Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower
But only so an hour.
So leaf subsides to leaf,
So Eden sank to grief.
So dawn goes down to day,
Nothing gold can stay.
You entered my life unexpectedly,
You left it just the same.
At times I have to fight myself,
From calling out your name.
My heart feels so empty,
My life so incomplete.
The pain I feel inside right now,
Nothing can compete.
Thoughts of you consume my days,
And tears well in my eyes.
To think we'll never get the chance,
To say a last goodbye.
I miss you, my baby, terribly,
Only a mother could feel my loss.
I can only trust in God,
For this burden I must cross.
I know we'll be together,
We'll see each other again.
For now all I have is memories,
To comfort me 'til then.
So Alexis, if your listening,
There's something I want you to know.
Your Mommy loves you dearly,
And I miss you so!
A gift for you on Father's Day,
What on earth could it be?
I know the gift you really want,
Is to once again, have me.
Or perhaps the gift of understanding,
To understand a senseless loss.
I'm sorry, my dearest daddy,
But for those gifts, you must talk to the boss.
The gifts that I can give today,
Are memories, both sad and sweet.
From the touch of your hand on mommy's tummy,
To my tiny little feet.
Remember the joy you felt inside,
When you found out that you'd be my daddy?
The great big smile upon your face,
You were over the moon, you were so happy.
Remember when you felt me move,
The wonder and love you'd feel?
Remember it today daddy,
It might just help you heal.
Remember the little cuddles we had,
And the moments that we shared?
Remember my little hands and the color of my hair?
I love you dearest daddy, you know that this is true.
Just keep your memories of me alive,
And I will always live in you.
I didn't have to look into your eyes
to fall in love with you.
I didn't have to hear you cry
to know you loved me too.
I didn't need to hold your hand
to cherish you for always.
Within my womb, we shared our hearts,
you touched my soul.
You sweetened my spirit
You gave me memories I'll always
hold clear.
Yes, my heart aches since you
departed too soon.
But a mother's love does not end
with death.
For you are my child,
Forever my love is your's�
As I sit alone in your room
After you have gone
So far from me, so far from my arms
I stand at your crib
I run my fingers across where
your head once rested at night
to sleep.
Never again will I say goodnight
Never again will I say I love you
Never again I will be able to hold you.
As I sit in your room
After you have gone
So far from me, so far from my arms
I hold your little blankie in my hands
I run my fingers across the teddybear
That was bigger than you
Never again I will say goodnight
Never again will I say I love you
Never again I will be able to hold you.
As I sit in your room
After you have gone
So far from me, so far from my arms
I hold your first outfit so close to my heart
That once kept you warm.
Never again I will say goodnight
Never again will I say I love you
Never again I will be able to hold you.
As I stand at your graveside
After you have gone
So far from me, so far from my arms
I shed a tear, a tear that is the
beginning of many
I will never again
Say goodnight
Say I love you
Or ever be able to hold you
Acquaintance short, yet parting caused us weep;
Three Flowers, two scarcely blown, the last is the bud,
Cropped by the Almighty's hand; yet He is good.
With dreadful awe before Him let's not dispute,
With humble hearts and mouths put in the dust,
Let's say He's merciful as well as just.
He will return and make up all our losses,
And smile again after our bitter crosses.
Go pretty babe, go rest with sisters twain;
Among the blest in endless joys remain.
Anne Bradstreet
Please, don't ask me if I am over yet.
I'll never be over it.
Please, don't tell me he is in a better place.
He isn't here with me.
Please, don't say at least he isn't suffering.
I haven't come to terms with why he
had to suffer at all.
Please, don't tell me you know how I feel.
Unless you have lost a child.
Please, don't ask me if I feel better.
Bereavement isn't a condition that clears up.
Please, don't tell me that God never gives us
more than we can bear.
Please, just say you are sorry
Please, just say you remember my child,if you do.
Please, let me talk about my child.
Please, mention my child's name.
Please, just let me cry.
We both have angels
playing between the stars,
climbing on God's lap,
driving Saint-Joseph crazy.
We have a bond
we both know angels
we cry in our hearts
as our angels play in heaven and not here.
We have something special
we know an angel by name
and with every stroke of wind
we know our angel is hugging us.
We both have angels
and that is our pain
but our friendship
makes it bearable.
Written by Saskia
Thank you Mom and Dad,
for the little time we had together.
Now I'm on my way to Heaven,
and without you, it will seem forever.
As I strolled through Heaven's Gates,
I was greeted by a Heavenly Host.
They said, "Follow us, oh little one.
We will show you who loves you most."
"Look through Heaven's portals."
As I gazed through the portal looking down...
there you stood Mom and Dad,
with a bright light all around.
Now I know you are not alone,
I saw Jesus by your side.
He will help you with all your sorrow.
With you, He will always abide.
I asked our Lord, here in heaven,
as He sat me on His knee,
please, when it's time for you both to come,
that your souls will again, be with me.
I know it's hard for you to understand,
that my time there on earth was so very short,
But always keep me in your memories,
As we keep our love alive in each other's heart.
Look toward the heavens,
you will see my star shining bright.
Thank God for all of your blessings,
I'll visit you in your dreams each night.
I love you more than when you gave me birth,
And I thank you for the life to me, you gave.
A crown of pearls is waiting for each of you,
for my soul you gave to Him to save.
by Leslie M. Willson
(Just Not Enough Years)
A child is a gift from the Heavenly Father
that comes with many moments of love.
But what you think you'll hold for a lifetime,
may one day soar to the Heavens above.
Oh, now, I think back at the moments;
Precious moments I shared with you.
I think of the times that I heard you laugh ...
There's nothing to compare it to.
I think of the times you sat with me;
Sharing the dreams you treasure.
And sharing the failures that you feared most ...
Even these were moments of pleasure.
Every moment I shared with you was a joy!
So much more than you could know.
Just to hear each time your heart would beat ...
Meant one more beat to help you grow!
Tonight, I sit & hold onto the photo albums;
Holding onto every single minute.
I look back & long for more time in life with you.
For more life while you were in it.
I see others around me & know that they
understand exactly how I feel.
For every moment I live without you
is a moment too painfully real.
So, I sit tonight longing to hold you.
I just can't hold back my tears.
There were many moments with you ...
Oh ... Just not enough years.
~Author~
Kaye Des'Ormeaux
Copyright 2001 Kaye Des'Ormeaux
Special dedication to all Moms who have lost a child.
And to my sister, Linda, who I still miss terribly
