lazy bum ass ;)

i never really thought about how bad being lazy can be.. but while i was lying down earlier this day, i realized that the time i spend just lying down and watching TV could be spent for doing something even more productive than just learning the lines of stupid chick flicks :P pft.

i dint do much today, except for maybe reading my bio book and watching Raise Your Voice on VCD :O but then, i could have studied for english.. but noooo!! not me!! i had to go on and stick my butt to my bed just like always!! i'm really not that lazy when i think about it.. i looove going out, and i'm really up for anything as long as it involves going out with some people.. but being at home. the ambiance. the place. it just makes me want to stick my butt to the bed with the cordless beside me in case someone calls, haha!

raise your voice's a pretty good movie.. i mean, i don't like hilary duff that much but i do loooove oliver james.. he is SOOOO to die for! cuteness, aahahah!! :P and in all fairness, that movie made my eyes quite teary.. i know i know, mababaw naman luha mo nix eh, syempre iiyak ka!!.. yes. i mostly DO cry when i watch chick flicks, and it's because it's sooo much like real life.. you win some, you lose some.. and frankly, i can relate to them.. so NO, my tears aren't really that low.. pero iyakin ako! inaamin ko un, haha!!

enough of this, haha! gotta go! bye all, take care! :P

oh yeah i forgot!!! :P special mention!! :P happy birthday to mel (from 2C) and to my cousin, jo!! :P people who are really old and turning 16 tomorrow!! wahahaha!! :P happy birthday, God bless, and may you have more birthdays to come!! :P love you guys!! :P

I hope it's you..

went to angge's house at around 12:30 yesterday, and bummed out for like 3 hours i think? :O then at around 4, we started walking towards ateneo for the high school fair :P got there at around 5 na since we were walking pretty slow, and we walked all the way from angge's house, wahaha EXCERCISE! :O woosh! :P anywho moving on.. no offense to the ateneans (although they too found it boring i think, haha! :)), but they fair was SOOOO boring!!! :O woooshhhh!!! gosh!! i totally regret going there 3 hours earlier than the concert that night.. and even the concert itself wasn't an uproar! no offense to the bands.. i thought they were great, but i dunno.. i guess i wasn't into "concerting" that night, haha!! :P anywho, slept over angge's house last night.. her mom was supposed to pick us up at Gesu at around 12:30, but it was soooo freaky coz' there wasn't any lights and stuff, so we headed on to xavier hall, since there were lights and all :) anywho ayun, got to her house siguro mga 1, then slept.. grabe, my feet were and still are killing me!!! :O wahahaha!! :P

ate at tapa king for lunch.. gosh!! i know it sounds corny, pero naaadict na ko sa tapa king:O i have no idea why since it's ONLY tapa, but it's really goodddd :O wahahaha!! :P mom picked me up at angge's at around 4, then headed on to marikina.. went to mass at around 6 there, with cams, then ayun.. errrrr.. i ammm soooo bored and tired.. no classes tomorrow!!! :P wooosh! wahahaha!! :P

yes, i first heard this song at 97.1, and i really liked it the first time i heard it.. i dint know you sang it though at that time, and now that the lyrics were at celine's blog, i had to get them, wahahah!! :P

I Hope It's You
by Ntwine

Are you real or are you a dream
Are you true, or not what it seem
Cause I've been there before
Don't wanna hurt myself no more oh no no
Someone who feels for me
Who's constantly inlove with me
And cares for me
Someone who won't say goodbye
Someone who can change my life
I hope its you, I hope its you
Will you stay, or will you leave
Shall I doubt, or shall I believe
Cause I've been there before
Don't wanna hurt myself no more oh no no
Someone who feels for me
Who's constantly inlove with me
And cares for me
Someone who won't say goodbye
Someone who can change my life
I hope its you, I hope its you
How will I know
If you're gonna be here tomorrow
Tell me baby how can I say
When there's no other way
But to give you my heart, my love
I'm trusting from this time
Baby don't break my heart
Someone who feels for me
Who's constantly inlove with me
And cares for me
Someone who won't say goodbye
Someone who can change my life
Someone who feels for me
Who's constantly inlove with me
And cares for me
Someone who won't say goodbye
Someone who can change my life
I hope its you, I hope its you

such a nice song really, and it says quite a lot :O wahahaha!! :P

i'm going now, haha bye!! :P take care! :P

onga pala, KAREN!!!! dear!! special mention!! wag ka nang mag tampo :) hahaha!! :P love you dude!! :)

that maybe you're all i need ;)

