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GOING BLIND 92 Am going blind in Frozen minutes Wasted in a star age daze Blasted down Between the sparks Burning out with Cartoon heads Electric thin Held back by wire Deja vu from dreams In colder hours With eyes eclipsed Deja vu from dreams, cold To darken out the soul Spiked with ice and Spiralwaves Slowmotion Infinities Sight and thoughts Drowned out by silent Black and zero lines Am going blind in Frozen seconds Sun in eyes, turned to stone Needle light Thorns the skin Burning out in star age time Sucked past lips Of turning voids Dizzy inside the Whirlpool mouth With eyes eclipsed Held back by wire Vanished forever But for the black Reach out to nothing Disappear Gone Pinpoint lost. /// I lost all sight three times that year. After The Doors film – (I had smoked dope in the cinema toilets, then drank whisky during the show, beer in the Beehive pub - where I first went blind) After smoking too much in the garden at Bushey, then coming inside, turning on the bathroom light and nothing happened - cold sweat pumped the terror out. The final time, after a session with Alan and Howard, (another couple of brothers) climbing up the stairs into space and into a child’s room that had luminous stars on the ceiling. I was told days later, after I had left early in the morning, that I was expected to be dead the next day. I had thought this too. I have never mixed my intoxicants since those times, although my innate maschochist stupidity has begged me to./// |