| Death By Love Surrounded by claws Digging into my flesh Eyes glowing in the dark The memories I repress Slowly ripping away at me Not a beautiful death It's all the hate I know Waiting for my last breath Blood drips from my cuts Falling to the floor In a puddle it all gathers I try to reach the door I'm restrained by him His evil and tempting eyes They look through me like glass Tinted with black dye He sees my spirit lift up A shadow in the night He laughs and calls me stupid For I don't put up a fight Lust replaced by love Desire takes control Resistance is unthinkable This creature owns my soul The evil within me Resurfaces once more I look deep in his black eyes Telling him make my heart soar He takes me in his arms Deep in his embrace He sees the blood red tears Flowing down my face Running along my cheeks Stopping on my lips I taste the blood for him Waiting for his dark kiss I cannot stay with you He declares without regret But I'll be back someday He says, and do not fret I love you very deeply As he held me tight I will come back someday But only when the time's right. Not one moment before I fear we shall suffer From not being ready To commit to eachother My heart began to soar right then The words spoken touched me deep And at that exact second I knew my heart he shall keep But as the hope subsided The fear began to grow What if he never comes back How will I ever know He's said these things before Told me he would stay But took off soon after Once he got his way Why does he do this to me Does he notice me at all Really care about my heart Catch me when I fall Or will I crash and burn With fire in my soul With hate and pain and anger Filling up my whole So I close my eyes to hide Don't show him all my pain When I open my cold eyes He's gone, to return yet again. So I ponder what to do What to think or say or feel I wonder why he left me My heart as hard as steel Next time I won't be here I'll be gone before the dawn |
I'm tired of waiting for him I think and begin to yawn. I cannot wait forever As I have waited in the past He's left me so many times already This will be his last So as I plan my suicide The phone begins to ring It was him calling me Remember just one thing If I never make it back I'll love you in my death I'll think of you always Even without breath I hung up the phone then My eyes began to sting I felt the blood red tears Not knowing anything Why would he leave me Alone without a hope How could I survive How would I cope But he's not going to die That was not a sign He'll vanish for a bit And be back with me in time He called me once or twice To tell me he's all right I didn't see him again Until late one night He came into my bedroom With a look I did not know He told me he was back again But he must again go I looked at him with hate Told him to leave me now I didn't want to love him Didn't want to know how How come he came back To leave me once again But the truth I must know He began with a grin I left you here for safety From the demons in my life I had to kill them first Before you were my wife They are not all dead yet But I had to see your face For the pictures in my mind Nothing could replace So I came here in love And I will leave empty handed But I will return for you, my love For my heart you have branded. You have put your spell on me Enchantment if you will For you I would live and die For you I would kill I'd travel all through hell Looking for your light I will always be here Think of me at night With that said he bid farewell And left me in the dark This time kissing me With a devilish spark He's got the devil in him He owns the evil power But I hold in me the same My blood has been turned sour For him it burns as fire Raging through the woods I'll keep him forever Hold him if I could But now I must wait again For him to come to me But his face in my heart That I always see So minutes turned to hours Still I kept the hope In all my insane ways |
I never had a lover Never had a lust I waited for him day and night Wait for him I must The day he returned I was sad and I was depressed But he came to me with roses I became impressed Blacker than the night The book I read now closes He brought me my favorite Long stem black roses The grin upon his face Told me he was here To stay for good this time And no more need for fear He took me in his arms Took me on the bed He placed my body down Put a pillow under my head Lie here my love And take what I will give Take it and become it It's your will to live He took off my clothes He kissed me all around He placed his manhood in me He made me scream aloud Our bodies covered in sweat Or hearts sung out in relief What I would have missed Glad I had belief Belief he would return To my arms and take me home He has far exceeded my hopes I shall never be alone For once I was happy I was filled with love If I could fly up in the sky I would be a black dove Then the night ended I woke up with a start It was all a dream I drove the knife into my heart Blood dripping down my breasts My bedclothes now stained red I felt my heart breaking Right they're in my bed. I started getting tired My body began to shake I was dying in the morning If only I didn't wake I remembered all the dreams I had of my demon pet My man who left me wanting The one I could not get A figment of my heart A desire for the night Well now I see a tunnel I see a bright white light My door is falling down now People all over me And in that group of medics It is him that I see. Standing there looking at me Bloody and almost dead He tells me that it's all right And lifts me out of bed. I fall into a deep slumber Right there in his arms They put me in the ambulance They kept me from harms I slipped away from life On the ride that day And as I let life go There was nothing left to say And when the train crashed down hard Into the ambulance in which I died We were together in death And I finally felt alive. |
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