SEPTEMBERARCHIVES

Friday, September 28, 2001

"Loss"

I've never heard more beautiful words than what Luis just said about Sheridan. I don't even think Shakespeare could have written anything more beautiful! Luis' words came directly from the heart-you could hear the love in his voice. The way he spoke about Sheridan's loving heart-how she helped out those in need and reached out to those who needed love-just made her loss even more devastating. How could such a beautiful, loving person be gone? And how can the rest of us-especially Luis-go on without her?

Thursday, September 27, 2001

"I'll Be There For You"

I don't know how Luis is going to get through Sheridan's funeral. Saying goodbye to the woman he loves more than anything in the world...it's too much to even think about. But that's exactly what Luis has to do in just a little while. It's going to be hard-so hard-for all of us, but the most important thing is that we are all here for Luis. I'm going to focus all of my energy on helping Luis get through the hardest time of his life.

Wednesday, September 26, 2001

"No Words"

I can't believe Sheridan is gone. But Luis said so himself-he looked at the records that were sent from Harmony. And Luis would be one hundred percent sure before he said anything. I don't understand how two people so in love-so perfect for each other-can be separated like this. It's so unfair. They should be able to live long and happy lives together. I have to go comfort Luis-although I have no idea what to say right now. What could I possibly say to help him at a time like this? What can possibly ease the pain of losing the love of his life?

Tuesday, September 25, 2001

"Wait is a Four Letter Word"

I feel so incredibly powerless! All I can do right now is wait. Wait for the fax to come through from Harmony with Sheridan's fingerprints and dental records. Wait for Luis to finally find Sheridan. Wait for the annulment from Julian. I just want everything to be settled-for the fax to arrive, for Luis to find Sheridan, and for the annulment to come through. I swear I can't stand waiting anymore!

Monday, September 24, 2001

"Proof of Life"

Words can't express what I'm feeling right now. Seeing the woman in the body bag was beyond horrible. Luis is right...that woman can't be Sheridan. Sheridan is so beautiful, full of life-nothing like what I just saw. Once Sheridan's fingerprints and dental records are faxed down here, Luis will have the proof he needs. We'll know for sure that can't be Sheridan's body...and then Luis can go find her once and for all!

Friday, September 21, 2001

"A True Miracle"

I thought my marriage to Julian was all just a crazy nightmare...leave it to Whitney to snap me back to reality. And while it is a nightmare-it's also all too real. But I'm not going to think about myself and this crazy mess right now. What's most important is getting downstairs and being there for Luis and Sheridan. It's such a miracle that Sheridan is alive and they will finally be reunited. I can't wait to see the look on Luis' face when he sees Sheridan for the first time. I better hurry downstairs!

Thursday, September 20, 2001

"Dream Diary Entry #1"

I had the most awful dream...thank God Ethan was here to tell me it was nothing but a nightmare. It was so strange-I actually married Mr. Crane! And we were both acting so strange...it was nothing like how we are in real life. It was almost like we were drunk or something-could you even imagine that? I wonder why I would dream that Mr. Crane and I got married. I guess Freud would have something to say about it. But as far as I'm concerned, it doesn't mean anything. Ethan and I are going to get married as soon as possible. He's the only man I've ever wanted to spend my whole life with-the only man I would ever marry!

Wednesday, September 19, 2001

"Happily Ever After"

I'm so tired...so incredibly tired...but I'm so glad I woke up for just a little bit. Ethan, Luis, and Chad are alive! I just knew they were. I knew in my heart that they couldn't be gone. And now that we know Sheridan is alive too, everything is perfect. We can all finally live happily ever after...that is, after I go back to sleep.

