Journal

Our First Month

        Joseph and I was able to spend a lot of time together between March 16th and April 16th. I can honestly say that this has been some of the happiest times of my life. I love Joseph, and I do not know how I could live without him. We've had minor disagreements in the past month, but nothing unconquerable. Joseph has been such a comfort and encouragement to me, giving me faith when it was hard to believe, and opening my eyes to things I could not see through the eyes of a self-centered person, and most of all, he's been a friend. He has taught me to have faith in myself, and step out when God beckons to me. Inferiority is something I battle, but with the wise words  from two certain individuals, and a gentle shove in the right direction by someone who cares, I feel that I am capable. I am nothing without Christ- that I know- BUT, I am a child of God none-the-less and with Him on my side, nothing can separate me from His love and power. In ways he was unaware of, Joseph has helped me conquer some fears and the feeling of unworthiness. I know that God has put him in my life for a special reason~ he has been the biggest blessing anyone could ask for. So sweet in his spirit, and he walks after Christ whole-heartedly. Through Christ, we can make it together. By the way, Joseph~ if you're reading this, thanks for everything you've done- and all the little "talks" that we've had. They've helped out more than you know. You are such an encouragement to me! I love you!!


Our Second Month

        [April 16th-May16th] This month was full of suprises, I must say. Joseph's church is now complete and they began having Sunday night and Wednesday night services on the 2nd of April. I miss him on Sundays now, but I know he's being used where he is now. This month I had some friends get in a wreck and another pass away in a 4-wheeler accident, and Joseph was there for me, encouraging me to keep in prayer and not let things get me down. We played basketball at the church a few times with the young people of the church, and ran in the park a couple of miles every Tuesday and Thursday that we could. I love spending time with him. We took a trip to Louisiana over mother's day for a crawfish boil at Momo's. It was fun. We have grown closer (I didn't think it was possible...), and I feel so complete being with him. I know that there is no other I'd rather be with. I pray that God continue to bless our relationship as we strive to do HIS perfect will in our lives.

Our Third Month

        [May 16th-June 16th] Can I borrow the words of a woman who sings it all too well? "Have you ever loved somebody so much It makes you cry Have you ever needed something so bad You can't sleep at night Have ever tried to find the words But they don't come out right Have you ever, Have you ever Have you ever been in love Been in love so bad You'd do anything to make them understand Have you ever had someone steal your heart away You'd give anything to make them feel the same Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart But you don't know what to say And you don't know where to start Have you ever found the one You've dreamed of all your life You'd do anything to look into their eyes Have you finally found the one you've given your heart Only to find that one won't give their heart to you Have you ever closed your eyes and Dreamed that they were there And all you can do is wait for that day when they will care What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby What do I gotta do to get your heart To make you understand how I need you next to me Gotta get you in my world 'Coz baby I can't sleep....." Thanks, Brandy. You said it wonderfully. I love you, Joseph Lee Williamson with all my heart.
I graduated on the 24th, and Joseph got me the cutest outfits for graduation. I thank you so much, baby, for being there for me, praying with me and for me, and just being yourself. I love you more than words can say!

Our Fourth Month

    [June 16th-July 16th] I love Joseph so so much. "...do you wanna get married, or run away?..." This month we spent almost everyday with each other- we had revival, and even spent our first holiday together! July 4th was fun, hanging out with his sister, Candice, and her fianace's family. We went and saw a fireworks display at Paul B. Johnson State Park, and ate some boiled crawfish. I do love Joseph so much; and I pray that we spend the rest of all times together.

Our Fifth Month

    [July 16th-August16th] Time passes by so swiftly! It seems like we've been together forever. This one almost slipped by us, preparing for Candice's wedding. It was beautiful. Purple and Silver, with butterflies to accent it. The reception hall was decorated so cute, too. Joseph and I missed them cutting the cake, by "fixing" Candice and Brandon's car up. We tied about 40 cans behind it, and drew on the windows a bit. *grins* It was cute. After her wedding, we cleaned the church and the reception hall, and snuck off to Pizza Hut for a bite to eat with Josh and his cousin, Mark. Two weeks later, we attended the wedding of Joseph's cousin, Jessica. I caught her bouquet, and Joseph caught Matt's garter. It was fun! We've had our hightimes, and fought through the tough times... But it seems no matter what comes against us, we always pull through it. I love Joseph so so much. School started this month. My long days are his short days, and vice-versa. I miss him alot. We've play phone-tag an aweful lot recently... maybe one day it won't have to be like that. This month has been great. I spend every chance I get with Joseph....I pray God allows us to spend many many more together.

