| ~~My irony~~ I can see you feel you hear you I Desire you Admire you Adore you But there�s so much more to you That makes me want to Kiss you Touch you Hold you Need you Want you Taste you This desire makes me feel alive It makes me empty Weak But I hunger for you I burn for you I want to feel you Caressing my face With the look in your eyes that says �There is no one in this world I desire more then you�� I want to feel your breath upon my neck I want to take you the ecstasy I dream about I want to make your body tremble To hear you moan To know that it is me, that takes you to this place Every night I lie awake alone Wanting Desiring Needed to feel you beside me Tossing and turning Till I find myself in my dreams And you are there with me Finally To hold me Touch me Tell me the world begins and ends when you see my face I live in this dream Everyday Always And it hurts There is pain The pain in knowing it shall never be Because I see you now Slipping from my grasp Fading into the shadows Shrinking back from my outstretched arms Using words to cut me deeply And the wounds They wont heal They just bleed They just drain They cause pain Unwanted pain And had they been physical I could have handled it But this pain in my soul This empty hollow shell It is becoming more then I could possibly stand And my hand It is empty And my cup It is filled with blood My soul It begins to die For I cannot have the one I truly love Here within lies the irony Here is the truth I never wanted to face To fall in love with a stranger Longing for his embrace Thinking that I knew him so well Yet, watching as he loves another It is not me It is her So I sit here alone Wondering Why must this be? For I cannot understand why You spoke of love to me.. So the tears they flow by the hundreds And I hide my face from the world Again I go unnoticed Again I sit a lonely girl I take the blame for all hardships I take the fall for those I love Again I sit alone in silence And scream to my goddess above I wail in pain And in sorrow For I knew once What was to be my fate So alone I must travel on now Alone I sit and wait Not for the love I have dreamt about so fondly Not for love to come my way But for the day I finally die here For the that time when my wretched shell begins to decay Until then I will keep everyone smiling I will help those who I can For perhaps it is not my destiny To know the true love of one man�. By: Mel C. Scott |