PEOPLE HAVE SEASONS              90



I've gone too far down while you are around
But you're not the reason for why
This is the truth I am speaking to you
Too open, too honest to lie
All feels like stopped time and I'm locked into change
As actions and words get colder and strange
And I know this is not what you're wanting to hear
But I'm numb to your pain this time of my year

Because people have seasons like nature has seasons
Turning the reasons for why I was in love with you

Life's not left to fate, there's love or there's hate
The world is Heaven or Hell
I know better than this but I don't want a last kiss
For I know myself too well
So you wander lost down backstreets of sorrow
Where nothing will be any different tomorrow
You never wanted to be this finally free
Stripped into your misery

And Spring is too distant, like memories of Summer
And alone through the Autumn, I freeze into a Wintertime

I tried to escape the memories, yours as much as mine
I cannot live up to the promises that were only in your mind
So let's keep out of each other's way
The 'forevers of  love' were yesterday
Tears before bedtime-there's nothing to do
But I told you before, I'm too lonely with you

And I can't even cry or make mad laughter start
Give me any kind of release
Now everything attacks the heart
And a cold war starts for peace
Too wounded by my failures
And haunted by despair
I am sick of myself -not you and yourself
My eyes have just closed to your care

And I don't know what does it but it's killing my soul
I am left feeling nothing, I am not in control.