..in darkness he is all i see.. maroon 5 rocks! :P 'nuff said :)

speech fest elims started earlier this day, and for the sophomores, we were second in line. which sucked that dint? ok weird. but being second had its' ups and downs. being second in line, we dint have to wait agonizing minutes, oh wait, HOURS pala, just to finish our presentation. i mean, it was better that way, at least we were done with it and all we had to do was wait for elims to finish and hear the announcements for the top 3 in our batch.. unfortunately, everyone left even before the annoncements for our batch were made; heck, i dont even think they announced it today!! :O sir fermin started announcing the top 3 for the seniors division (per batch), then the first years.. UNFORTUNATELY!!! our elims weren't over, so we dint get to hear the winners anymore.. too bad! :O pft!

i wouldn't say nothing happened, coz something DID happen.. miraculously, we did quite well considering the fact that the whole piece was put together in less than an hour.. i'm NOT bragging, it's just that, i dint think we'd make it this far as to please and impress the audience earlier, and we even heard some good comments which was great.. pft!! i wish we could win at least 3rd place, but hey, never settle for less.. but still, 3rd place would be great, considering, again, the short time and stuff :)

georgia brought patty and i to my house, which was great of her, nahihiya na nga ako, pero mas naiinis yata siya pag tinatanung ko kung "ok lang talaga? sorry ah, kasi blah blah blah..." :) but still, had fun with sina angge, kiara, sam, patty, georgia, kim, jo, marga, missy, moncha, aj, rae (i don't think i forgot anyone but if ever i did, sorry! :)) God help me, hahaha!! :p

oh yes!! :p i'm sleeping at angge's house tomorrow, which is great, since the concert at ateneo tomorrow would prolly end late, and since my parents, being the really late people that they are when they go out on fridays and saturdays that they come home at around 3 or 4 na, wouldn't be able to pick me up i think, they agreed to let me :) i dint watch the concert tonight naman eh, which i was supposed to but since i'm sleeping nga at angge's, i had to sacrifice this night.. woah!! :P wahahaha!! :P ok, ang weird :O anywho, i better go..

bye all and take care! :P

it isn't all that ;)

yes, it isn't all that. LIFE isn't all that, heck, i don't even think it's worth living for.. ok, that's a bit redundant, "life isn't worth living for" :O there are times that it is, and then there are these days when you just feel like giving up everything you have .:> "needless to say that i am going for the kill", kanta yan ng mayonnaise, yung nanalo dun sa red horse muzik laban, haha solid! :O anywho, yes, it isn't really all that. you gain a little, and you lose a whole lot. ok malabo na ung sinasabi ko, hindi ko narin maintindihan. change topic!!

we had practice for the speech fest thing last saturday, which went great, and although patty and i were late for like, 2 and a half hours at the least, we were able to catch up to what our classmates were doing (even though we couldn't relate ONE BIT!). they segmented the speech and gave it to different groups to interpret and shit, and since patty and i weren't there when they did that, we had to catch up and learn the speech all over again. it certainly paid off since we finished the speech that day ;) after that, went to tapa king, since patty, angge and i were uber hungry. and instead of taking patty home and resting, we went to angge's place nalang, and watched THE INCREDIBLES!!!! oh my goo-ley!! i dint know that it was THAT cute!! haha anywho, went home at around 8 since nagtatampo sakin mom ko coz' i dont stay at home often na raw, hahaha!! :P anywho, there. i told her about the whole "i skipped the soph night, so you should let me go out till dawn", haha! :P she bought it, so un, sina justin came over and we did a lot of catching up since we dint see each other in AGES!! :O wooshhhh.. time flies when you have fun :)

chatting with beatot, carsi, justin, micah and kurt right now ;) and kurt, PUCHA PARE! SOLID CORNY KA! ;) sinasabi ko may come back eh amp! haha solid! :O sana ganun ako ka corny, para masaya, hahaha!! :P catching up with the others, lalo ka na micah, miss you loads!! :P wooosh!! solid!

