! Evil! Evil! Evil! Evil!
I went out with bonda today to IKEA because.. Sale! Sale! Sale! A lot of people out there was shopping and even window shopping. I wanted to grab something but that something was too big which was not enough to fit in the car. So at last I end up to be in the just-look-look-only-not-buying category.
Oh ya!! I’ve watched The Lady in the Water by M. Night Shyamalan. I was almost fallen asleep while watching the movie. It is truly disappointment to me. Somehow, I love the music.
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::. Monday| July 31st, 2006 |11:55 pm .::
THANK YOU

from her to him
So, another year older. There’s nothing to brag about or even to be proud of. Age really is just a number. According to Edna, “old at age but young at heart”. Something like that. :)
Anyways, I’d like to say thank you, namaste, maraming maraming salamat po for the birthday wishes. Too many names to mention here. Thank y’all with all my heart ya.
To comot thank you for the so-called card that you’ve given me and for the things you’ve done to me. Eventhough you’re busy these days, my heart stays with you. There’s nothing in this world that I want except for your boundless love. Love you heaps.
Again, thank you so much to all of you out there for being so thoughtful and all the wishes. Very much appreciated..
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::. Monday| July 24th, 2006 | 7:55 pm .::
I pity my kids as I wasn't really into teaching today. I guess they can sense it as I gave them the fake smile . I've been cursing myself in the staff room. Well, not only me.. everybody in the room had been affected by my "cursing disease". Ahh!! Enough of this worthless entry.
END.
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::. Sunday| July 23rd, 2006 | 12:13 pm .::
So I had my weekend marathon and my day out yesterday turned out to be a disaster. Sigh. I guess I have to stop living my life in my head. Oh ya speaking of the Pirates movie, it makes me wanna stop eating chuka iidako (baby octopus) for a month. Yuck!
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::. Wednesday| July 19th, 2006 | 8:44 pm .::
MOVIE MARATHON
I wanted to revamp euphoria but I don’t have the time to design. By the time I reached home, I already tired and my brain isn’t working anymore. Plus, I’m not that creative to design or create superb graphic or whatsoever. I have a true passion for graphic design and how I wish I’m a graphic design student. Too bad I am stuck in ‘business world’ which I left few years ago and can’t even remember all those business thingy terms. Hmm.. Guess I’ll be stuck forever teaching young kids.
Anyways, I’ve plan to watch Pirates of the Caribbean: The Curse of the Black Pearl at least the half part of it by today as I’ve promised her I WILL finish the whole movie before this Saturday. I borrowed the vcd from a friend few months back and until today I still hasn’t watch it. Eheks. Well, I’m looking forward to watch Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest this Saturday and not forgetting the Lake House. I guess Saturday is a marathon movie day.
Opps!! On second thought, I think I should start the marathon by this Friday. The lists are:
1.
The O.C Season 3
2. Smallville Season 5
Then followed by..
1.
Mr. Holland’s Opus
2. Memoirs of A Geisha
3. Lucky Number Slevin
4. The Inside Man
5. Munich
I wonder whether I manage to watch all these. Huhu! Anyways it just a planning. :P
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::. Tuesday| July 18th, 2006 | 10:20 pm .::
I’ve read an article about “Loser Guys and the Women Who Love Them”. Am I belongs to this category or different category?
Well, searching for an answer..
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Thursday| July 6th, 2006 | 10:19 pm .::
WHY????
This song has been playing on my mind on and on and on. It's really a catchy song. I didn't know who's the singer. Then today I just realised that I'm in love with Paris Hilton. THAT never across my mind. Somehow, someway I just can't stop listen to it over and over again. YUCK!! I'm ashamed to like this song. Even admiting that i like it.
..shit! Kill me now!!
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::. Monday| June 19th, 2006 | 8:48 pm .::
I wish I could be at home few days ago. I just can’t wait. Then yesterday, I’m glad to be home. But as for today, I wasn’t that glad. I wish to be somewhere else not at my so called home.
