there is not that much i can say about the paintings.....best explained would be the experience and learning...the process....the oorja that went into them.
each one of them,without exception, started with some oorja....to create....to release....to express....to externalise for some reason....
its amazing how inner feelings externalize themselves.....specially when you have inadequate means....all means, i now believe, are inadequate.... words...art....religion....and so on....the best we can do is try and trust the oorja ...thats a huge trust...we dont trust ourselves so we find it difficult to trust the means we use to express it....but somewhere deep deep within there is that eternal trust and belief in the oorja or whatever you may call it....so we try....have tried for zillions of years will and keep trying forever.....
all means reflect one's own conditionings and limitations too....the comfort zone is when the means somehow manage come as close to what is acceptable by oneself.....for whatever reasons they may be.....known or unknown even to the self......
each painting has been through loads and loads of masks...coverups...makeovers....and the final black coat of paint...the final mask always makes it kind of acceptable!!.. ....makes it O.K!!.....to me....... though i love all colours....i like dark best...guess thats why it makes them end up dark and thereby acceptable to me.....make them colourfull in that sense!!
In this collection, there is no specific reason for the crosses...not that i know or am aware of....perhaps they reflect something.....i dont know....
each painting starts and ends with something so different....so so so very different....perhaps in the absence of technical ability certain aspects are compromised .....but then.....the masks work wonderfully
...if i were able to paint exactly what i had in mind.. ...which due to lack of proper skills i could not.... perhaps...i would not have had the opportunity to mask them....to work on them....and re-work on them..... frustrating at the time....i think now that it makes them more alive....deep.....not just a photograph from my mind....that would be skillful abitity to express.....these are perhaps far from perfect....but i know that they have OORJA....to give and recieve...and thats what they are going to radiate.... |