Monday, September 17, 2001

"A Letter to Ethan"

Dear Ethan,
I hope you know that I would never, ever intentionally hurt you. I love you more than life itself. But I have hurt you through the mistakes I've made. I wish I could take them all back, but I can't-so there is nothing left to do but tell you the truth. Oh Ethan, I've done something terrible. It all started when I came down to Bermuda to ask Mr. Crane to take you back into the Crane family. I thought I could help repair the damage I did when I scanned your mother's papers into my laptop. But I only did more damage. Once I found Mr. Crane, I tried to convince him over dinner about why he should take you back. He kept giving me champagne, and I kept drinking it hoping that if I just stayed with him long enough, I'd be able to persuade him. After a while, the details become foggy as I drank more and more...so I might as well just come out and tell you. I don't remember what happened, but somehow I married Julian! I know it's too horrible to imagine, but it's the truth. And I can't have lies between us anymore, Ethan-I had to tell you the truth. I just hope our love is strong enough to overcome this. I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me because I love you more than anything in the world.

All my love,
Theresa
WHY DO I HAVE A FEELING I'M NEVER GOING TO SEND THIS LETTER?

Monday, September 10, 2001

"Theresa's To Do List, Fall 2001"
1. Get out of this mess with Julian! (And then never hear his name again)!
2. Burn the marriage license and photos of the wedding.
3. Marry Ethan-this time for real!
4. Find a new job-I don't think Mrs. Crane still wants me as her assistant.
5. Help Ethan get his law career off the ground again.

*The rest of this week was preempted due to NBC's coverage of tragic events

Friday, September 7, 2001

"Top Five Worst Days of My Life"
5. Our engagement party-when Ethan learned he wasn't a Crane.
4. Seeing Miguel, Kay, and Charity trapped in the fires of hell.
3. My wedding day
2. Yesterday-marrying (and doing you-know-what with) Julian.
1. Today-learning that Ethan, Luis, Chad, and Sheridan might be gone forever!

Thursday, September 6, 2001

"Time Goes By"
A year ago, Ethan and I were in another life-and-death situation, but back then it was my life in danger. It was just a year ago that I had that terrible motorcycle accident and almost died. But Ethan saved my life, like the true hero he is. (I say "is" because I still refuse to believe that he's gone). It was when I was in the hospital that he gathered me in his arms, kissed me, and said, "I love you." He had finally realized his feelings for me and his love kept me alive. Dear God, don't let it be too late for my love to keep Ethan alive...

Wednesday, September 5, 2001

"Choose Your Own Adventure"
If only life were one of those "Choose Your Own Adventure" books. I used to love those when I was little. You'd get into a crazy situation and then there'd be two different options to choose from. You'd wind up in different circumstances depending on which option you chose. For instance, if you chose "A" you might wind up falling off a cliff and if you chose "B" you might wind up marrying the prince! Either way, you could always start over and do it all again! God, how I wish my life was one of those books right now. I'd go back to the part where I drank champagne with Julian and I'd have ginger ale instead! Better yet, I'd go back and never get on the plane down here. Then I wouldn't be in the nightmare I'm in now. Julian and I wouldn't be married. And most importantly, Ethan, Luis, Chad, and Sheridan would be safe and sound.

Tuesday, September 4, 2001

"The Flame of Hope"
Noooo! Mr. Crane can't be right. They can't all be gone-Ethan, Luis, Chad, and Sheridan! How can I live without Ethan, the man I love? He's my everything-my happiness, my comfort, my friend, and my love! And Luis...he's more than just an older brother. He's always been like a father to me. And Sheridan's such an amazing person-she and Luis had just found happiness together. And Chad...oh God, Chad...Whitney had found first, and true, love with him. They would have found their way back together-I just know it. How can life possibly be this cruel? How can they all be gone? In my heart, I don't believe that they are...

Monday, September 3, 2001

"Calling All Miracles"
That settles it. The army captain said they didn't find the bodies of Ethan, Luis, and Chad...so I refuse to believe that they are dead. I know he says there's no way anyone could survive out there but I've seen enough miracles to know they are possible. If Sheridan can come back from the dead and Miguel, Charity, and Kay can be rescued from the fires of hell...then I have every faith that Ethan, Luis, Chad, and even Sheridan, can survive this. And I know that the love and prayers Whitney and I send out will help keep them alive...