Anyways, have you ever been in a situation where the best thing you could do is the hardest thing you've ever done? My life has been so open to the public and it's time I start to have some privacy..
P/S: By the way, happy birthday Aneem! Have a wonderful birthday.
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::. Tuesday| June 6th, 2006 | 11:18 pm .::
UNCLE'S FEVER ATTACK!!
I had an attack of uncle’s fever these past few days at very high risk which cause damage to the heart and involve the soul. I believe the person who gets this fever is probably more than 100 percent and the symptoms of uncle’s fever are acute. The major symptoms are paroxysm, tantrum, melancholy, anxiety, insomnia, food cravings, fatigue, chest pain and lethargy. Perhaps this fever could increases the risk for anorexia. In general, most patients will recover to good health within several months with treatment.
I tried to diagnose acute uncle’s fever but it was difficult to do so and there are no specific laboratory tests that are available. Somehow there are treatments for uncle’s fever but frankly speaking antibiotics are no use and will not modify an acute uncle’s fever attack. However, recommended a daily regimen of affection and attention prescribed for treatment of heart is recommended to eradicate any virus remaining in the patient.
Precautions should be taken by the person who has had uncle’s fever and should receive continuous affection and attention. In other words, uncle’s fever can be prevented by showering patient with more love, love, love and love. But in my case.. it can only be cured by the goddess named Comot.
hint!!! hint!!!
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::. Monday| June 5th, 2006 | 8:55 pm .::
....
Every time as I am about to go to sleep I just don’t feel like shutting my eyes because I’m so afraid that everything will be different when I wake up from sleep the next day. How I wish my life could be just like a fairy tale which I lived happily ever after.
*sigh*
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::. Monday| May 29th, 2006 | 11:12 pm .::
Seribu
satu alasan.
Promise is just a promise.
"I tried to be perfect, it just wasn't worth it.."
::
Sum 41
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::. Friday| May 26th, 2006 | 10:57 pm .::
PATIENCE
It’s really frustrating seeing the kids were not trying at all and showed no effort when you’re trying so hard to help them. It’s not an easy task. Somehow, alhamdullilah patience controlled me to prevent me from committing wrong verbal or physical acts.
Sometimes I feel like giving up..
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::. Thursday| May 25th, 2006 | 10:24 pm .::
JUST..
Sometimes I wish I could be like someone else or I could be different. At times I wish I could be a movie director so that I know the ending of my so-called journey of life. What the heck!!! Anyways, life is a never-ending story.
Oh well..the more time I spend with the kids, the more I grow to love them, as if they are my own. And I was wondering am I gonna be a good father? I cannot wait to have one of my own. Err.. maybe two, three. Ohh!! Four enough said.
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::. Wednesday| May 24th, 2006 | 4:06 am .::
JUST A THOUGHT
Sometimes talking to a rock is much more better and make sense rather than talking to a human being as we are already aware that rocks do not have feelings or thoughts. Even a four year-old kid would understand that rocks do not have feelings or thoughts. Why is that? Because we as human beings are gifted with a tool called mind, while the rock does not. Aldous Leonard Huxley, a British author claims that "most human beings have an almost infinite capacity for taking things for granted". I guess most people would agree with him but then they tend to ignore it.
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::. Tuesday| May 23rd, 2006 | 11:52 pm .::
AKU, DIA DAN TOASTER
Cerita ini adalah rekaan semata-mata. Sebarang jalan cerita, watak, atau dialog dalam cerita ini tidak ada kena-mengena dengan yang hidup, mati mahupun yang telah pupus. Jika ada persamaan, maka itu hanyalah kebetulan atau anggaplah ianya tiada kebetulan.
Di suatu malam kelihatan seekor kamben keseorangan sedang memakan rumput. Kamben terasa boring lalu mencapai hensetnya dan menghantar pesanan kepada singa..
