This is where I, the Paladin, basically write my views on various things.
I have lots of opinions, about most things anyway, some things I am indifferent to, but quite a few I have some form of opinion about it one way or another.
I find honesty rather important, I wasn't always near as honest as I am now, but I discovered that lies will get you absolutely NOWHERE, especially because even if someone believes the falsehood, there is a great chance they will simply find out about it later. Honesty just makes things so much more simple, and I don't want people to lie to me, so how would it be right for me to lie to THEM then? Answer is it wouldn't be right ....so there you go.
Next about my ideas on knighthood as I have them.I don't know the original code of chivalry, or even if there WAS an "offical" set of rules to it, or did they just try and be civilized?I have no answers on that, so I made my own that seem right to me. I have condensed my "code" to exactly three things that are needed the most, for me to consider someone to be living a knightly lifestyle, or to be trying at least. They are honor, compassion, and faith; I just want to set the record straight by faith, I do not mean religious faith necessarily, but rather just real faith in SOMETHING that is not yourself, be it a diety, a country, anything you can believe in and be dedicated to.
Worst case of this I have seen is when you are in a job where the purpose is to help people and all you do is screw them over.... I mean what the hell is that!? Like doctors, it may just be around here I don't know, but they seem to be not trying to help any really and like none of them care. I mean why in the name of everything good, just, and holy in the bloody universe would one take a job that's main purpose is healing when you don't care!?!? People truly make me sick sometimes, not all of them of course but many of them.
Especially when you look at it in terms of pure logic, it seems that if everyone tried to be helpful to others when they could, EVERYONE'S life would be much easier and happier but NO, people are too busy trying to screw each other over anymore to see that. Maybe it's not the world that has changed but rather how I see it, perhaps this was always the way things were and I merely didn't realize... I hope that is not the case... or does it really matter which is truth in this? I do not know.
Something else I have seen which seems rather unforunate to me, but seem to be the truth in any case.
Which is that "Trust is something to be earned not freely given" I think someone said that before me hence the quotations or something like that, and I grudgingly must agree with. You see I used to trust just about everyone, then I was betrayed by those I thought as my friends.. more than once I might add, so now free trust without anything to back it up is a luxury I can no longer indulge in.
Well I want to say one thing before I say this and lots of you get a wrong idea, I am not a Purtian within any sense of the word. However, I do NOT agree with most people my age opinions on sex. I mean it is suppose to be a physical, emotional, and maybe even spiritual bonding between two people that love each other, as if many people even understand what that word means anymore.
I mean if the only thing you want it for is for self-gratification, HEY that's what masturbation is for you morons; that why you don't hurt anyone cause you happen to not think it's suppose to be more than physical, when the other may think ::GASP:: you actually give a damn about them. Not to mention there are consquences to your actions that some people need to grow up and freaking understand this...like oh I don't know... having kids when you don't want them... and tons of not so nice STDs, because you couldn't control your urges.
Note: I really don't know if I think marriage is necessary, but love is.... hence why people call it "Making love" for a reason.
Oh a furthermore on this subject I think anyone that uses the phrase "I'd hit that"(only heard guys say it but anyway...) should be shot... repeatedly.. that, just pure lack of respect for sex just disgusts the living hell out of me....
I just want to say how much it bugs me when people do something because it is "cool".
People like that are nothing more than sheep, follow the flock and don't make waves. That sort of person disgusts me. It's called having a mind and opinion of your own, make your own opinions based on your own observations, not those of others.
Another thing that bugs me is.... people boasting about things. More often than not if you are praising one aspect of yourself; whether it be appearences, intelligence, wealth, etc. you don't have it. Like my belief if you have intelligence you don't need to tell everyone, you already know it and have no need to prove it to anyone.
Also lables are bad. I mean what is with some people's excessive need to classify things and put them into managible categories by use of lables? I mean why worry about it, what IS the point?
I just don't get it myself.....
Well here is my thoughts. Do what you like, how you like to do it. Create your own "style", by just doing what you like to do and what makes you happy. Wear what you want, listen to what music you want, and if anyone doesn't like it, screw them. It's YOUR life don't EVER let someone tell you how to live it. That choice is purely up to you and you ALONE.
Advise is one thing, telling someone how to live their life is another. Don't care what others might say or think of you except for perhaps a small group of close friends or loved ones. Though if they REALLY care about you they won't try to change you, unless you have a big problem like drugs or something, but I digress...I am saying it's okay to let some people's thoughts and opinions matter to you, but don't go on worrying about what everyone may think. It's not their business to pass judgement on you, so you should let what they think matter at all. Just find a group... hell even one or two good friends and let them matter. If you let the thoughts an opinions of everyone concern you, you will end up being a nervous wreck... trust me I speak from exprience.
I personally have not been part of a romantic relationship. A few platonic ones.... that generally don't last long at that. However, in observing others I have made a few discoveries.
1. Teenage romantic relationships... almost NEVER lead into any form of lasting companionship, and almost ALWAYS end badly. So it seems to me wait until you are older and wiser to save yourself the heartbreak. Of course there ARE exceptions however this seems to be the case more often than not as far as I have seen.
2. Being with someone you don't really care for because you are afraid to be alone is not a very good idea.
3. Don't make generalizations about the other gender not all women are flighty or manipultive, and not all men are sexist or bastards. People are different, and so asking for advise is pretty must useless unless the person you are asking KNOWS the person, and then it probably won't help anyway.
4. Trust is the basis for ALL realtionships both romantic and platonic. So don't lie as I said above it does no good.
5. Do not.. repeat do NOT look for a romantic relationships. Chances are you won't find one, or if you do you will just enter it by lonely desperation, and not get out of it when you really should. Rather than looking I think it would be more advantagious to out yourself in a position to be found. Meaning make platonic relationships of the opposite gender and they may become more. Only problem with that is many, mostly women, refuse to go further in fears of ruining the relationship you already have. I see some merit in this fear but it also makes more sense to me to date people you know you like than someone you just met... but maybe that's just me.