August 4th, 2003
With all the tears that have been caused
I�ve had to look at my values in a newfound way
I feel like my heart has been paused
Because of how I can�t move on to another day
Why did things get so fucked up
In a way that there seems no redemption
The way I�m feeling bound and stuck
Leaves my heart in constant contemplation
Could there ever be forgiveness
Will there ever be an end
To my heart and its everlasting stress
Am I in this mindset forever is there anyway to fend
Off these feelings of a thing full of quintessence
My soul craves for it again and again
Do I enjoy these feelings I have deep inside
I cannot say no because of the purity of the emotions
All I can do is look to the sky and say �Why god, Why?�
Do I enjoy the pain and the ache that dwells in my soul?
Sometimes yes but almost always�no
Could I wait forever? Am I even waiting for something?
An end would be nice, a beginning even better
I feel like my hearts cut off, that I�ve closed its shutters
Away from anyone else to have it ever
I think to myself will I ever love another?
My soul tells me never.