Kamben : Mbeeekkk!! Wahai sang singa, pukul berapa kiranya singa mahu pulang ke rumah? Aku merinduimu. Mbekkk..
Beberapa minit kemudian..
Singa : Ngaummm. Pukul satu wahai sang kamben. Aku merinduimu jua. Aku tengah menyental toaster yang karat sepertimu kamben. Ngaumm..
Kamben : Sampai hati kamu menyamakan aku dengan toaster wahai sang singa. Karat-karat pun tetap berguna.
Singa ketawa berdekah-dekah lalu menyambung..
Singa : Ngauummmkahkhakahka..Ngaummmkhakahkahka. Marilah sini wahai toaster karat kambenku. Adekah kau merinduiku?
Kamben : Mbekkk.. Kalau tidak merindui, masakan aku menghantar pesanan kepada kamu sang singa. Ngembekkk..
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::. Sunday| May 22nd, 2006 | 10:52 pm .::
SUNDAY
Nothing much to post in here as today i am so unproductive. Been sleeping the whole day, too lazy to watch TV, DVDs, do homework, to bath my kittens, etc. I'm just plain lazy to do anything today accept laying on my bed the whole day. Been playing the song given by Edna over and over again. Thanks girl. Love that song very much. :)
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::. Sunday| May 22nd, 2006 | 1:26 am .::
ADDICTED TO HER
These past few days.. I just couldn’t help myself. I really miss her to the max. I love her so much. She gives me strength beyond numbers, encouraged me to stand on my own two feet, to think for myself and spoilt me like a child. Not only that, she also taught me to believe in myself and most importantly the art of patience. All of this and a whole lot more makes me fall even more deeply in love with her. She’s the one of the greatest I’ve ever had and ever will have. There is nobody else like her, nobody else that can make me smile like she does, nobody else that I'd want to share so much time with, nobody else that completes me. I love her not because of who she is, but because of who I am when I am with her.
She is a delicate butterfly flitting around in the sky that eventually landed on the back of my hand, a wonder to behold. I hope she never flies away.
I love comot..
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::. Friday| May 19th, 2006 | 10:43 pm .::
MEMENTO VIVERE
Life at times can be so unfair. We meet this unfairness in peculiar and unforeseen places or even situation. Somehow we have to deal with it no matter whether it is fair, cruel or unfair. It’s true that ‘homo vitae commodatus non donatus est’ which means man has been lent to life, not given. Life is too short.
I received news about a good friend of mine which her bf had just passed away last night. I’m sad and felt hopeless as I don’t know what to do to calm her. I don’t want to see her suffer. I just hope she could be strong.
Every living things will die someday and I know I will die someday but I’m just not sure when the time will come. It is just a matter of time. It could happen today, maybe tomorrow. I don’t know. Life is full of surprises. C.S Lewis once said, “Life is too deep for words, so don't try to describe it, just live it”.
Yeah, I guess he is right. Don’t describe it, just live it.
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::. Thursday| May 18th, 2006 | 10:06 pm .::
STRESSED
Today is totally hectic. I am physically and mentally tired. The kids went overboard. I feel like screaming and ripping out all my hair.
I need a vacationnnnn!!!
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::. Tuesday| May 16th, 2006 | 11:04 pm .::
MIXSTORY
It was a very tiring weekend. To hang out and clubbing with the boss is totally not a wise idea. Everything was okay accept for one thing.. But what can I say that is the first and the last I go out with them and I’ve already made my promise to Comot. Anyways, not going to tell you the details about that night..
So, the next day which was Saturday I went out with Sya and the rest to go to Lowyatt to buy some DVDs mainly The Da Vinci Code but too bad they don’t have it except for the documentary. Then, we headed to KLCC and had an unpleasant conversation with one of the pak guard, which is totally imbecile!!
Mother’s Day? Thought of belanja-ing bonda to Chillis or Victoria Station but then ended up eating at Nando’s since dad was too lazy to go out. Hmm..
