A Closed Door

 

A beginning with doors wide open

                With talking, listening

                Of caring and sharing

In this, a second reunion

Words and feelings comfortably sharing

                Who we are

                Who we were

                Who we are yet to be.

 

It began with wanting to know

                Wanting to give

                Wanting to show

With warm curiosity and friendly humor

Many stories to be told of

                What we did

                What we do

                What we really want to do.

 

A beginning with hours of passion

                Stroking, caressing

                And steamy kisses

Bodies locked tightly together embracing

Nipples pressed to feel the others' softness

                Wanting it now

                Wanting it then

                But waiting for tomorrow.

 

This beginning feeling so good,

                Felt safe.

                Or so it seemed

                So it felt.

With excitement and new fascination

Then suddenly as it began

                It stopped.

                Went away.

                Was it the end?

 

A door so quickly was shut

                Leaving me stunned

                Avoiding and evading

Distrust emerging in a wake of confusion

With all my emotions laid bare

                Wanting to talk

                Wanting to touch

                Hurting inside.

 

In all my wide-eyed excitement

                Did I misunderstand?

                Was I insensitive?

What words shrouded in distrust go yet unspoken?

What lies hidden and buried by fears?

                I want to know

                I need to know

                Then, if you want, I will go.

 

 

B. Benjamin                                                                                                         

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