March 28th 2003
lay ee oodl lay ee oodl lay hee hoo
LOL...if this "Lonely Goatherd" thing goes thru, it'll be WORTH the five bucks to come to Talent Night next Friday (April 4th, 7 p.m. at A.Y.) just to see us make arses of ourselves :D
You know, I've always believed - and now more so than ever - that you're never given more in life than you can handle and that when you feel you ARE, sometimes you're better off just letting things work themSELVes out. Last week at this time things were just starting to fall apart...I was already "looking forward" to a weekend of catching up on a ton of work (in that it was coming up, not that I was happy about it...) and then Budd went and got sick so there went all of Saturday and most of Sunday (btw, quick update: he's back to normal :) ) I don't use the term "stress" lightly but I think by that point my hair was about ready to fall out from it...but then as the week progressed things just got better and better. Monday the weather was beautiful and my baby boy (I meant Budd :P ) was recovering nicely; Tuesday...well nothing bad happened on Tuesday anyway :D ; Wednesday I got a spare cause we didn't have a drama class so I got lotsa work done for my Law ISP - took some of the weight off my mind; Thursday was possibly one of the most glorious days of my LIFE - dropping calc was like...finally devocalizing that mourning dove that sits outside my window every SINGLE morning in the summer and...mourns. (I'll GIVE it something to mourn, damn it!) And then today my law presentation went pretty well (I'd say), our French test was postponed till next week, and so was a meeting I had on Sunday so there's a few less things to think about...and to top it off my mom and I went shopping - but it's gotta get a little warmer before I can wear this stuff ;)
Of course there's still some stuff to worry about...but, to quote a famous philosopher (*cough*...CHASH...*cough* lol) "that's called growing up, my dear" heh heh heh
March 27th 2003
RELIEF
That's it. I've finally done it...I dropped calculus. It was just too much...pretty soon I would've suffered from some sort of breakdown and the WORLD would have mourned the loss of such brilliance :D lol anyway I finally decided that this just wasn't even worth hanging in there for - I didn't even have time for THAT. So class ended and I walked right to guidance and fortunately Mr Bugden was outside (cause you just know that secretary with a stick WAY up her ass would've given me a hard time for not having an appointment...) and with a couple of clicks of the mouse I now have between 12 and 17 hours of extra time a WEEK to...well to not go frantic with work :D
HURRAY FOR EVERYTHING!! :D :D :D
March 25th 2003
just a quick hello..."hello" :)
*Sigh* still trying to get thru all this work...I won't go into detail (cause I don't have the TIME to write everything out!!) but let's just say that never in my LIFE have I had plans for my weekend three weeks in advance...and they're not even GOOD plans (well, not all of them...most of them are just WORK *another sigh*)
At least the weather's getting nice...*weak smile* help!
March 20th 2003
I've decided to be brown for a change...navroz mubarak :)
So our New Year is tomorrow and it, incidentally, coincides with a SHITload of projects and presentations and tests, so I decided to join in the celebrations and take the day off. Well...not "off" off - I'm only going to Law tomorrow morning and then I'll have the rest of the weekend to get some work done. Sounds like the crappiest party of the year, I know, but it's SO relieving to not have to think about a calc homework check, and the ensuing lecture about getting my homework done, if only for one day...
Anyhoo I've been floating in a happy state of mind lately, despite this massive work load...the weather's becoming beautiful (even the rain is welcome because it's melting all the yucky brown ice-snow), all kinds of new opportunities are opening up for me, my dog's going on Valium to calm his jangling nerves (LOL!!)...life is good :)
OH AND GET THIS!! You know those beautiful, HUGE art sketch books with the delicious paper and the DISGUSTING prices (usually!)?? Well *yours truly* found an art store on Queen St. that was selling "seconds" (there's absolutely nothing wrong with them though, I think they just had boxes and boxes of extras) for FIVE BUCKS!!!!! It was all I could do to control myself from buying ten of them...anyway I bought one and I don't even know what to do with it but for the time being I'm finding an immense amount of pleasure just looking at it and thinking of the *possibilities*...
March 16th 2003
bad news: march break is over...good news: SUMMER BREAK is next!!
*Sigh* it's always sad when a vacation ends and you gradually realize that you've gotta be up at 7 the next morning for school...it's not right, my break was just getting started...It doesn't help me very much now since this is the last March break I'll ever get (wow that's sad too...*sniff*) but in hindsight I shouldn't have taken on any volunteer stuff for a break that was only a week long. It went by so quickly I don't have that nice feeling you get after having vegetated for a few days. Hm...wait that's not really a nice feeling after all, is it?...oh well. Too late now. At least things are looking brighter now. I can see a few exciting things in the near future to look forward to - Rocky's b-day, a semi-formal, and a possible trip to Montreal for the Easter long weekend with my family in April, PROM IN MAY!!...!!!, commencement in June - to name but a few.
