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| NOVEMBER ARCHIVES |
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| Week of November 26, 2001 |
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| Friday, November 30 2001 "A Watched Pot Never Boils" There's no way Dr. Russell's first test can be right. She's running the second test right now, and then we'll have the proof-I'm not pregnant with Julian's baby. That would be the biggest disaster of my entire life. No, it would be worse than that-my life would be over. Ethan would never forgive me and I'd lose him forever. What the heck is taking Dr. Russell so long? I thought these tests only took a few minutes. Not that it matters anyway. I know what it's going to say-that I'm absolutely, positively, 100 percent not pregnant with Julian Crane's baby! |
| Thursday, November 29 2001 "Chaos" What a day! Just when I think everything is settling down and I can finally sign the annulment papers...everything goes crazy again! All of a sudden Luis shows up, attacks Julian, and the next thing I know Julian is aiming a gun at my brother! And then before I know what's happening, I'm on the ground with everyone hovering over me. All I know is that I've never felt so dizzy before in my entire life. My God, can anything else possibly go wrong? Don't even say, Theresa...remember you still have to sign those annulment papers! |
| Wednesday, November 28, 2001 "Ouch!" Thank God I got here before Julian could tell Ethan about us sleeping together. That's one less thing to worry about. I must say, all this stress is really starting to take a toll on me. I've never had stomach pains like these before. Now I understand all those magazine articles in Cosmo about how your mind can affect your body! I think I'm going to have an ulcer by the time I sign those annulment papers. Speaking of, I just want to sign those papers, get out of here, and lie down for a nice long nap. |
| Tuesday, November 27, 2001 "Wherefore Art Thou, Julian?" I have to find Julian right away. Thank God Whitney made me realize that he could slip up and tell Ethan about us sleeping together. That would be the biggest disaster ever. Not only would Ethan freak about the fact that we slept together-he'd freak that he was hearing it from Julian. And I know exactly what would happen next...Ethan would kill Julian on the spot! Okay, there's no time to waste. I have to find Julian and give him the 411. Or we're all doomed! |
| Monday, November 26, 2001 "Moving Forward" I know Mama and Whitney think I should have told Ethan the truth, but I just couldn't! If he found out Julian and I slept together, it would really be over between us...this time for good! I couldn't take that chance-not after he forgave me for marrying Julian. I really feel like when he forgave me, it was like a "fresh start" for us-and there's no way I'm going to blow that fresh start. The only thing to do is to put the whole mess with Julian behind me-including waking up next to him in Bermuda-and move on. And the first step to doing that is signing the annulment papers, which have finally arrived at the mansion! I can't wait to put my signature on the dotted line! |
| Week of November 19 - 23, 2001 |
| Friday, November 23, 2001 "Things I Am Thankful For" 1. Ethan's love 2. My family's never-ending support 3. Whitney's friendship 4. The annulment papers 5. Ethan's forgiveness |
| Thursday, November 22, 2001 "Second Chances" I thought everything was over for me as soon as Ivy came into Dr. Russell's office. That woman will stop at nothing to turn Ethan against me. But, now I realize once and for all that true love can conquer anything. Despite all the insults Ivy threw my way...and all the ways she tried to convince Ethan to dump me...he still wants to be with me! Ethan wants to give our love another try! And I swear to God, this time I'm not going to let anything get in our way. This time, we're going to live happily ever after. |
| Wednesday, November 21, 2001 "Survivor: Harmony" Okay, I need a game plan for my "meeting" with Ethan. This is my chance to make everything right between us, and I absolutely cannot blow it. I have to think of this like "Survivor"-one wrong move, and I'm off the island forever! But if I go about this the right way, then I can be with Ethan forever! So...here's what I'm going to do. I'm going to be straightforward with Ethan. He knows what happened in Bermuda and why...there's no need to go over the excuses a million times. Instead of looking back and concentrating on the past, I'm going to focus on the future. I'm going to describe to Ethan how wonderful our future can still be together. I'll show him what our lives will be like-how our love will grow stronger every day...just like it always has. The key is to focus on the positive, not the negative-and that's exactly what I'm going to do. Okay, I'm ready. Nothing's can possibly go wrong now... |
| Tuesday, November 20, 2001 "Light at the End of the Tunnel" Ethan called and he wants to see me! That has to be a positive sign, right? I mean...if things were really, really over between us he wouldn't even want to talk to me, much less see me! I wonder why he wants to meet at Dr. Russell's office, though. That seems like a strange place to get together and work through everything. Wait a minute, Theresa-you're being crazy! Who cares where Ethan wants to meet? All that matters is that it's not over! In just a few minutes, I'm going to march into Dr. Russell's office and convince Ethan that I love him more than anything in the world and that from now on, he can trust me. Now that I know there's a shred of hope, I'm more determined than I've ever been in my life. I'm going to save my future with Ethan if it's the last thing I do! |
