.....So this is a little different. I'm actually at home making this post. Today is that day that Half-Life has been erased from my machine. I'm not going to play that game anymore. I've still got Everquest though for a little while. So if you are wondering, I'm doing fine. I got to see Sarah last Thursday so that was nice. I've been looking for a ring by the way. I know if I read this post myself later, I'll know it's more than that though. I have since went to a concert also. Jennifer Knapp and Third Day. Ahh, good concert. Good times. Anyway, I'm off to Ed and Dani's to have dinner. Tracy and Trevor will be there too. Until we meet again.
Friday, April 28, 2000
.....Okay, so I don't have to completely agree with the rules that seem to be governing my relationship with Sarah, but I have decided to completely abide by them. Just here trusting. Looking forward to what will be in the end. It was really nice to see her last nite though. See you on Thursdays Sarah.
Thursday, April 27, 2000
.....Woah, busy at work. Can someone show me how to provision an integrated T-1? So It's been a couple weeks now. I'm okay.....at least I keep telling myself that. This situation is very survivable, but I can't say that it makes feel all that great inside. Feels like one of my friends has been taken from me. Good thing God give me strength. I need it. I just want time to pass now. That's sort of selfish though. I'll see her tonite, and I'm eager to. Tredge on!
Monday, April 17, 2000
.....And then there is light at the end of the passage. I got a call from Sarah. She was just meaning to leave me message on my cell phone, but I had left it on and was quick to answer. We were ecstatic to hear from each other to say the least. I managed to get Mike to leave a message for me on her phone. Great guy, good message. She liked it. We will endure.
Friday, April 14, 2000
.....And the wall's come down. Truth can be an amazing thing. Yesturday, Sarah and I took a step in truth. It hurt. If you didn't know, I am very in love with Sarah. She's however in Masters Commission and as a first year student, you can't have any relationships that distract you from God. Enter Josh. So long story short, we have a relationship, a very lasting one, and agreed that we should reconcile and tell the leaders above her. Did that, and that is relief. Enter grief. I can't see her outside of a Thursday meeting at the church she is doing this school at. No calls, no nothing, or she gets the exit sign. My heart saddens, but is confident everything will be okay, very confident. So just remember me in your prayers for strength. Reconstruction of relationship returns July 9. Until then, I.................grow quite.
Wednesday, April 13, 2000
.....Alright, works today. Tried to update yesturday, but wouldn't save for some reason. Anyway, I'm a quarter century at 25 now. Hmm, let's reflect on the past 25 years.......um, maybe not now. You can just reflect your memories of me. I'll do the same for you. So I got to have 2 birthdays this years. Yes, count that two. One at Sarah's house with her Mom and Dad on the 11th and then over at Dad and Goldies on the 12th. Yum, good dinner and good cake. Well, thanks God for keeping me alive for this long. It's been interesting. I'm just waiting in store for what you have for how ever many years left. Is this an eschelon? Eh, regardless. It's been good. And better to come. YOU"LL SEE!!
Tuesday April 11, 2000
.....Ahhh, a day before thee day. 25 years previous to today, my Mom was thinking, this kid must be coming really soon. She had told me that she knew that my name would be Joshua a while before I was born. So don't have to ponder that I might have been called different. I like that I'm named what I am. A mighty man of God, Joshua, in the Bible feared nothing and trusted God with no doubt. I strive to make that the same in me. Other than that, I've been just trying to keep myself strait. A lot of distractions out there. Sarah was just on her Spring break so we got to spend a bunch of time together. We put some new tires on her car and it runs great now. Long live the MR2. This comes after a close run in........with another car. Oh, I'm getting advanced now, I've got a cell phone. What a convenient little toy that thing is. So just trying to keep it real.
Monday April 4, 2000
.....Nothing really to post, but it's time to take a step back and take a look at what's going on around me.
Monday Mar 27, 2000
.....Okay, okay I'll update. So my buddy at work is telling me I need to update. So here goes. Some high points. Firstly, there's still Sarah(nuf said). Also got a new windscreen for my motorcycle. It seems to work pretty good. I'll have some updated pictures of what it looks like. Or, click here. Other than that, seems that things are going fine. Still learning everyday and finding that forgiveness is an awesome thing. Oh, I kind of fixed the damage to Sarah's car(last post). Let me say that it's nothing less than novice. Hey, but it's better than it was, broken and dented that is. It could use some more work, but we'll see what happens. Anyone given plasma before? Sarah finds that she needs to donate some of her plasma. She's never really given blood or anything before, so she's going to see how she takes it. I wished her the best. We're off to see Sarah's Grandma today too. Her grandchildren call her Mormor. I forget what that means, but I think she said it's Norweigen(spelling?). She's in the hospital. I've seen her one other time too, at the hospital also, for some minor surgery I think. Hopefully I'll be better about updates now too. I'm just a little busy with my old position. I like it though and wouldn't got back for anything.
Monday Mar 13, 2000
.....It's Monday and I'm okay. Saturday made for some interesting stories though. So here goes. So earlier in the morning that day I had gone to the DOL(dept of licensing) to get my motorcycle license upgraded. I just went to see what I needed to do. I thought I would probably have to take another test on my new motorcycle. You see my license had an endorsement for bikes between 150 and 500cc engines. My new motorcycle is a 647cc. So my license was coming up for renewal also. I wanted to take care of both at once. So I asked the motorvehicle guy what I needed to do and he said "nothing". I didn't have to do anything. They changed the law so that any motorcycle license could drive any bike. So I have been driving legally ever since I got my bike. That's nice to know. So i just payed for a renewal, and away I went with my new license with an any size motorcycle engine endorsement. Woohoo. Okay, next story. Sarah had come over and parked in my driveway as usual. She got out of her car, we talked a bit, then went inside. Well I went to get something out of her car, and it was gone. I looked down the driveway, and it was on the other side of the road. I have a steep driveway, and it had rolled down and across the street. The parking brake wasn't pulled quite tight enough, and once it crept to the steeper part, there wasn't really much to stop it. So there really wasn't too much damage and so happened that the Lord sent a guy in a small dumptruck by at the time we were looking at it, and he offered to pull it out. We are just thankful that it didn't hit another car. So that was kind of a good and strange day. Anyway, I'm still kicking. How about I stop taking two steps forward and one back huh. Just got to keep waking up every day, bucking up, and just keep plugging away.