when i look at him
all the pain returns
when i think of him
all the abuse occurs
why havent you left
my heart aches with frustration
i want your picture out of my mind
for you i have no patience
i hate the memories
that ive spent with you
all youve done for me
are things i didnt want to do
your face still haunts me
during the long, quiet night
my mind never lets me realize
that you're not right
i miss you occasionally
but those feelings quickly disappear
you only caused me pain
i dont want my memories near
i hate you
your black soul scars my heart
why must i continue to die?
when we are clearly far apart
your black soul haunts me
it calls for me during the day
why do i think you need me?
why do i suffer in dismay?

22 january , 2003