How?

     How do I do this without breaking your heart?
     Take something you cherish and tear it apart?
     I feel so guilty, finding reasons to delay,
     Thoughts tumbling, but not the words to say.

     You brought to me new love and happiness,
     Taught me faith, hope and forgivenes;
     So what is making me want to end it here?
     Cause I can't think when your near...

     Why end it at all I'm sure you will say,
     Is it now I've found the game and want to play?
     I really don't know, but feel it inside;
     I want to try it all now, too long did I hide.

     I feel like I used you to heal my soul,
     I guess I didn't realize how far things would go.
     But what can I give you in return I must ask,
     When the one thing you want is too big a task?
     
     So what do I do or better what do I say?
     I guess I'll keep finding reasons to delay..
     Still somewhere I'll have to face it honestly,
     But on that day a something will die inside of me.                   

                         19 Dec. 1992

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