I moved to a new apartment in sept '06 where its less expensave and I can bring my baby (Azrael) with. My neighbors are extreamly nosy >.> and they love comeing over to let me know they are there if I need any help while they are eyeing my apartment so see if there is any mess >.> I either mess with there minds and act super sweet or start speaking gibberish ^^ (I know basic german, sign language, a bit of japaneese and a handfull of phrases from various languages ^^; ) so I can always keep them guessing. One of my favorite past times is messing with someones mind. Psychology was one of my favorite classses *emits a evil laugh*
Also I want to add before the final section, do not spell check me, its annoying.
that is all xD
Ok I guess you really want to know. Here it is then.
Some of you may know already I was diagnosed with high functioning Autism when I was 22. Nothing wrong with that infact I find it as a gift, it helps me understand the world differently. When I was diagnosed I finaly agreed with the doc. Usualy when they gave me a lable it made no sense. Though it was kinda a blow to the head, see all the other disibilities they labled me with would become less noticiable as an adult. There is no outgrowing Autism. My disibility is acuially not my biggest problem. My memory loss is. I was born with the cord wrapped around my neck and my mom suspects I was given a small brain injery. The injery effects a bit of my life, not being able to drive, not being able to cook (I forget stuff on the stove) forgetting names, people, memories... the list is endless. Alot of you can understand how I feel, think of your average memory loss and multiply it. It's the one thing I truly hate about myself. I think it's because if I had a better memory I'd be able to do more and it's frustrating that's the only thing holding me back. Some of you who do not know better say "Oh well you're just lazy you can remember if you try hard enough" or "Well you can remember your manga you read, you'r just pretending." No offence but you know nothing about me, so mind your own business. >.> Ok a bit offence. I'm a blunt person and will tell you streight up to shut up and ship out. I am lucky alot of my friends are understanding and such. My mom is my life line, and my bros no matter how annoying they get I will always love them.
I see you're still reading my ramblings... I'll continue then.
I was born March 10th 1982 at 12:05am. My twin had left me earlier in life; miscarage in the early months...The doc thought both of us died, but mom had a dream of a little girl reaching out to her and tada... You sometimes find me yelling at the sky blaming John for random stuff, <mom said he woulda've been named John Paul.> cause I know if hes even a bit like me he would be messing with my mind with pranks. I'll say this once we see each other again I'll kill him for leaving me all alone. Well I'm not fully alone... though at times I feel that way... Anyway, lets see...`cause of the memory loss theres not much to tell...I can try remembering if asked questions, but be warned my fileing system is hugely messed up.
hmmm Oh! I was addopted by my step dad when I was 2 1/2... My brother Jared (whom could be the reincarnation of my twin...but then I'd be just shouting at other ghosts.) He was born Nov 6th 1988. He and I grew up about 6 years apart so we spent alot of time together just having fun I love him dearly. When I was 8 my step dads mental disorder became more noticiable... I won't get into detailes... Only a few know what happened. I'll just say this... I would love to have Jerry's beating heart be crushed by my bare hand >.> When I was 12 my mom was starting to get really sick (though Cancer was not diagnosed for close to 2 years later) My last brother was born June 13th 1994 though I love him but we are oposites and sometimes butt heads.
Wow still reading eh? Heh then feast your eyes on this!
My life finaly has a path and I see a goal for my self, I'm no longer just following a rivers flow I carved my own river. I don't really want a job in writing but I will have something to do with that, I want to become a spokeperson/writer for the Autims society...first I have to join though xD one step at a time. I want to maybe start a group or something with adults with high functioning autism because it seems people mostly think of the children and those who have hiugh needs. What about us with low needs bearly making it through life because we were the ones "lucky" enough to be called normal with quirks? I'm not mad, I just want to meet more like me and get my thoughts out in the world. I am told quite often I am smart and I could go places... well then why not? Maybe I could get a college degree or become that spokes person... I have a way with words, my spelling may be crappy but thats what spell check and editors are for.
Let's see... not much else to say xD if you really want to know then you can ask. Im me or e-mail me. Or simply Pm me in gaia. Well my love to all my friends and family <3