hey mom. i have no problems. no reason to be sad. and i'm not sad. don't think i am. i'm not.
I'M NOT DEPRESSED.
daddy, why won't you let me do anything? if i'm on the phone.. get off! if i'm playing video games.. get off! what's the deal? i'm confused. and i don't smoke. i would never do that. i've seen family members suffer from it. what makes you think i'm that stupid? i've seen what it has done to people. i'm not stupid, daddy.
i should be fantastic.
i am fantastic. i've been moody... getting all sad, getting all pissed, then being COMPLETELY happy. and satisfied with every single moment of my stupid little life. now is one of those times where i think i'm sad. but i'm not sad. i'm fine. i really am. nothing is wrong. and nothing will ever be wrong.
if there was something wrong, i wouldn't tell any of you. you know why? it's not the issue of trust. i just know it will go away soon. i know that i can deal with it on my own. i know that it will just be some faint memory of fakeness.
i've watched red dragon every night since i've had it. i'm already starting to memorize it. i'll have the first scene memorized soon..hopefully. i need to watch silence of the lambs. that would be good.
i understand, chelsey.. i think about it too.

i can't talk to people that i meet.

i laid it down for all to see @ 11:34 PM