yesterday went by fast. went to marikina to visit relatives ( ok, we do that every sunday unless my lazy bum ass takes over, THEN i don't go with my family ;) ) and dint do much :O IT'S MY FIRST TIME TO COOK DINNER TONIGHT!!! woosh!! and not just any dinner! i have no idea what it's called, but i call it "meat na may black na sauce", basta un!! :p and believe it or not, i think it tasted pretty good, haha sharing!! :p solid!

ok i ought to go now, haha! :P bye and take care all! :P

it's been a while ;)

5 days, oh my goo-ley :P not that i really dint go online, but again with the bum ass, i was too lazy to blog in the past few days. but heck, the week went by sooper fast, that i dint really get the chance to enjoy it much.

cards are coming out on tuesday i think, and i'm afraid i might either get a C on Social or Fil. sheesh. i'm failing both subjects which really sucks. the teachers kasi eh!! err, haha! :P but i'm getting at least a 90 on bio, which is friggin' great, and an 89 on math, solid! oooh yah! grabe!

i'm not really sure when, but i think that was on a wednesday. i fell, sa stairs at school, which wasn't really all that embarrassing since i was feeling cramps already but i dint mind it so i guess my leg just gave in. sprained my left ankle, which really sucks, coz' i found it really hard to walk up and down stairs and stuff. still hurts at the moment, but hell, at least i can walk dammit! haha! :O

field trip today! honestly, i found it quite corny, calamba? it was really near and all but hey, a field trip's a field trip.. had fun, but not to the extremes which was quite a disappointment! pft. i dont wanna talk about it since i slept a lot sa bus, kasi nga diba, lazy bum ass ako?! haha! :P pft. doesn't really matter, what's done is done, haha! :P

i better go, we have practices at like, 8 in the morning and shit. pft! bye guys and take curr! :P

don't fret ;)

intramurals went by fast, and no justin, it isn't really an excuse to bum around and shit.. we're supposed to "cheer", but as i said, i aint really into that (coming from a hypocrite. pft). not that i'm really that big a hypocrite, but if laziness comes, it WILL take over, haha! i've been bumming around for the last 5 days, since wednesday. pft.

yesterday was ok i guess, practice for the speech fest thing, but we dint really PRACTICE, tsk. at around 5, headed on to mcdo katips to hang and stuff, then went back home, where patty was picked up at around 7 i think.. i had plans with paolo and pat, AND with tropa, inuman daw? ok, i don't drink and all, but i really don't mind being around drunk people, hahaha! got used to it na i guess. kavod nalang, mas masarap, haha PICKY, err. i drink beer though, pero onti lang? haha! whatever..

i sooo wanna hang with everyone right now.. i'm missing EVERYONE like crazy!! i haven't seen tropa in like, 2 weeks now i think, or is it 3? and paolo and pat.. pftt.. it's been FOREVER! again, it's my fault. putang inang lazy bum ass nix ano ba!! err. like today! i'm supposed to see my cousins whom i haven't seen since like, new year, and AGAIN WITH THE LAZINESS! ooook, and i haven't even studied for tomorrow yet, which was a secondary reason for my need to stay at home! pft

chill pare, there's still tomorrow. don't fret ;P

Intramurals? nah..

Frankly, i'm really not into the whole "go green batch!! champs sa intrams!!" thing.. don't get me wrong though, i DO love my batch, it's just that, i don't see the point in bouncing up and down, cheering for my batchmates if i know that they CAN win on there own, even with some cheering "boo!!!".. so it doesn't really make any difference :P (ok, i'm being a hypocrite..).. i DO cheer.. i jut don't see the relevance in it, haha!! :P anywho, intramurals started today! :P OH MY GULAY! that's our new expression taken from, oh yes, the KFC commercial :P oh my goo-ley :O haha! :P oh my goo-ley, the escorts this morning were great i think :P there were these 2 guys from out of the box (the rapper dude, i forgot his name, but he's über cute! :P) as our batch's escorts, and Mikel Campos for the pink batch, hahaha!! :P nothing much happened though, we just bummed around and stuff.. errrr, i REALLY felt lazy today, haha!! :P we're brining some pillows tomorrow, para mafeel talaga namin ung pagkatamad naming sumali sa mga games!! hahaha!! :P

