GROWING PAINS          96




I've got my admiration but only half respect
This safehouse of relationship has fallen to neglect
For still I haven't learned how to live with someone else
Without becoming colder or a caricature of myself 
Reflected chances got me here but I forgot my history
Travelled like a pioneer, mistakes repeat eternally

Seems very simple alchemy to turn our dreams to tears
All you need is one lifetime, the growing pain of years
Love is good to confuse friends but I found a good retreat
Flipped a coin for losing ends, each doubt is counted as defeat
I was trying to lose opinions, because there's none that serve
Till I reached conclusions and then I lost my nerve

Mixed aggression into sorrow, forgot that home's a feeling
Today is hidden from tomorrow, come to me now - I need your healing

Falling into snowfields of your valentine eyes and mouth
Left lonely on the steps again of the orphan house
Where "No one understands", used to be my battle cry
So determined not to need, people's games and lies
Now there's some who know and I'm realising why
Beholding all the beauty and the wonder in the eye

Sometimes I remember who I was before the Fear
Sometimes I forget myself and dream that you are here
At times I know just who I am, excited and afraid
In wonder at the moment Now - the choices I have made
But comes a time when you learn, alone from others past
To carry on without return, turning into myself at last...