Teacher’s Day? I didn’t expect anything from the kids. Somehow, I received a rose and a present from one of my kids who is a girl. And inside the class she kept on playing with my fingers on the table. Cute~
To teachers out there, “Happy Teacher’s Day” and as for those who is going to be a mother or already a mother, “Happy Belated Mother’s Day”. :)
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::. Friday| May 12th, 2006 | 3:53 pm .::
GLAD IT'S PUBLIC HOLIDAY
Today woke up quite late. Erm.. not quite. But really late. I miss to wake up late. I am glad as well as I don’t have to wake up early to go to work and to teach. I am not in the mood of teaching these days. Yesterday, had a hard time with one of the kids which suddenly I had an asthma attack. Totally, I am exhausted.
So, I woke up today and realized I had 3 sms and 4 missed calls which are basically from my boss. Apalah orang tua ni nak gamaknya. Sya was pissed off with me as I chose to go out with my colleagues today rather than spending time with the group to visit the animals at the zoo. Perhaps tomorrow..
As for tonight, I wasn’t so sure whether I am going to join my colleagues. But the possibility is 60%. Ahh!! Dunno. Last night, I was thinking. Am I really a nuisance? Sometimes I feel hopeless. Yes, pathetic I am. At times, I just wish I am not really exist in this world but then again, I should be grateful to bonda for bringing me into this world. Speaking of bonda, mother’s day is just around the corner. What should I get for her? That reminds me, I need to do my own shopping list.
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::. Wednesday| May 10th, 2006 | 11:07 pm .::
WHATEVER YOU WANNA NAME IT
Anyways, enough of my rencana. A friend was saying that my blog is getting serious lately. I know my bm sucks but somehow I don’t care what others think of my bm. I know it sucks. Hmm.. Well, my colleagues and bosses have been persuading me and even coaxing me to join them to go clubbing. Frankly speaking, I’m not a clubber and I don’t really fancy to dance in front of others or even be in that kind of place. I would prefer to stay at home watching tv or play playstation. I know it sounds lame but believe it or not I went there only once. For conclusion, I still haven’t make up my mind.
Oh ya.. I applied KPLI. I know I’m not qualified ‘cause I don’t read newspaper. I don’t know what is and was happening lately. My general knowledge is totally OUT. But I know there is someone out there who volunteered to help me out to provide me with all the information. Thank you to you. Really appreciated. :)
I guess that’s all for now. I’ll update more soon. But I don't know how soon is soon.
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::. Friday| May 5th, 2006 | 8:53 pm .::
SENGAL
Hari ini hujan turun dengan lebat. Habis basah kuyup dan terbersin-bersin anak kucing. Disebabkan hujan yang lebat turun tak henti-henti, lubang si tikus mondok habis banjir. Anak kucing sekali lagi mendongak ke atas, kemudian ke kiri dan ke kanan. Skali skala terasa kesunyian. Manalah tahu kalau-kalau ternampak semut api. Boleh juga diganggu. Tetapi, semut api sudah pergi. Pergi mencari sebiji nasik yang melayang-layang. Kesian semut api.
Burung hantu? Burung hantu barangkali sibuk memburu mencari makanan. Seharian burung hantu tidak kelihatan. Anak kucing semakin penat. Bukan penat menunggu. Tetapi penat akibat bermain dengan lalang sendirian. Tinggallah anak kucing bersama tikus mondok berteduh di bawah pondok.
