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| All alone all alone between beautiful angels of stone. Wanting, needing yet never having. Just a kiss. Just one touch. Maybe a little bit of your sweet blood. No nothing at all. I'm just painfully alone. |
| Sweet loneliness. Gift of missery. Why do i have to hurt so much? Why can't we ever be close? Everyday more cold. Everything looking so so old. Still i keep a little box. Completly full of hope and trust for you my love. |
| Sweet and sour tears rolling down my cheecks. Falling on my heart, covering my soul. I need you my sweet angel of death. Yet you're so far away. |
| Small drops of blood falling to the floor looking like rubies over marble. Tears rolling down your cheecks looking like diamonds over silk. You feel alone, hurting so much. You want to scream, or at least get lost in a dream. You want to cut and cut and make the pain go away. But why should anyone care? you're all alone anyway. |
| Leave me alone and stop judging me. You condemn me but you know me. You talk but don't pay attention to your own words. Take me or leave me. Hate me or love me. But don't try to change me when you can't even understand me. You ask me to redo my life when you don't even give half of what you ask for. Just answer me this if i am so bad why did god leted me live? |
| What am i? Or what is exactly that you think i am? You love to judge me and yet there's so much you've yet to learn about what lies beneath my eyes and the fachade i give for everyone to see. You are full of rage trying to destroy that which you do not understand. Your words are so full of venom when you say i am a disgrace. And yet you crave to learn more about me the disgrace that was meant to be. You will never know all that you wish for i do not trust in you anymore. |
| You seem to be afraid of me my dear. I wont hurt you or make you cry. Why don't you even try to trust me? You weren't with me before. All those that told you lies never had my face or my voice. Just give it a try i promisse i'll cherish your heart like if it was mine. |
| Waiking up deep in the night. Hearing you cry, breaking my heart. Wish i could hold you and comfort you. But i know you wont let me. I know the barrier between us has stretched far too wide. I know that the love we had is now just tears and ash. |
| Why can't they understand all i want is balance? I want some darkness in my light and some light in my darkness. I want to create my own ying yang and all the sudden that makes me bad? I don't have a rotten soul, i don't mean harm. I am neither good nor bad i am just me. All inperfect and half inpure but not evil. I never meant to harm anyone in this life. I just want to be in peace i want them to let me be. They don't understand me or respect me. So why would i respect those who judge me so severely? |
| Love, hate. Respect, disrespect. Light and darkness. I am all that i feel all that. I embrace myself. |
| Don't love me, don't hate me. Just take me or leave me. Don't judge me, don't condecend me. Just see me or turn away. I am not going to change. I am not going to leave. For i am happy with the way i am.. |
| Play with fire. You'll get burned at the end. Is it worth it or not? Do you wan't it or not? Do you want me or not? |
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