| Here away from it all- I , the loner sit, Quietly I watch � As all the happy lovers kiss, I do not know what it is like- To act in such a way, To express my feelings- In such a public display.. So I sneak a glance- At all of loves fools, While I sit back and ponder- All of lifes damn rules, I light a smoke- And slowly take a drag, Sitting back I silently watch the lovers- Since I always show up stag, Then I wish for simply � A love like theirs, For one man who loves me- He who truly care�s, So slowly I gather all my things- Making my exit through the backdoor, For I know, I do not belong- In loves corridor, The man I dream of- Does not exist, So as I walk down the street- I ponder such bliss, All they want from me- Is a lust that burn�s, A desire so passionate- It makes their loins yearn, So to each one of them- Who passes through my bed, I give them something to think about- Til� the day they drop dead, And for those brief moments- When I give my lust, I dream of one man- To love and to trust, Finally when they leave- And the bed sheets stripped away, My mind wanders back to this man- And I dream of Him all day�. As I turn the knob to the shower- Wakening the stream to wash my sin, As the water strips away the pain and lies- I yearn so deeply for him, In this stream- My heartache runs down my cheeks, I wonder if I should just stop looking- For it�s been years, months, weeks, No matter what I do- Even scouring through every crowd, I am unwilling to give up hope on my quest- For that is not allowed, But as time keeps moving forward- I am slowly losing my will, And even if he is only a dream now- For his love I would surely kill, For Him I would do anything- Even giving him my own life, I would do anything for him- To end this search full of strife, With each event I do attend- Drunk, wasted and alone, I listen and watch all of them- How they blissfully drone, On and on so damn much- About how �love is grand�, I wait for the one woman in the crowd- To tell me how hard it must be without a man, Then she laughs and walks away- As if I know not of this pain, So I walk away feeling lonely- And perhaps a little insane, Seems like everywhere I turn- Someone is happy and free, Loving someone else- Why did god forsake only me? I guess this I may never know- What love can really do, So instead I daydream always darling- Thinking about you� By: Mel C Scott |