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::. Thursday| May 4th, 2006 | 8:42 pm .::
MONDOK YANG BUROK
Di suatu sudut kelihatan seekor tikus mondok sedang memerhatikan anak kucing. Tikus mondok tidak tahan untuk tinggal di dalam lubang kerana tempat itu semakin hari semakin bising. Ini menyukarkan tikus mondok untuk tidur mahupun melelapkan matanya walau beberapa saat. Puas tikus mondok mengorek lubang sedalam-dalamnya tetapi bunyi itu masih kedengaran. Mula-mula perlahan, kemudian kuat. Perlahan, kuat, perlahan, kuat. Mahu saja tikus mondok lari daripada lubang tersebut tetapi ada sesuatu yang menghalang tikus mondok untuk berbuat demikian. Tikus mondok pergi ke arah anak kucing. Anak kucing berasa takut. Takut akan tikus mondok yang hodoh lagi burok. Anak kucing memerhatikan tikus mondok dan tikus mondok memerhatikan anak kucing. Hari semakin gelap. Anak kucing takutkan gelap. Anak kucing masih memerhatikan tikus mondok dan tikus mondok masih memerhatikan anak kucing. Diam membisu, tanpa bercakap.
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::. Thursday| May 4th, 2006 | 6:39 pm .::
THE OWL AND THE PUSSYCAT II
Anak kucing masih menunggu burung hantu sambil mendongak ke atas awan. Tiba-tiba kelihatan burung hantu berterbang sana ke mari bersama burung-burung yang lain. Anak kucing hanya mampu melihat. Ingin skali jauh di sudut dalam hatinya terbang bersama mereka yang lain. Anak kucing berfikir sekejap adakah burung hantu sudah melupakannya. Yang pasti, burung hantu kelihatan sangat gembira berterbangan di atas awan sehingga melupakan anak kucing di celah rimbunan lalang.
Anak kucing cuba memanjat pokok dan mencakar-cakar ranting kayu untuk memberi tanda isyarat kepada burung hantu tetapi malang tidak berbau, anak kucing jatuh ke tanah. Apabila jatuh ke tanah, anak kucing terlihat semut api yang sedang sibuk mengangkat sebiji nasi. Anak kucing tidak menolong semut tersebut sebaliknya meniup ke kiri dan ke kanan sehingga berterbanganlah nasi tersebut. Semut api yang kerdil itu berasa marah lalu mengigit kaki anak kucing.
Anak kucing menjerit kesakitan. Semut api berasa puas kerana dendamnya terbalas. Semut api pun meninggalkan anak kucing untuk mencari kembali sebiji nasi yang terbang melayang tadi. Anak kucing kembali seorangan dan masih setia menunggu burung hantu.
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::. Wednesday| May 3th, 2006 | 10:37 pm .::
THE OWL AND THE PUSSYCAT I
Alkisah, pada suatu ketika dahulu ada seekor anak kucing. Anak kucing ini tidak ada kawan. Lalu dia pun berjalan-jalan seorang diri bermain di celah lalang. Suatu hari anak kucing sesat jalan lalu anak kucing menangis tersedu-sedu. Walau bagaimanapun, tiba-tiba anak kucing terjumpa burung hantu. Lalu dia mengikut burung hantu tersebut. Jadi mereka pun mula menjadi kawan dan selalu bermain bersama. Anak kucing begitu terpesona dengan cara penerbangan burung hantu. Lalu, anak kucing menyatakan hasratnya untuk belajar terbang.
Namun begitu, burung hantu tanpa kedekut ilmu mengajar anak kucing untuk terbang. Tetapi sebelum terbang mula-mula anak kucing memerlukan sayap. Lalu, anak kucing mula membuat sayap dengan menggunakan daun-daunan kering. Burung hantu tergeli hati melihat telatah anak kucing walaupun pada hakikatnya dia tahu yang anak kucing pasti tidak boleh terbang. Lama-kelamaan, burung hantu berasa penat kerana anak kucing tidak putus-putus asa untuk terbang. Burung hantu pun memarahi anak kucing dan menyuruhnya menerima kenyataan bahawa dia tidak boleh terbang tinggi melainkan dia adalah juga seekor burung. Anak kucing berasa sangat sedih dan juga hampa. Duduklah anak kucing disitu sendirian memikirkan nasibnya yang tidak boleh terbang itu.
