DECEMBER 25, 2002-2:48am

happy christmas.
i got a head start. i wanted to check my email, and i knew my father wouldnt let me on tomorrow morning, so yeah. im not even sure on how tomorrow is happening. im looking forward to when jimmy gets home, i miss him a lot. oh, would you like to know about pokagon? well, it wasnt that great. the only good parts were me and emmo roaming the halls late at night. that's it. the fucking payphones wouldnt work, which pissed me and emmo off. it sucked because the whole krysa family, minus emmo, was taking over the nation. we always had to do stuff when they wanted to do it, and when they were ready. we always had to wait so long to eat, and we would starve ourselves for about five hours. damn them. some bad things have occured in the last two or three days. i'd rather not dicuss them here. christmas eve was okay. it consisted of me, emmo, and mal harassing my uncle tom's dog. m-i-t-z-i, t-z-i, HEY. good times. we all went to hebron where my uncle stan was to surprise him at work. and he cried, he was so happy. i felt so good doing that. :) teeheehee. i get along with that side of the family better than the other one. i guess ive just been exposed to them more. it doesnt really feel like christmas to me.. nothing seems special. bah, yeah.. helens coming tomorrow. i think mike is too. im not tired at all, this is weird. but i need to go to bed. im really hungry... bah. i wont eat. eating is bad. im not sure why it was so easy for me to change, but im all optimistic again. i didnt know it was that easy. when i was emailing jimmy, i was like "im gonna start being optimistic and happy again." and now i am. what the fuck. so i can decide when i want to be majorly depressed too? that's interesting. seems sort of unhealthy. im really bored. i went to midnight mass today. that sucked. but it wasnt as long as i thought it would be. twas pretty surprising. i need to get some book to do that book report thingy thats due on january sixth. i dont even have the sheet with me.. i wonder if someone else does. well, they probably do. bibs is being a jackass right now. hes rolling around the floor, and i think hes attacking the couch. he went outside and then wanted to come right back in. snowing like mad out there tis. it's amazing how fast it came. bibs is being gay. hes gonna wake up my parents. not a good thing. but then, when you kick his ass to make him stop, he makes twice the amount of noise! dumb fatass cat. i have issues. im gonna try to sleep now. byebye world.

have a happy christmas and a merry new year.

-2:59am

3:29am: i just found my new favorite picture. haha, hes great.

3:30am