~~As my river flows~

here's my soul, with it my love
I hold from you my pain
I keep to myself my dissapointments
I withhold my fears
I will carry you,
as I have always carried you
I will hold your head above the drowning flood waters of you inner turmiol
I will care for you
Take care of you
Body and soul
I have  loved you
I love you like no one else ever will
I have shown you the celestial levels of the condition
of unconditional love
I will never stop loving you
I will be there to catch you when you fall
I have been there to mend your shattered soul

I will always be there to mend it

I have asked nothing of you
I ask everything for you

I am about YOU
I am wrapped around you
I surround you

I have been your shelter
solice
council
lover
friend
mistress
slave

I give all this to you

Now I am weary
I listen and watch as you chop down the pedalstool you so insisted perching me upon

you make me the target
of your anguise
of your rage

I am bewildered
I ask why you do this
I watch as next to me you build a new pedalstool

one grander and larger scale then my own

I know my place
just as I always have
I know your arms
I know they cannot reach the height you wish them to reach
I have given you everything
But I will not boost you to her arms

I have done everything
You have ever asked

and in return
In silence
you take your scapel of mistrust
disecting my heart
yet you still wish to possess it

I dont wonder why you do this
for when mending the broken
you will in turn create a lifetime of pain for yourself

I chose to do this
something I will do
but recieve nothing but pain in exchange for



But I made that choice
for I could make that choice
I chose not to leave you floundering in the dry lake bed of your once flourishing love for another

even now I watch as you take from my river of love

as you take and try to dig a canal to fill your barren lake

a place which was once so lovely
now my river flows more rapid as my sorrow is released

You dont think of me when your dreaming
you think` of her
I see it inside you
I know so much now
But my love will always be there to wash away your heartache...



Written by: Mel C. Scott
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