Kiara put some black nail polish on my nails (du-h!), which i think looks really nice, not really slutty :P black looks slutty daw, but i dunno.. baka pag medyo maitim ka lang or something, kasi nga diba, black na nga, haha!! :P weird :P ok, i lost some CDs today, which sucks.. i lost an original Jojo cd, which ISN'T EVEN MINE!!! errr :O hahaha so i'll have to replace that and stuff :P

we're going to mcdo tomorrow! i aint sure with whom though, but georgia offered to take me home if i went with her, so there, hahaha!! :p prolly be eating dinner there or something, since intramurals naman :P we're also going to divisoria (hopefully!!), Kiara, Sam, Georgia, Angge, Tessa, Aj and i! :P woohoooo!! :P that'll be funnn oh yes, hahaha!! :P

gotta go though, eat dinner, haha!! :P bye!! :P take care guys :P

AYOKO NA.. GUSTO KO NANG MAMATAY

ok obviously from the title, it's easier to express anger ang hatred through tagalog, but since i usually dont use tagalog on my blogs, let's itallicize the tagalog sentences, alright?

ayoko na talaga.. ang hirap hirap umasa sa wala.. ang hirap hirap talaga.. you guys have no idea how hard it is to be in the situation i'm in right now.. hindi ko na alam gagawin ko.. ayoko nang umasa, kung hindi lang rin gaganda, kung hindi lang rin aayos at kung hindi lang rin naman makikinig sakin ung mga taong dapat makinig, ayoko nang maging santo, na tatanggapin nalang lahat -- lahat ng paglalait, lahat ng paghihirap, lahat ng pagbabastos, lahat ng sigawan, lahat ng pangbabalewala -- ayoko nang gumising, kasi feel ko panaginip lang to.. lahat ng problema biglang naglabasan, bigla akong limalamon.. nonesense? oh no, it's far from it..

my family's having problems right now, and frankly, ayoko na.. i was seriously considering suicide last night, when my world finally came down.. i had to ask, Lord bakit naman sa lahat ng tao, sakin mo pa nagawa to? i know i'm not the best christian there ever was, but this is too much.. my family's breaking up, and i dont think i'll be growing up with either my parents near me, i'm leaving.. i want to leave!!!!!!!!!! i want to leave this place i call home and never look back.. i dont want to feel the pain anymore.. i dont want to be strong, and have to endure this feeling everyday of my life, everyday that i am at home.. ayoko na talaga.. parang, wala nang sense talaga.. i am a serious wreck.. gusto ko nalang mamatay para wala nang problema, para hindi na maghirap mom ko, para hindi na ko maghirap, kasi sa lahat naman ng tao na gagawin ng Diyos, ako pa ung napili niyang mahirapan at masaktan ng walang katapusan.. aping api ba ko? hindi naman eh.. i dont expect any one of you to understand, kasi hindi nyo naman alam sitwasyon ko eh, hindi nyo nararamdaman at hindi nyo rin mararamdaman..

behind all the smiles i show, all the laughter we share, there was always and will always be something behind that, something far from smiles and laughter, something far from heaven, and something far from life.. i'm sorry, my friends, if i tricked you, tricked you into believing that everything was alright, when in fact, EVERYTHING SUCKS and..

seriosly, i wanna die.. RIGHT NOW

Thank God It's Friday! :P

oh yes THANK GOD, coz' i have loads to do over the weekend.. the saying "dont put of till tomorrow what you can do today" doesn't really apply to me.. cramming isn't really my specialty.. heck, i couldn't even get my bum ass off the bed early, so doing my projects due on monday wasn't really an option at that time.. that project of mine's due on monday, and i have another one due on tuesday which i'm doing with patty tomorrow :O so, i might not see my cousins on sunday coz of the stupid project due on monday :P

errrr, kurt has this Kjwan CD and thank God, he's lending it to meeee!! :P oh yesss!! :P haaaaay nako kurt wag kang pikonnnn!!!i just hope he doesn't take it back :P oh yes..

today's just like any other day.. except that we heard mass this morning since it IS the first friday of the month.. errrr..

