my mind is not going to let me sleep tonight. i already know it. because of my dream last night... god. it's like... i have no control over my mind or something. or maybe it's just my body. i don't know. shouldn't i be in control of me? i think i'm looking for someone to control it for me. it's weird without someone controlling me. i don't think i can handle it. i make no sense. or do i? i don't know.
it's thunderstorming outside. is there anybody out there? it surprises me to actually..realize what some of my friends have done. it's like, i've known about it.. but i never actually thought about it. i'm glad i don't strive to be like other people. i would be corrupted. i can't believe my dad thought or still thinks that i smoke. that made me so upset... that he would actually think that low of me. that i didn't learn anything from seeing some of my family die from that. it's like... he thought or still thinks i'm stupid. and that just upset me...immensely.
what happened to music? it sucks so badly now.. when did it all end? the only people that i respect are paul mccartney..and ringo starr. oh god, makes sense, doesn't it? i respect the white stripes, robbie williams, and alanis morissette. but she hasn't put out something new in a while. that's about it. i don't know. i don't know what i'm talking about anymore.
i haven't talked to so many people in so long.. it's kind of weird.
we don't need no thought control.
i taste blood. why?
i laid it down for all to see @ 6:06 AM