Walaupun anak kucing tidak boleh terbang juga, namun dia ingin benar-benar terbang dan memberitahu anak-anak kucing lain bahawasanya dia sememangnya boleh terbang. Keesokkan harinya anak kucing menunggu burung hantu di tempat seperti biasa. Tetapi burung hantu masih juga tidak tiba-tiba. Anak kucing mula kecewa kerana burung hantu entah ke mana. Anak kucing mula tertanya-tanya, “Bolehkah aku terbang diangkasa?”
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::. Wednesday| May 3th, 2006 | 7:10 pm .::
PENGUMUMAN
Mulai daripada hari ini saya cuba untuk mengepostkan blog saya dengan menggunakan bahasa Melayu bagi membetulkan lagi pengunaan bahasa Melayu saya yang dikatakan memalukan bangsa sebagai orang Melayu. Sekian, terima kasih.
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::. Thursday| April 27th, 2006 | 7:51 pm .::
attention!!!
LIST OF RULES FOR GIRLS
Since World Cup is just around the corner, hereby the rules of do's and dont's for girls as a reminder..
1. From 9 June to 9 July 2006, you should read the The Sun's sport pages so you are aware of what's going on regarding the World Cup and will be able to join in the conversations. If you fail to do this, you'll be looked at in a bad way or be totally ignored. DO NOT complain about not receiving any attention.
2. During the World Cup, the television is mine at all times - without any exceptions.
3. I don't mind if you have to pass by in front of the TV during a game - as long as you do it crawling on the floor and without distracting me. If you decide to stand naked in front of the TV, make sure you put clothes on right after because if you catch a cold, I won't have time to take you to the doctor or look after you during the World Cup month.
4. During the games I will be blind, deaf and mute - unless I require a refill of my drink or something to eat. You are out of your mind if you expect me to listen to you, open the door, answer the telephone, or pick up the baby that just fell from the second floor....it won't happen.
5. It would be a good idea for you to keep at least two six packs in the fridge at all times, as well as plenty of things to nibble on. And please do not make any funny faces to my friends when they come over to watch the games. In return, you will be allowed to use the TV between 12am and 6am, unless they replay a good game that I missed during the day.
6. Please, please, please if you see me upset because one of my teams is losing, DO NOT say "get over it, its only a game" or "don't worry, they'll win next time". If you say these things, you will only make me angrier and I will love you less. Remember, you will never ever know more about football than me and your so called "words of encouragement" will only lead to a break-up or divorce.
7. You are welcome to sit with me to watch one game and you can talk to me during half-time but only when the adverts are on, and only if the score is pleasing me. In addition, please note I am saying "one" game, hence do not use the World Cup as a nice cheesy excuse to "spend time together".
8. The replays of the goals are very important. I don't care if I have seen them or I haven't seen them, I want to see them again. Many times.
9.
Tell your friends NOT to have any babies, or any other child
related parties or gatherings that requires my attendance
because:
a) I will not go,
b) I will not go, and
c) I will not go.
10. But, if a friend of mine invites us to his house on a Sunday to watch a game, we will be there in a flash.
11. The daily World Cup highlights show on TV every night is just as important as the games themselves. Do not even think about saying "but you have already seen this...why don't you change the channel to something we can all watch?" The reply will be: "Refer to Rule #2 of this list".
12. And finally, please save your expressions such as "Thank God the World Cup is only every 4 years".
I am immune to these words, because after this comes the Champions League, Italian League, Spanish League, Premier League, etc etc.
Thank you for your cooperation.
Regards,
Men of the World
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::. Sunday| April 23rd, 2006 | 5:53 pm .::
Y.O.U
I am glad I finally found someone.. You know who you are. I love you everyday. *hugs*
"My
favorite line was 'Can I call you sometime?', it's all you
had to say to take my breath away..."
:: Barbara Streisand
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::. Sunday| April 23rd, 2006 | 5:39 pm .::
TOTAL FAILURE
Today is sunday and been doing nothing except lying on the bed. Well, it is not that easy to be a part of someone’s world or to get close to someone. I’ve been trying to act friendly until at one stage I went blank and I know I’ve failed.
