August 3rd 2003
I am beginning to think, I�m stuck in this trap forever
Haunted by the memories of being ones desire.
Thinking it was over, thinking it was done
Wondering if I�m realizing that this craving has only just begun.
The pain and the cold, touching at my soul
Has taken a piece of my being, leaving my heart un-whole
The emotion and the strength, that has taken me to this length.
To see my dreams shattered has my body feeling haggard.
Amazing that this one event, has left in my heart a certain dent
Knowing that this path is leading me to impediment.
The thought of anyone else giving her happiness
Infuriates my mind, laying on my heart serious stress
Do I wait forever, do I wait for now?
Someone please tell me which way is best!
If waiting is the key, I would ace that fucking test.
If it�s to give up and shut up, pick up my heart and toughen up.
I�ll need someone in my life amazing, to take my mind off the aching.
If she�s able to do this, she�s able to make me forgive my sin.
Then she doesnt need to wonder, because shes already taken the win.