A R I E S     I C E                 1994




Nights we slept in the childrens’ room
Surrounded by toys and anger
The hungry baby girl
Her sleepless baby parents
The little boy who would be king

All of us wired into the tension
I tried to convince you
That breakdowns were only an initiation
And my hidden agenda was always to strengthen

I tried not to panic, so hard
That coolness became ice 
This firesign became cold for politeness
As guests and your useless lover
Afraid of failure again
I could not let you touch me

We offered advice to both sides
And disappeared all day
You misunderstood me one night 
And cried beside for an hour

Nothing I said in truth could work
Signs of affection faded
As the ice age grew
And I was frozen by my own defences

People have seasons
I now understand
Mine are created
Evolved from my hands
My nature has reasons
I can’t understand
Annihilated 
And out of my hands.



/// A true story.  Seven months before, Rafaele had said she had fallen in love
with me again, this time it all collapsed at last after five years of her incredible patience.
For her holiday, we shared a house with a collapsing family, the highlight was supposed
to be a concert by the Rolling Stones-they cancelled due to Keith hurting one of his fingers,
this destroyed all romance forever.  I still love her- and him, though.///