5:58pm - god damn i am so tired of pretending, wishing i was ending, when all i'm really doing is trying to hide, and keep it inside, fill it with lies, open my eyes? maybe i wish i could try.
his perfect kingdom of killing, suffering and pain demands devotion atrocities done in his name. god is dead and no one cares. if there is a hell i'll see you there. your god is dead and no one cares. if there is a hell i'll see you there.
4:24pm - the craft is on. what a great movie. you know what i wanna see right now though? girl, interuppted.
it seems as though most of my friends are not happy, or are confused on if they are happy or not. ive been thinking about that fact. and i think it's because people dont realize what they really have. they dont realize how lucky they really are. they make themselves believe that no one enjoys them alive. when in reality, it is just the opposite. everyone has at least one friend. one person that they can talk to. it doesnt matter if that person is not related or related. i dont think the amount of friends you have is important at all. some people i know will brag to me about how they have more than fifty friends or something like that, and some people i know will complain about how they only have one friend. why should it matter? i think the people that say they have fifty friends really only have about two. i dont think they know what a true friend is. to me, a true friend is someone who's always there to listen, who cares about you, who doesn't judge what you do.. many other things. why the hell am i writing about friends?
where's my marilyn manson... i need to listen to him. and then i have to listen to some nine inch nails. fuck yeah. well.. the craft is making me not update.. im gone.