I added a new blog tool thing, because why not?



Lately my life has turned completely upsidedown. I have no idea what I want for the future/present. I don't even think I've come to terms with the past. And everything around me seems just off enough to bother me. I really want to just get out of this place I'm in, figuratively and literally.



Being surrounded by delusional people who are so caught up in love and drama and stress just bring me to this point of wanting to scream, and cry, and leave. Just drop out, move away, and forget.



I'm so much better then I feel like I put out. That I have the energy to reveal. that I even know how to express. I could do so many things with my life, but at this point I just can't picture myself having the balls to do any of it. The tools the do any of it. The nerve.



But at the same time, there is this part of me that knows I can, and knows that I'm just letting it all slip away because I'm too fucking scared to put my ass on the line.



But I have no idea where to start.



I want to run away.



Be bigger than this at least.



It's not about love, or fear, just the need to realize I am what I know I could be.



Let it be spring, so that I can give myself the excuse to start over.



I want to take photography and Italian.