| Why do we do crazy things? Well, what is crazy? Crazy is doing something different and out of the ordinary. So why do we do crazy things? Well for me, it's something sudden and unexpected, spontinaity just gets your blood moving, it's excitement. I don't like to be sponateous all the time, in fact not even most of the time, first of all you might end up going to fast and miss something important. And second of all, if I was always sponateous, then what would I do for change, relax and slow down, I guess you have to do both, most people spend their youth being crazy and then the rest of their life is messed up and boring, but I think if I balance it, just like I balance about everything else in my life, I can be crazy and sain my whole life, does that make sense or am I just talking crazy? OK I should've stayed away from that joke. |
| Why do some people give up, while others don't? I don't know, maybe it's determination, maybe it's fear of what will happen if they fail. But you could fail and never give up. What happens then? The person moves on with experience or knowledge, but the person will never forget their failure. One that gives up tends to live happy and simple, but they will never know that they can be even more happy by experiencing some pain to get there. People that don't give up have hope, hope that what they are doing will work, they may be lost in a world of hurt, but as long as they have got that hope nobody can stop them. The hope gives them determination to fight till the end. But a person that seems to have quit to others, may have just reached the end of their hope, or they may just be satisfied. |
| People tell me I'm crazy. I don't blame them, because the way I talk and write is definitely crazy sometimes, but anyone who knows me knows that despite all that which makes me seem insaine know that I just like to have fun, even at the depressing dark moments in life, and although I seem crazy, I am actually perfectly normal in everyway. I am no different from most other people. I can be serious and angry just like everyone else, but why be serious and angry just like everyone else. I'd rather be different "naturally" than make every effort to be as different like all the supposed "posers" in this world. Have fun being different, but it's okay to be like others too, why not be everyone instead of no one. |
| Last night I went to sleep without a feeling I have had in a long time. I didn't miss anyone last night, no feeling there. I tried to think of someone that I could miss and I couldn't. It was a wierd feeling. Like I have gone nowhere in life, like I never knew anyone or had anything to miss. Usually when you miss someone, you are sad, but in reality, you are only half sad, because you know that someone is out there. When you have no one to miss, you have nowhere to go, it's like your head is empty and ready to die. I wouldn't recommend ever making yourself feel like this. Luckily I fell asleep so I could start over this morning. |
| That was pre-Aura down there |
| So how do I feel now, great, I am so happy about so much. Yes I met a girl, and she makes me so happy, I know it's typical for a person to write like this when they feel like this, but you know what I don't care because she is so great. I won't say much more but that's it for now. |
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