Our Sixth Month

    [August 16th-September 16th] Wow. What more could I say? I'm updating this at 11:58 p.m. September 16th 2002. I've just returned home from the most wonderful night of my life. Joseph truly suprised me with this one. This past month we've spent a lot of time together, and I couldn't be more happy! I attended my first football game her ein Mississippi with Joseph, watching Brooklyn slaughter Stone. *yay!* (Joseph's cousin, Brandon Robertson #66, plays for Brooklyn.) The next Friday we went to their game, Brooklyn against Oak Grove in Oak Grove, and they got stomped. *sighs* And their first division game was at home, and they stomped North Forrest. Not as big as a lead as they had on Stone, but it was a fairly easy game on their part. Now. all that good wonderful news is out of the way- getting on to tonight. After work, I got dressed and got out to Joseph's about 8:00. He walked me to his door, and when he opened it I got the suprise of my life. He'd prepared a beautiful candlelight dinner set up on a table in the middle of his room. It was sooooo romantic! He had a rose and a card laying beside my plate, and the most beautiful words penned inside. He's amazing, I'm telling you. I love him so much. He's so thoughtful. so romantic! *heh* After we ate (fried catfish, hushpuppies, fries, baked beans and corn) we watched the Monday night football game. It was the Philadelphia Eagles against the Washington Redskins. Eagles won. Figures. We were rooting for the Redskins. *grins* What can I say? In every good story there has to be some sort of Trauma. This night is truly one that will be remembered. Joseph, You're a dear, and I love you with all my heart. I'm looking forward to many many more months of happiness celebrated with you. xxxooo!

Our Seventh Month

    [September 16th-October 16th] He's wonderful. I must say throughout this month, God has kept us close at hand. I truly believe God is going to mightily use Joseph. We had a Youth Rally at Joseph's church, at which two young people recieved the Holy Ghost. It was awesome. I am so glad God is working in our lives. I love Joseph unexplainably. I'm so blessed God granted me permission for something as wonderful as this relationship I have with Joseph. The roller coaster ride of life picks you up and lets you down, baby, but I promise, I'll never leave you. xxoo forever your cowgirl.

Our Eighth Month

    [October 16th-November 16th] I must say, in a month's time, a lot can happen... and in a month's time, nothing can happen. *laughs* I love Joseph so much. The morning of our 8th anniversary~ he went to a turkey shoot. *sigh* No, he didn't get a turkey. *laughs* Shame on him. I cherish the time I spend with Joseph- whether it's watching movies at our houses, driving from one place to another, sitting in church beside one another..... I love every second that goes by. I guess there's not much to say... It pretty much sums it up when I say that I love him with all of my heart. **HUGS** I LOVE YOU JOSEPH!!!

