Sonnet 1113
My dream was for us to be together forever,
Walking hand in hand til our death,
For when I was with you my days were better,
In your arms I'd be til my last breath,
Yet it's too late to tell you this,
For you have left me alone,
At times the friendship we had is what I miss,
But I come to you everyday and mourn,
Our love is lost and I want it back,
You were mine and I was yours,
But the way you left was like getting a smack,
All I wanted was a little more,
As I mourn by your deathbed,
I think of the day we could have been wed........
As I gaze across the deep blue ocean against the midnight sky,
I feel the coldness of the world around me,
I felt alone,
Then he came,
The one who makes my heart skip a beat,
My breath stand still,
He tounches me and I break into a billion pieces,
My heart beats faster as he pulls me closer,
He holds my face in his hands ands pulls me closer to his face,
I close my eyes and feel the softness of his kiss,
I taste the sweetness of his soul,
I am in peace.....
As i gaze across the ocean,
I remember the night it all began,
I look at the ring gleaming as the rays of sunlight hit it,
He comes in,
He holds me in his arms,
Then whispers in my ear "I love you darling now and forever"
"A Friend"
A friend is a treasure,
Never meant to be lost,
But friend,
Will I lose you once you go?
If you get into trouble remember,
I�m always there for you,
When you need me,
I remember the time we spent together and,
I don�t want to let you go,
But if I want to be a good friend I must,
For it�s best if you do,
No one could ever replace you,
For�
A Friend is a treasure,
Never meant to be lost,
Never meant to be replaced,
That will stand by you when no one else will.
" My Heart Mourns for You, Still"
I may not be crying for you,
But my heart is,
It may not seem like I care,
But I have to since my heart never seems to cease thinking about you,
My heart mourns not for the pain you have caused me,
It mourns for what you have become,
The person I once thought I knew,
Has turned on me,
The person I once knew isn't as caring as he used to be,
My heart mourns for the death of all the good that was in you
And mourns for the evil that has grown inside of you,
You have been sucked into that big black hole,
Never to return.
MY ANGEL
Everyone has an angel watching over them from the heavens whom they never see,
But my angel doesn't live up there with the rest,
My angel guides me here on Earth,
My angel helps me &gives me great advice,
My angel doesn't have wings,
But it has a big heart filled with warmth &love,
My angel may not be in heaven with the rest,
But my angel knows how to help me like the rest,
&I love my angel dearly for this
I LOVE YOU
Is there such a thing as love at first sight,
For when I first met you I fell for you,
The first time I looked in your eyes I knew I loved you,
But now I only pray that you love me to,
I now fear love for I have no knowledge of it,
I met you &I became happier,
Knowing that u r there makes me happy,
Only I fear that you may not love me,
And if you don't love me,
Will you promise to be there for me anyway?
I hope that there is such a thing as love at first sight for I feel like I love you,
When I talk to you or see you I feel like a little girl opening a present knowing that she's gotten exactly what she wanted,
Could you promise me that if you don't love you'll never hurt me,
My heart has been broken before and I have picked up the pieces,
This time though I know that if my heart is broken,
I will break to for I love you too much &I need you more then ever
So he promised you a rose garden and you bought it
You did the unthinkable and trusted him
Yet did you not stop once to think this may be a trap
It always is
He said so much
But meant so little
Now he's left and you are stuck
The one with the broken pieces
He tore you apart
You let him
They say why were you such a fool?
Why did you let him do it?
Yet they don't stop once to think of the times they've been fooled
Not once do they say well I was a fool too
I dreamt of roses
I dreamt of rivers
I dreamt of stars
I dreamt of long nights
I never thought these nights would be sleepless longings
I never pictured black withered roses
I never dreamt of broken dreams
Til you broke them
You gave me dreams
You gave me life
Then you snatched it away from me
You stole these little gifts from me
Every move it makes,
Makes her sick,
Every kick it takes,
Reminds her of the sin,
She's stuck with a child,
A mistake,
It slowly dies inside,
The unborn child burns,
Screams in pain,
Yet no one hears it,
She never thought she'd see this day
All he said was hello,
He seemed safe,
She never knew he'd be capable of rape.
If I told you I dreamt of roses
You'd bring me roses
If I told you I needed happiness
You'd bring me happiness
But why is it that when I told you I desired you,
You didn't bring yourself to me?
I told you I needed to feel loved
Yet you couldn't love me?
I never understood how you could go to the moon and back for me
Yet still say you don't love me
I need to know the things you feel so I can understand........
Because when you ask me what I need, what I dream of...................
I dream of you.....I need you..............