Then, a friend said to me “you don't have to make an effort. pointnyer..take it easy. kalau takleh masuk, let it be-lah”.
Yeah, I guess I should let it be.. at least I’ve tried. :|
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::. Friday| March 30th, 2006 | 12:22 am .::
JUST A NOTE..
It is an honour to receive something from the kids.. i.e drawings, letters, chocolates, souvenirs, etc.. I feel appreciated. :)

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::. Tuesday| March 27th, 2006 | 11:24 pm .::
HIGHTLIGHTS FROM THE WEEK OF 10th MARCH
Anyways, I quit another job last few weeks as I thought of earning more money by working from 8am till 10pm. Somehow, I realized that I am torturing myself not only physically but also mentally. Then, I decided to QUIT after I’ve been self defending my stubbornness.
What else? Recently my modem got struck by lightning and fried my network card. This explains why I went MIA. Then, when to Sepang circuit last week to watch Malaysian Grand Prix and I am pleased to announce that I am Renault supporter. :P

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::. Friday| March 10th, 2006 | 5:04 pm .::
JAI GURU DEVA OM
i always teach the kids to be patience but somehow i, myself was so impatience these days. maybe because im exhausted of the intense workloads and schedules or maybe because i miss her so much? and i wonder whether does yoga really works as some people were saying it helps reduce stress. hmm..
thought of the day :
“…becoming a member of Celebrity Fitness in Subang Parade.”
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::. Thursday| February 23rd, 2006 | 5:16 am .::
WHAT MAKES HUMAN TICK?
SHE
SAID:
why is it so hard for people to be honest!! pantang nenek moyang
sungguh if people trying to hide konon2 everything is ok padahal
it’s not!! how can you mention “at least i respect
you"..what the?!! is that what you call respect?!..respected
people are honest people..helloOO!!
HE
SAID:
hmm.. well, i wanted to be honest of what i am feeling but somehow,
i chose to keep my mouth shut as i dont want to hurt her feelings
of remembering things which she do not really wants to recall them
anymore. because of my decision to apply ’just-keep-it-to-myself’
theory, i received tons of sarcasm, harsh words and cold replies.
hmm.. so instead of hurt her, i chose to be hurt. anyways, quote
of the day..
“i’m not concern with your liking or disliking me.. all i ask is that you respect me as a human being.."
SHE
SAID:
is it really “things which she do not really wants to
recall OR things that u cant still get over with?”
im seriously not happy on what uve done..what uve promised me u
cant keep. that is to say whatever things that u like or dislike
straight to me regarding me or others. i can tolerate the pain rather
than lies. there is no “i dont want to hurt her feelings”
when u’re dealing with me.
im tired of pushing u of doing that. maybe ive pushed u too much to be who u dont want to be. perhaps we should just act like nothing happened which i can try to tolerate. hmm i think i should
HE
SAID:
act like nothing’s happened is not the solution. this could
happen again. we don’t have skin like kerbau which we can’t
feel anything. i called, you hung up the phone before i even finish
my last sentence. hmm.. when i realised my mistakes and i apologised,
you said “don’t say it unless u mean it”.
i just don’t get it and it only leads to a bigger fight. so
what more can i say. this time around i’m not gonna apologised
as i also realised..
..sorry is not the best way to end an argument.
SHE
SAID:
seriously tell me..what is the think that U think i dont want to
be recalled of?
his words: hmm.. when i realised my mistakes and i apologised, you said “don’t say it unless u mean it”.
her words: btw, that was my sentence when we had a fight last time..why do u have to apply it now? plus do u know whats that mean? it means..if u are going to repeat the mistake over and over again..dont apologize.