might be eating lunch at mcdo katipunan tomorrow with patty, then head on to national, then back home to do the poster project thing we have going on.. i REALLY have nothing to put in here :O

oh yeah, there's this concert thing, with spongecola, at Xavier somewhere on the 5th of feb i think.. georgia and i are going, but we're inviting some others to come along.. the soph night's coming up too, and to THAT, i aint going :P going out with sina patty nalang, that'll be even better, diba? hahahah!! :P i mean, hey, 350's a bit to expensive but what the hell, hahaha!! :P 5 cheesburger meal na un, hahaha!! :P na go big time, oh yes, lol! :P

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oh yes!! :P sorry! :O gotta go though, take care all! :P

It's a wednesday, and nothing has brighten up..

wednesday, yep, the day classes resume after christmas vacation.. i wasn't really arguing my way out of school this morning, instead, i actually wanted to go and see the people i have yet to see for a long time now.. i'm really wasted, and i have been for the whole day, no idea why though.. nothing much happened today, i felt sick a couple of times but that's it.. no special thing going on today..

i'm supposed to be at practice right now, for the speech thing.. i don't feel too good though, so i decided to skip ö..

i last blogged on the 29th in my tabulas site so i guess i'll start from there about stuff that has happened lately..

went to my cousin's on the 31th to welcome in the new year.. my parents told me this thing that you're supposed to really stay at home when new year comes, to welcome in the good luck and all, and to keep the famliy together and all.. frankly, i dont believe in that, and it's really weird sometimes that people do.. i mean, THAT act doesn't and isn't supposed to tell us what would happen nor is it supposed to dictate our future.. nevertheless, superstitions and native beliefs are still carried on to the present.. i wonder why though.. anywho moving on.. it was only cams and i this time, since jay, jo, claire and their families follow the said superstition of staying at home and stuff.. it was fun though.. fun if you LIKE dancing to 60's till 80's music, which MAY be fun, if you're really into it.. ahahaha!! :P it's not really baduy, just, weird, hahaha!! :P

dint really do anything on the 1st, and couldn't go anywhere either since everyone's with their families, and all the restaurants outside malls are closed and stuff :O which is mean!! haahha! !:P my family and i were supposed to have dinner at A Venetto, which was supposed to be great since i LOOOOVE the food there, but then again, the restaurant was closed, so we ended up paying P1,200 at shakey's instead of the P700 we would be spending at A Venetto.. Shakey's isn't really good anymore, pft.. my parents drank some wine with tita Jenny, i had some of it.. i really dint like it though ö moving on..

monday and tuesday were spent for thinking bout stuff.. stuff i dont usually think of but hey, it's a start :P talked to nicollo over the phone last monday.. talked about his last girlfriend and stuff.. ohhh that girl was really mean.. i'm no one to judge her though, she may have her own reasons anyway so who am i to interfere? ahhaha!! :P talked for about 2 hours till my stupid sister insisted on using the internet so i had to put it down.. wish i could talk to him again though, i dont really get to see those people, and he hasn't finished what he was telling me, hahaha!! :P

i really really feel sick, even though i still have the courage to type in stuff, hahaha!! :P weird :O

take care guys, blog in tomorrow or something!! :P

New site, new blog :P

Sheesh. I hope this site works well.. after hours of staring at the computer, i finally managed to have this thing working, also the gallery page is up, so go check it out :P

It's been a while since i blogged too, so i guess i'll be putting up the things that happened to me in the past weeks.. i really do hope this works!! :O

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE put in some comments on how the site looks and all.. i know there isn't much content yet, but if ever i'm contented with this layout, then i'll be putting in some more pages and stuff :P

comments and tags are what i really need! :P i want to know if it looks ok.. haha!! :P

take care all!! :P love you! :P

4:51 pm

failure :O

failure really sucks, specially when you really wanna do your best and all :P anywho, i was able to make this thing work and although i DID say that it was working, i found some major mishaps :O i've been online for a while now and there's really nothing else to do except blog in and blog out :P

oh yeah, my tabulas site IS still on, though i wanted something on my own, i wanted to try it out :P and yes, i AM a beginner in these things, but i think i did pretty well so far, hahaha!! :P the pics are up, and i fixed it up a little bit, hope THAT helps!! my pics were all over the place!! :O

well, that's all i suppose.. i'll blog in later on or maybe tomorrow, see how things go tomorrow at school :P hahaha!! :P

take care all!!! :P see yah!! :P love you!! :P