Dear Corey,

 

         It will be quite awhile before you see this, if you ever do.  Very soon you will be 9 yrs.

old.  My sadness over not having you with me is stronger than ever.  As I watch my twins

grow and change I can't help but wonder what you were like at their age.  I constantly ask

myself if my decision was the right one.  I wanted desperately to keep you with me, but the

reality was I was unable to care for you the way you deserved to be cared for.  I can only

hope that your adoptive parents are wonderful and that you are enjoying a full and wonderful

life.  I hope to eventually have a relationship of some sort with you and for you to know your

brother and sister.  I live for that day, because of how deeply I miss you, and wish you were

near.  I plan to write many more letters to you, in the hopes that you will someday read them.

 

 

                                                  Love,

 

                                                 Your Mom