HE
SAID:
“true love never runs smooth..”
that’s how the good old saying goes.. if everything is ever so sweet and smooth, we wouldn’t have learn to really appreciate and cherish the love that is between ourselves and our love. anyways, for all the things i’ve said and for all the things i’ve done. somehow, i’d like to apologise from the bottom of my heart. i can’t bear this any longer. i love you baby, i am really so sorry to have hurt you and please forgive me..
SHE
SAID:
no matter how annoying u can be..i still cant resist u… i
guess the best way for us is to hang on to each other as long as
we can..to lose u is to lose happiness…i love u so much *hugs*
HE
SAID:
i love you too *bear hug*
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::. Monday| February 6th, 2006 | 6:53 am .::
am i that weak? i find myself regularly being walked on by demanding people, take advantage on me, even use me as their punching bag especially venusian people who i love the most. i’m so tired. as if i do not deserve to earn respect. i want to be respected!!! i do deserve it. why can’t i?
anyways, i was wondering whether anne has reached here safely. hope she had a great time in bali..
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::. Sunday| February 5th, 2006 | 10:41 am .::
so yesterday, i went out to meet my old friends.. some sort of gathering and most of them are married. just a bunch of us still trying to maintain the title of being bachelor and bachelorette. well, as usual when we got together the girls would basically gossiping about the lecturers, who’s dating who, etc. and the boys would be talking about girls — who’s hot and who’s not.
then, they were talking about their kids, how cute they were and me, looking at their babies it makes me wanna have my own kids soon. so, when i got home i told her of how much i wanted to be a father. i want to make babies with her. of course that after we got married. i think i scare her when i told her about all this stuff. lol! anyways, i want to change the diapers, to bathe the baby, feed and hold the baby. i want to be a father to our lil adam and lil her. i want to be the best, much better than the rest. huhu
oh~ i guess i just have to wait for the right time to come.. *patience*
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::. Saturday| February 4th, 2006 | 6:28 am .::
one day to go.. where? to work. arghh!! speaking of going to work, do i really have to? yes, i do miss the kids but i’m just still not in the mood of teaching yet. i need to set my brain because i am still in the mood of long holidays. if i didn’t go to work who’s gonna feed my six cats. i repeat six as number 6 and plus my newborn kittens. i won’t let them starve to death. how i wish i have a fairy godmother so that she can use the wand and bouncy “Bibbidi-Bobbidi-Boo“.. “Kepoof!!” transforms all the cats into BMWs. hahaha! dream on.
anyways, chiisa na goro ni hoshi ni negai wo kaketa no.. taisetsu na hito ni meguriaeru you ni.
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::. Thursday| February 2nd, 2006 | 10:29 pm .::
MAN TALK
oh well, suddenly when i woke up this morning i remembered the talk that i had with my ex future brother in law early this year. hehe. it’s a long story. man to man talk. this guy, he still loves my sister. but what to do they were not meant to be together. i think of all my sister’s ex bf, i am close to this one. maybe because i am more comfortable and we shared opinions together. eventhough, they did not communicate much after the “separate” thingy, we are still friends. the last thing i remembered he said to me was..
"love in the past is only memory, love in the future is a fantasy, only here and now can we truly love"
eheks.. i know he must read it from somewhere. but somehow, it strikes me on the head. thanks bro!
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::. Tuesday| January 31st, 2006 | 6:11 am .::
NO THANKS!
to be the middle person is not an honourable job. i dunno why i get myself involved in a fight between my friend and her ex-bf, which happens to be my friend as well. arghh!! both of them have been telling me this and that. im trying to be neutral and trying to be a good listener. not because i don’t have much business to do but of course because they’re my friends. but again, somehow one of them blamed me for backing the other one. i don’t understand why they can’t just settle it like adults and why do they need the middle man, basically me to be the postman? why make things complicated?
heh!! look who’s typing. i myself, love to make things complicated
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::. Saturday| January 28th, 2006 | 2:37 am .::
INEVITABLE
eventhough i have many choices, but i chose to be clark kent. but i know it’s not that easy..
*sigh*