Our Ninth Month

[November 16th-December 16th]    I love Joseph Lee Williamson with everything within me. HE PROPOSED ON OUR NINTH ANNIVERSARY! SOOOO ROMANTIC! We went to eat at Chappy's Seafood Resturaunt in Long Beach. We had a reservation for 6 at 7 o'clock. Him and his parents arrived a little before 6, and his parents rode with my parents, and we followed in my car. We got to Chappy's right about 7....and they sat us in pretty little closed off wing, with windows and large drapes and stuff. A pretty nice set-up. The waitress asked our drinks: Mrs. Cindy and Mr. Eddy ordered Tea (unsweetened, because that's what they had), Dad ordered Water with lemon, Mom got a Coke, I asked for Water with lemon, and Joseph ordered a Sprite. A waiter brought out a glass of water for everyone, and two small loaves of bread and a saucer of different kinds of spreads to put on the bread. We ate a bit of bread, Dad and Mr. Eddy did the honors of slicing it. :) The Waitress returned, and jotted down our orders: Mrs. Cindy, Mr. Eddy, Dad, and Mom all ordered a Special. Some Blackened Steak thing with a baked potato and some other stuff I don't remember, Joseph ordered theSeafood Platter, and I ordered a 6oz Steak well-well-well-done. :) It came with a baked potato and some sauteed onions and bell peppers and what-not. Dad also ordered an Appetizer: Fried Grren Tomatoes topped with shrimp and Hollandaise sauce. Rather impressive. When it arrived, He cut the tomatoes up and shared with Mrs. Cindy, Mr. Eddy, Mom and Myself. Joseph politely declined. He excused himself to the restroom and it was while he was gone our salads arrived. We began to eat our salads... that was so pretty, but didn't taste just right. Black Beans and Pasta noodles... *grins* Joseph and I both removed them from our Salad plates. I thought it strange, Joseph seemed to be gazing past Dad and Mr. Eddy, and I asked him- "Joseph, what are you doing, baby?" "Just sitting here." "Oh." And I went back to my "salad". I noticed he moved his chair back, I thought he may have been going to the restroom again... (again?!?) But he went to his knee and grabbed my left hand....I was so shocked. I turned my head away, and looked at momma like, Oh My God, is he really doing this??!?! And I heard him: "Pam, Come on. Look at me." I turned in my seat, and looked at him, kneeling there- with my hand in his...and such a pretty ring he was holding. "I have loved you since the first week we met. I know that you love me, and I love you, and I want to spend the rest of my life with you, so will you marry me?" He placed the ring on my finger, and I said "Yes!" and hugged him- and kissed him on the cheek. I was so flustered! I love him so so so much!!! After mom and dad had their fun picking, and Mr. Eddy snapped a few more pictures of me acting like a moron with absolutely nothing to say, but yet containing an announcement I wanted the whole world to hear......We settled down to our dinner. But I never finished my salad. *laughs* They brought our meals, and we ate, we declined desert, and Mom and I ducked to the restroom. I'd gotten nervous sitting there, and drinking 3 glasses of water?? It's hard on the bladder. :D I teared up in the bathroom. I didn't think noone would notice, but Mom evidently caught it. We left there, and headed to Marble Slab. We got there, Mom and Mrs. Cindy got some Strawberry icecream in a waffle cone, and Dad got somekind of Heathbar concoction in a waffle cone, Mr. Eddy got Butter Pecan icecream with Nestle Crunch and Dark Chocolate in a waffle cone, Joseph got a small child-size cup of Vanilla and Oreo cookies, and I got the same size of Vanilla and Cookie Dough. We sat there and ate our Icecream, got the worker to snap a picture of the whole group, took a picture with Jospeh, and we headed for Wiggins. Joseph and I stopped at a store and picked up some drinks- he was choking, and I needed some water after that Icecream. :) We came on into Wiggins, and went straight to Wal-Mart. Dad, Mom, Mr. Eddy and Mrs. Cindy was all playing and goofing off when we came in...We played around, took some more pictures...just goofed off a bit, and dropped the pictures off to be developed. I grabbed up Candice's Christmas present, we checked out, and headed to the car. I'd locked my keys in the car. Dad brought Mr. Eddy and Mrs. Cindy to their car here at the house and went to Star for the kit to get in my car....He got the door unlocked with minor damages to my tint job, and Joseph and I followed him back to the house. We talked a few minutes, sat around, and then headed to Poplarville. We got out there and sat around with his parents talking for a while. I love them to death. They are the sweetest people. It was a little after 12 when I headed home. I got here, called Joseph, told him goodnight, and got on the computer. I e-mailed everyone in my address book, talked to Tabatha and some girl I go to school with, and E-mailed Joseph. It was a little after 1 and I decided I better head for bed. I called Joseph again, and he was trying to go to sleep. I toldhim goodnight, and I went straight to sleep. I love him. I do. He is such a romantic. *sighs* I am so glad God gave me you, baby!!!! XXOOXXOO



Our Tenth Month

    [December 16th-January 16th] "It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart; without saying a word you can light up the dark. Try as I may I can never explain what I hear when you don't say a thing. The smile on your face let's me know that you need me, there's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me, and the touch of your hand says you'll catch me, if ever I fall. You say it best when you say nothing at all. All day long I hear people talking out loud. When you hold me near, you drown out the crowd. Old Mr. Webster can never define what's being said between your heart and mine. The smile on your face let's me know that you need me, there's a truth in your eyes saying You'll Never Leave Me......" I love you sweetie. I do. This month has been wonderfully hectic, and I know it's just a beginning. *heh* So much stuff to do and get in order....but I cherish every minute of it. I love you baby, with all my heart. I think of you night and day. This month, we've determined what month and day: August 16th, The Colors: Blue and Silver, The Time: 5 o'clock, and who is all going to "be" in the Wedding. Mostly family, calling in a little outside help. *heh* I love you baby. I am sooooo happy!!! *blows kisses* You are my Superman, dearie, and I wouldn't trade you for any other. *winks*



Our Eleventh Month

[January 16th-February 16th] Wow. We've really been running. *heh* Valentine's Day was wonderful. Joseph gave me a very very very soft teddy bear (my first teddy bear from him.), a jean skirt, a heart-shaped box of heart-shaped truffle hershey chocolates, and we went out~ we met up with a friend of his from school at the mall. Hung out with him and his girlfriend. Very nice people. *heh* I love Joseph so so so very much. Trhoughout the month, we've been brainstorming and trying to find a trailor. Still looking, by the way. Joseph found out he'll probably have his car paid off within the next month. *YAY!* Things are definitely shaping up. I ordered the bridesmaid dresses from Marie's Fashions in town. *sigh* Joseph is a dear. Trying his hardest to keep me calm. *heh*



One Year and 5 Months!

[July 16th-August 16th] WE ARE NOW HUSBAND AND WIFE!
We honeymooned in New Orleans, went to 6-Flags and the River Walk and the Aquarium of the Americas. SO nice!!!



Wedding Anniversaries

Our Tenth Month as Husband and Wife

[June 16th-July 16th] I love Joseph so much. I am now 4 months pregnant and expecting our firct child December 14th. Joseph is going to make a wonderful father. You can visit our Baby's site at : Babies Online



To Be Continued

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