| Monday, November 19, 2001 "The Not-so Grand Finale" When Ethan walked out the door, it felt like my heart had been ripped out of my chest. It was like he took a part of me with him, and I'll never get it back if he's not in my life. Can it really be over between us? We've been through so much together. In just a few years, we've gone through more than most couples do in a lifetime. My God, we've survived his engagement to another woman, the truth about his paternity, opposition from family and friends, a failed wedding-but it only made us stronger, brought us closer together. I wish I could say that Ethan walking out the door was just another one of those obstacles-but it wasn't. I could tell it was different. The look on his face said it all-it's over, for good. I've lost the only man I've ever loved...and this time, I'm not going to get him back. |
| Week of November 12 - 16, 2001 |
| Friday, November 16, 2001 "That's What Friends are For" Thank God for Whitney. I don't know what I'd do without her. She shows up whenever I need her most-which, of course, seems to be quite often. Anyway, it really helped to talk to her before and just get everything off my chest. And she was right that we should go back to my house. It wasn't doing me any good to stay at the hospital at the slight possibility that Ethan would come back. It will be much better for me to be at home. Then I can get in my pajamas and curl up with a pint of Ben and Jerry's. And hopefully Whitney will stay and listen to me talk about the fact that my life has fallen apart... |
| Thursday, November 15, 2001 "My Worst Nightmare" My life is over! I've lost Ethan. I know it-I saw the look in his eyes when he ran out of here. I've never seen him look so hurt, so betrayed-and it's all because of me. How can I have caused the man I love such horrible pain? It doesn't matter how...the fact is, I did. And now he's never going to forgive me for what I've done. I've lost the man I love forever. |
| Wednesday, November 14, 2001 "The Clock is Ticking" If Dr. Russell can just keep Ivy away from Ethan for a few minutes, I'll have time to tell him the truth. Maybe if he hears it from me, it won't be so bad. This could be my only chance to save my relationship...to save my entire future. |
| Tuesday, November 13, 2001 "Revenge of the Socialites" Something bad is happening...I can feel it. Gwen and Rebecca are acting way too smug, like they know something. Could they know about my marriage to Julian? How could that be? But if they do know, then everything is over! It's bad enough that Ivy knows...but if Rebecca and Gwen know, they will stop at nothing to destroy me. They've hated me ever since Ethan chose me over Gwen-they've always wanted revenge. Okay calm down, Theresa...you don't know that they know...so don't fly off the handle until you know for sure. God, I sound like that "Friends" episode where everyone is finding out about Monica and Chandler's relationship...except this is not funny at all! |
| Monday, November 12, 2001 "Rocking My World" What a night! As if things weren't bad enough already, we all could have been killed in that explosion. God, how did that even happen? I must have the worst luck in the entire world. Especially since, on top of everything, Ivy is still holding onto that fax-even after the room blew up! Why, oh why, couldn't that fax have burned up in the explosion? Then all of my problems would be over. Fate just doesn't seem to be on my side these days. But that has to change soon...doesn't it? |
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| Week of November 5 - 9, 2001 |
| Friday, November 9, 2001 "No More Drama" I've made up my mind. I'm going to use the lighter to "help" Ivy open her hand. It won't hurt her...I know it won't. She's unconscious so she can't feel anything. And once I do this, everything will finally be okay. And I promise right here and right now-I'll never do anything bad again. Not that this is really bad-it's just sort of bad. But anyway, once this is straightened out, I'll never get into another mess like this again...and then I won't have to do anything crazy in order to get out of a mess. From now on, my life is going to smooth sailing! |
| Thursday, November 8, 2001 "Playing with Fire" What am I going to do? Julian thinks the only way to get the fax from Ivy is to burn her hand with a lighter! No matter what's happened between Ivy and me, I certainly don't want to physically hurt her! There has to be another way...right? But maybe there isn't. I've been trying to pry it out of her hand, but it's as if she's holding onto it for dear life! Okay, I think there's a way I can do this without hurting her. I'll just hold the lighter close to her hand, so that the heat makes her flinch. The flame will never actually touch her-that way, she won't get burned! And then, I can get the fax and Ethan will never have to know the truth! We can all finally get on with our lives... |
| Wednesday, November 7, 2001 "Round Two" Thank God Ethan hasn't seen the fax. But if I don't do something quick, I'm sure that he will! Now that I'm alone with Ivy, I finally have my chance. I just have to pry it out of her hand. She can't be holding it too tightly. After all, she's not even conscious! Well, it's now or never. Time to find out just how determined Ivy is...I already know how determined I am! |
| Tuesday, November 6, 2001 "Cardiac Arrest" Please God, don't let Ethan have seen the fax. I'm in the car with Mama on the way to the hospital. I swear it feels like it's taking a year to get there. (Harmony is a small town...how far can the hospital be?) I'm so nervous that Ethan has seen the marriage license...or that Ivy "came to" and told him the truth (I wouldn't put such superhuman strength past her at a time like this)! I'm going to need a doctor by the time we get to the hospital, because I think I'm going to have a heart attack! |
| Monday, November 5, 2001 "Shotgun Wedding" If only Ethan would elope with me right now, everything would be okay! We would get married before Ivy could tell him the truth. And then once we were married, nothing could tear us apart. Even if Ethan found out about my marriage to Julian, I would explain everything to him and he'd understand. We would work through it all together-as husband and wife. Marriage is sacred to Ethan...there's no way he would turn his back on me. Eloping is the only solution. I have to convince Ethan to run away with me! |