| The past few days have been heartbreaking for all of us and we are still shocked of the news and the "what could have happened".
Tori went into labor Sunday afternoon and we thought all was well. By Monday morning nothing had happened so I called her doctor and immediately went for x-rays. The outcome was most shocking. There was only one puppy... but... The puppy was no longer alive. It was blocking her uterus therefore no fluids and "giving birth stuff" could continue in a natural way. She was rushed to emergency c-section and gave birth to a still born pup. At one time there had been two but apparently it had been absorbed in fluids, not un-common I'm told even for humans with twins, but it was just a mass now. Here's the part that shocks me the most; had I waited any longer and had that puppy remained where it was the bacteria from it's little (1 pound, not little!) body as it deteriorated would have caused Tori to lose her life. That would have just killed me! So putting my dog's life in the hands of our Creator and her doctor I knew that what would be would be. The vet's office called me at 4:30 PM okay to pick her up and assured me she was fine and the surgery went well and by some miracle she will still be able to have puppies and give birth naturally in the future. There was no need to remove her "pieces and parts" in order for her to have a healthy life. Part of me wanted to scream "We should have her spayed so this never happens again! I don't ever want her life put in jeopardy again!" But at the same time knowing how badly she wants to be a mother I just can't take that away from her... DAMN IT! I brought her home, a groggy, dopey little dog; pitifully crying, it hurts my heart! It's a soft whine and I hear her almost as if she's mourning the loss of her baby, she knows and feels a loss and the pain she feels by instinct. Not only is she very swollen with milk and uncomfortable but the incision down her belly and the loss of her baby... what heartache she must be feeling. Keeping Rex and Marge away from her was not easy. Marge was not that concerned but Rex would not leave the bedroom door. Finally after much thought I let him in ready to protect Tori from his massive moosey jumps and "what's a matter?" attitude. Now here's the neat part; he comes up to the side of the bed and looks, then ever so gently jumps up and just lays his head next to her face. Licks her eyes as if wiping her tears and then lays next to her. I was speechless and then my tears exploded. Acknowledging not only was it her loss but his too. Funny how these two dogs have always been together and while I saw and watched the bond between them I guess I never really had my eyes all the way open... Tori actually took a deep breath and I felt her body relax next to his and she slept. It was another long night as she woke crying several times. I gave her her pain pills and gently pet her and she would fall back to sleep... thankfully I took the day off. I have high hopes of napping to catch up on missed zzzzz's! So that's what's happening around here. Magic or tragic... that's life.The past few days have been heartbreaking for all of us and we are still shocked of the news and the "what could have happened". |
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