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4.30.01 12:00AM Am procastinating again. Have 15 page paper to do and have only got a paragraph. It's not due until Thursday, but I should be farther along than that. Oh well. Lakers went through a massive sweep over Portland and should be on their way to round two!! Yeah!! Oh and also, I found this new site which has Hugh wallpaper, check out Hugh Jackman's Wolverine and for those who think I'm obsessed, think again... 4.28.01 8:45PM Saturday night, all alone with nobody to hang with...ordering Thai food for one...does this sound single to you? Does this sound lonely to you? AT least I'll get some work done...I think...or not. Will I be ordering Thai food for one for the rest of my life? Hmmmmmm.... 4.25.01 6:04PM No afro-haitian tonight, RA meeting instead. Hmmm....Scary news today, check it out. Why am I scared that Bush is going to end it all for us? why??!!! have my research paper to write, due next Thursday. Only one more week of school left, I can't believe it. I also got PASS officer. Yay! Get to go to lunch at Bucca di Beppo's Sunday to meet everyone. Too much stuff to do. 4.24.01 10:15PM I PROTEST!!! Why would anyone assume that just because I'm in the room means that I'm the instigator of sexual talk.....I resent that remark. Only someone I know would say something so horrible. That really sucks, I don't always talk about sex, and I think that it's a rude stereotype to make about someone. If I recall, we had a very intellectual conversation last night regarding the workload of humanities majors versus science majors. See, not all the conversation revolves around sex...whatever. 4.23.01 10:06PM So, haven't been blogging lately. Sorry. Been busy writing a shitload of papers. Had one due Friday, another one due this Thursday and of course, the big one is due the Thursday after that. I should probably get my ass in gear and start reading for that, but I haven't had anytime or any motivation to do so. Friday night, however, was a blast. I got to go to the Foam Party, which was fun. Hung out with Danny, Jose, Mel, Paul and Mark form the hall. That was cool. The foam was really weird feeling, wet, but warm and not watery, but at the same time you felt like you were wading in water. I got to talk to Rob, my new interest. Aka White Anthro Boy. Funny, he's pretty cool. It's weird how you know that you don't love someone. I know I don't love him, I like him, I'd like to hook up with him, but not to have a relationship. Hehehehe. So much for fidelity. 4.19.01 8:29PM Am in Mel's room typing on Jen's computer now. Going to order thai food even though I'm heating up a calzone in the microwave righ now. Have to write paper....not too worried, I have plenty of time to do it. Tonight 'til probably 1 am then maybe in the morning before class and then definitely before anthro 101. So it won't be too bad. I think I'm going to aim to ge at least the thesis and the outline tonight done, maybe some of the body. Today was an ok day....I have the financial aid people. Sometimes they make things so difficult. Like trying to turn in copies of me and my parent's income taxes and W-2's. YUCKY!!! Having to call up the tax man last minute is not my idea of fun. Oh well, at least that's over with. On the plus side, I don't have to worry about my paper for Afro-haitian until the last day of finals. I only have one final, on the last day of finals, so I have plenty of time to work on the paper and study for my one final after I turn in my 15 page research paper. Yeah!! 4.18.01 10:56PM [sigh], am tired now...don't want to do any work. Have paper due tomorrow, not ready to have to do it. Whatever. So, things are going to be quite interesting. Jen is upset...but I have a magazine with Hugh Jackman in it!! Yeah!! 4.17.01 12:25PM Had a lot of work yesterday, then was braindead after turning in paper and went to sleep early. I want to go to bed now. Was thinking about not being in a relationship for five months. Nice, it's interesting how your perspective changes after not being involved with anyone. Hey, at least I don't spend 400 dollars on dresses...munkey.... 4.15.01 9:06PM So, went to dinner with my mom, still haven't started my paper, but the night is young.....it will be all right. Mopey friends went to go eat an earthquake, hope they're feeling less mopey and picking of Christal. Yes, it pisses me off that they have to whine about being sick and then pick on me. I don't whine when I'm sick, and I'm understanding of their plight. Then, when they're in a bad mood, they take it out on me and give me the silent treatment. If they don't want me around just say so and I'll leave. I have friends other than them. sheez. And why do they have to be so critical? They tell me to write a response to Jason Antebi and that I should, but then they don't want to help me or even seem interested in what I have to say. Friends suck. It sucks when you're trying to be up and they keep bringing you down. 2:12PM Have to write paper today...Happy Easter. What's up with mopey friends lately? Don't know what to do when I'm trying to be in a good mood and then they just bring you down or look at you like you're a couple sandwiches short of a picnic. Sometimes you have to just let things go...not just whether or not your friends are in a blah mood but sometimes you need to stop caring for others who don't care the same for you. You just let it go and feel that weight be lifted from your heart when you make that concious decision to not let them make you cry. 4.14.01 12:09PM Happy Birthday Mom!!! Yesterday was ok, spent 3 hours at the DMV waiting for Garrett to transfer the title of his car. That was not exciting. Then woke up at 6:30 this morning to discover that facilities was cleaning the bathroom on a Saturday morning. This upset me, especially considering that they work Monday thru Friday and shouldn't have to clean up our mess on the weekends too. To see my frustration with the students on campus check out Jason's Rant and Rave in the Occidental student newspaper. I think I'm going to hunt him down and give him a piece of my mind. On a lighter note, I have a paper due Monday which I haven't started on. Oh a new cd that I love is Whoa Nelly which is by Nelly Furtado. Good album. 