bitch please II by eminem (feat. Dr. Dre, Nate Dogg, Snoop Dogg, Xzibit)

well... i'm not sure why i'm updating this. i'm sick of going to bed so early. from now on, i'm gonna stay up until 6am, like i did last summer. it seems like i had much more to do last summer, probably because i was in softball. sometimes i wonder if i should've just been in softball.. i'm in the worst shape right now.... and i still think that's funny. weird.... i got this from one of my past xanga entries last night... it still applies so much.
i want to lay in bed some more.. i only wish that he was laying with me.. that would make everything okay, i know it would.. he always makes everything okay.... so comforting..... ^sigh^ i love him... my dreams make me miss him even more, i think that's why i try not to sleep too much..... because then there's a possibility of a dream. they torture me... yet i love them... because he's a part of them. ah...... ^sigh^... i hope i can see him soon.......
i miss him very much. i always do.
i saw a great movie last week. waking life. that's the greatest movie i have ever seen in my life. you know, you say that about just GOOD movies, but.. you don't really mean it. but i honestly mean it about this movie. it's so unique, and it explains so much. it tells you so much about life.. and just.. philosphy. em and i had a deep conversation about that.. after we both watched it together. it was never finished. i'm so glad that i saw it. it changed everything that i see. it made me think that everything and everyone in life is good. but... not everyone.... i still think that mark chapman is TERRIBLE. the worst man to ever live. saddam hussein is better than that bullshit. and that's pretty terrible.
hmm... i should go play metal gear. METALLL GEAAAAARRRR!!! i'll be online downstairs the next time i get on. so fuuuuck you all.
woah.. too much eminem.. i'm starting to say "fuck off" and "fuck you" a lot... oh no!

shrink, pencil me in for my last visit at 11:11am