I don't want the moon, I don't want roses, I don't want happiness
When I'm with you I feel happiness, I'm able to fly to the moon and I can get the roses~
I dreamt of roses
I dreamt of rivers
I dreamt of stars
I dreamt of long nights
I never thought these nights would be sleepless longings
I never pictured black withered roses
I never dreamt of broken dreams
Til you broke them
You gave me dreams
You gave me life
Then you snatched it away from me
You stole these little gifts from me
You say you don't care,
It doesn't matter what'll happen to me,
Yet I'm in trouble and there you are again trying to help me....
Why do you kid yourself when you know it's true,
You love me as much as I love you....
The diamonds in the night sky,
The spirit of the lives lost,
The stars that are galaxies away,
So is that where the heros went?
To the stars?
Forever glowing,
Gleaming,
Shining.
The mystery is held within each one,
Each one has a history,
Decades,
Centuries old
Filled with stories to tell,
The heros of today go there,
Forever lasting
In the midnight sky,
Filling us with wonder
A secret meeting,
An everlasting memory,
The excitement,
The exhilaration,
My nerves going wild,
I wanted you to hold me,
But you were afraid just like me,
Every word you spoke would put a smile on my face,
A secret romance,
My life changed,
I was wishing,
And praying,
And hoping,
And dreaming,
That this would work.
I would never forget you
Your memory engraved in my heart,
Bringing a bittersweet sensation through me.
The dreams of our forefathers,
The creations of today,
A worldwide network,
Landmarks of time
The tall, gleaming buildings,
Looking over the nation,
The reminder of power,
We controlled this creation,
Our world fell apart,
They laughed,
We cried,
We feared the day it would happen again,
Our heroes saved us from this misery,
We shall overcome,
The refusal to live in fear,
The power of this nation restored.
I don't know how or why or what you did that I fell in love with you,
I don't know how to explain the anger I feel when someone makes fun of you,
I don't know how to express the pain I feel when I know it's all a joke,
But what I do know is that I've loved you,
From the start,
I fell deeper and deeper into the quicksand,
Yet you fell farther and farther away,
Now it's become so difficult for me to breath and live a day without you,
The pain you put me through is more than anything I could have ever beared yet I am,
As everyday goes by I yearn for an acknowledgment from you,
Waiting for a hopeless love,
I don't know how or why or what you did that I fell in love with you,
But what I do know is that I've loved you,
From the start and for eternity...
Angel
You were barely perfect
Nothing you did was ever right
Yet you are my angel
My saviour
You've blessed me with happiness
I think of you and my heart beats
You put a skip in my step
A song in my heart
You enlighten me
You inspire me
You bring me hope
When I need it most
When I'm down,
You bring me up
Yet what are you?
You are just a mere human�
Somehow you have become my strength,
You a human have somehow become the beacon of life
And at that moment he realized he'd hurt her,
Her eyes had spoken what she couldn't,
The pain within the depths of her soul screaming to be heard,
And at that moment he knew,
He knew she really loved him,
He knew the tears were real
And at that moment he regreted what he'd lost,
He regreted the pain he caused,
He regreted the tears she cried,
He regreted speaking those words,
And at that moment it was gone,
Gone and Lost,
Lost Forever....
This emptiness inside�
It devours me�
There's something missing�
It's lost�
Someone else's empty eyes stare back at me�
Help me�
I need to find�
That missing link�
I cannot seem to capture that essence�
What is gone?
What is missing?
What is lost?
I cannot remember a day that I was without it�
But suddenly it's gone�
Out of site
This emptiness inside�
It grows with each day�
I cannot bear to go on this way�
Yet somehow I breathe
Somehow I dream
Somehow I live�
It does not seem for long...
It has escaped�
And doesn't want to be captured�
Yet I do not know what I've lost�
This confusion�
This desolateness�
Does it ever end?
Does it ever fade away?
Does it ever weaken?
This emptiness inside�
It devours me�
There's something missing�
It's the nights that kill me,
These dreary hours,
Alone,
Just staring at a mirror,
Reflecting all the memories,
That don't hide,
It's the nights that kill me,
Each night brings back those memories,
Memories I can't hide from,
Each tear for every second that I live without you,
For every minute that an empty laugh echos through the sky,
For every hour that I lie "I don't miss him at all"
It's the nights that kill me,
The clouds fill with my tears,
The morning knows my sorrows,
It is much more generous then the night,
I am not alone but amongst millions,
Feeling alone,
Fortunately wearing a mask to hide,
The tears in my heart,
While the clouds try to empty my neverending floods,
Slowly the night returns,
Leaving me alone,
For it's the nights that kill me........
The empty corridors;
Everything is gone,
Not even a lost soul,
Wants to be here.
All that can be heard are the little thuds,
Drumbeats of the heart,
The heart that no one is willing to live in,
A heart that is numb,
Numb to feelings.
It's forgotten the sound of happiness,
The tears of sadness,
A heart that is empty,
Vacant;
A parking garage,
In which no car has parked,
All that can be heard are the little thuds,
Drumbeats of the heart.