4.12.01 12:12AM Well, I'm telling you, Hugh Jackman is the finest man alive...he's all I want and more. Hahaha. I think I've weeded my slight preoccupation with a certain someone out of my system, which is good. I'm sad though, because I know I won't ever meet Hugh Jackman, and probably won't marry him...but that doesn't mean that I can't find my own Hugh.... Had to finish my taxes today...not fun at all. Also figured out that someone tried to steal my car the other day....really not good. Upset but glad that I didn't lose my car. I don't want to feel like I'm missing or needing something in life. I want to be happy, but I want that special man in my life, pictures are good, but not having him there to touch and feel is definitely not the same thing. 4.11.01 2:36PM So, you'd think being in love with a movie star would answer all your problems and keep you from liking other guys, especially friends......wrong. I don't like him...I don't, I just like what he represents and how he treats me. That's it....he's not even hot like Hugh or cut like him or have a sexy voice. Not fair. 4.9.01 10:12AM Been busy lately, have a paper due Friday, another paper due the Friday after that and a "mini" exam tomorrow. Went out with Kate last night to try this Indian restuarant...it wasn't that great for the amount of money you pay. So, Hugh Jackman is now my wallpaper....I wonder if I could make him my screen saver. I must ask Jen about this!! He's so beautiful, though don't worry, I'm not completely Nurse Betty obsessed about him. But check out the website for Someone Like You to send a postcard from the movie. Also there are some sites where you can see Hugh, such as Wolvie's Wives and Hugh Web . Beautiful, beautiful. It's so much easier to like someone you know you'll never meet and won't be rejected. I've decided that my standards have gotten kind of low recently, and that if love is so impermanent anyways, then why not just look for what you want exactly to the "T"? That way I won't start this silly dating game, which I think is tiresome. kate and I were discussing the point of marriage, for security or knowing that at least one person won't leave you. I don't want a marriage like that. I don't think I want to get married because it will probably end up like that. And don't say that I don't know anything. I've had plenty of experience of living with someone and losing myself in that relationship....it's not worth it to me at this point in my life...maybe never worth it again ever. I'm thinking of redesigning my webpage soon, maybe renaming it to "Impermanence", because that seems to be the recurring theme in my life right now.....changing moments, impermanent feelings and emotions... 4.8.01 10:51PM So, worked this morning and bought a ton of clothing. Hung out with Jen and Erin at the Galleria. Spent more money and bought more clothing. Mel is studying for her test tomorrow. Have lots of work to do. 4.7.01 11:56AM Oh my GOD!! Hugh Jackman is sooooo hot!! I swear I'm going to marry him. I will have his children. My heart just skipped a beat whenever he came onscreen and jumped up into my throat whenever he walked around without his shirt on. Quite a fine specimen of man. Not to mention the fact that the movie was great. Jen, Mel and I had a horrible time getting there, but I enjoyed how we all saw the movie and connected with it. It was just like us, especially the interactions between Marisa Tomei and Ashley Judd. I'm the cynic bitch best friend....and proud of it!!! But Hugh's six pack and pecs just give me the shivers. He's so beautiful. I love him so much. I would bear his children, just so I can look at his face everyday, or every weekend when he comes to pick them up......oh please Hugh, come take me away from my life without you.... 11:56AM Going to see a movie today!!! Someone Like You and it has Hugh Jackman in it. He is such a hottie. I had the most awesome dream about him the other night. Then I work and then I have a dinner thing sunday for my mom's b-day. Unfortunately Hector is going to be there. Great, something else to worry about. 4.6.01 1:34PM Got something funny in mail today. Today's MailBits.com Joke: Three guys are having a relaxing day of fishing. Out of the blue, they catch a mermaid -- who begs to be set free, in return for granting each of them a wish. One of the guys just doesn't believe it, and says, "Okay, if you can really grant wishes, then double my I.Q." The mermaid says, "Done." Suddenly, the guy starts reciting Shakespeare flawlessly, and analyzing what he's recited with great insight. The second guy is so amazed he says to the mermaid, "Triple my I.Q." The mermaid says, "Done." The guy starts to spout solutions to problems that have been stumping all the great scientists of the world: the mathematicians, physicists, chemists, and so on. The last guy is so enthralled with the changes in his friends that he says to the mermaid, "Quintuple my I.Q." The mermaid looks at him and says, "You know, I normally don't try to change people's minds when they make a wish, but I really think you should reconsider." The guy says, "Nope, I want you to multiply my I.Q. times five, and if you don't do it, I won't set you free." "Please," the mermaid says, "you don't know what you're asking! It'll change your entire view on the universe. Won't you ask for something else, a million dollars, anything?" But no matter what the mermaid says, the guy insists on having his I.Q. increased to five times its usual power. Finally, the mermaid sighs and says, "Done." And he turns into a woman. Ok, so it's a little male-bash, but not really. Found out where I'm living next year as RA today. It's Stewie. I guess I'm excited. I really want the room with the bathroom in it, that would be so cool. 4.4.01 11:54PM Things ok, just threw Amy a surprise B-day party, and she was quite surprised. I baked her a cake and made spinach dip, which Mel loved. I haven't cooked in awhile, it was nice and relaxing. Just finished a slew of projects, and have a ton of work to do still....but that's ok. Have to stay up late tonight..... |