I've got a slightly jittery feeling of anticipation already... :)
March 14th 2003
beautiful blue
Went prom shopping today and I was surprised at how relatively painless it was...I spent so long trying to find my grad dress in grade 9 and this time around it took one mall and two hours to find one...and it's perfect :) *ahem* my "shopping buddy" would like to think it was all thanks to him...lol at least he made the pesky saleswoman at Fairweather go away, she was driving me NUTS!! I'd pick out the simple, elegant, shorter dresses and she'd give me all these long, frilly, pouffy contraptions and say "try THESE on, dear...they're more for prom". I gave them all back to her, stating very firmly that it's more important that I FEEL good in my dress than look all dolled up, and I'd feel absolutely ridiculous wearing any of those. She didn't seem to understand though, as she brought more of them...at which point I said "thanks, but I'm getting this one"...it's MY prom, not hers (though I think she sorely regrets that it isn't hers...SOMEone's living vicariously through her customers..) Now I need to find all the rest of the stuff to go with it - the shoes, the purse, the jewelry...meh, I've got two months for all that.
Meanwhile TTBS finished on Wednesday...you know, aside from the shitty planning and the typical brown "take the cheap way out" attitude towards the whole thing, it went pretty well :) the kids were GREAT (lol ;) ) and I'd say we especially had an AWESOME time at the ROM on Wednesday :D Anyway I'm probably gonna be in charge of planning the next one for the summertime - meaning it's gonna be waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay better. Ontario Place, here we come...
March 6th 2003
DIE CALCULUS DIE!!!!
GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH things CAN become worse than "awful"...we got our calc tests back yesterday and I got an even WORSE mark than on the quiz we had a couple of weeks ago...it's disgusting, it really is. I maintain that I could've at least passed the stupid thing if half of the questions were worded correctly...I lost two marks (which, if I hadn't, would have meant a passing grade) on a question that said "explain, using the remainder theorem, etc.etc.etc.". So I wrote out an answer, because to my understanding "EXPLAIN" does not mean "SHOW", which, if it did, would imply a numerical answer...it means "explain, IN WORDS, the following..." If this were an English test that question would have been omitted for improper phrasing. *grrrrr...*
Anyway, after much deliberation I reached a couple of conclusions:
1. I can't drop the course even if I wanted to, because I've already taken two spares and won't be able to graduate without this credit. Besides, I really don't want to spend another four months going thru this so I might as well just stick with it.
2. Screw my mark in the course. I don't actually need the class, I need the background for possible economics-type courses etc. So I figure, I'll absorb as much as I can, get whatever mark I get (as long as it's a pass) and throw myself into my other subjects. The thing is, I could work my ass off and study like mad and get a 55% in calc, OR I could put in that little extra bit and get 90s in Drama and French, and high 80s in Law.
On a totally unrelated topic, there has been a recent increase of epidemic proportions of PDGs - Public Displays of GROSS. Good: you're with someone you love. Good: you make eachother happy. BAD: YOU CAN'T GO FIVE SECONDS WITHOUT PLAYING TONSIL HOCKEY. It's flu season, for Christ's sake...people already feel like throwing up.
March 4th 2003
people, places, faces...
I was going to start a new format for my entries but it's been long enough since I last wrote, it's unfair to keep all you avid Pandywaff fans in suspense for a new entry (heh heh heh) So, hopefully I'll have time to get to that before April :)
Meanwhile I actually have a lot to say today. Went down to UofT for a workshop with my drama class - didn't actually accomplish anything in the workshop but we got to see a performance after that and it was pretty good. Also was thrilled to find out that the university puts on performances all the time which are open to the public, and tickets are actually pretty cheap - around $6-8. Shit, that's half the price of a movie nowadays. Hmph. Back in my day the Fairview theatres only used to charge $4.75 for an evening show (lol) Anyway this is exciting cause I just love the whole live theatre experience...they're usually pretty good and they're so much better than watching a movie cause they're right there in front of you, and they put so much more of themselves into it. And each show is *unique* :)
Another thing about today - every single time I go downtown or take the subway somewhere, I come away with a brilliant new sense of curiosity. It just strikes me as being so interesting, seeing all these different people, coming from different places, going to different places...they all have a unique situation, and it also amazes me how all these people live in the same city as all the rest of us and yet, we're probably never going to see them again. There are so many lives being lived at this very moment...
I like to focus in on one person and imagine where they're going...who they're meeting...what they're feeling right then...for example today there was a woman sitting across from me, and she was talking to another woman except this second one was a dwarf (I don't mean to sound rude in any way when I say that...she really was a dwarf, she was about 2 1/2 feet tall!) and the first one seemed to be giving her advice on a very important meeting she was about to have...the two seemed to have just met that day, but not by coincidence - from what I picked up, the dwarf woman seemed to be about to meet some family members for either the first time ever or since a long time ago, and the first woman was sort of councelling her, helping her prepare...it was so interesting because today was such a normal day for me, and yet for her it was probably a day she'll remember every moment of for the rest of her life...