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FULL OF BULL '01

YOU ALL WANT BEAUTIFUL
                     YOUR BELLIES ARE NEVER FULL
                A HANDFUL OF ASS
                    A CHESTFUL OF BREASTS
                        A ROOMFUL OF WOMEN FOR YOUR EYES TO MOLEST

YOU PUT THEM THROUGH A TEST
                           TO FIND THE SEXIEST
          MATERIALISTIC MASQURADE
             BARBIE DOLL CUSTOM-MADE
                SPEND A POCKETFUL OF MONEY JUST TO GET YOUR ASS LAID

QUIT YOUR FUCKING FACADE
                       I'M NEVER GONNA BE PLAYED
               YOU CALL BEAUTY PAINFUL
                   FORCE-FEED ME A SPOONFUL
                       THEN YOU TELL ME TO LOOK NATURAL

               THE WORLD IS HYPOCRITICAL

double-edged '01

i couldn't do it. i stopped. i couldn't do it. i couldn't hurt me. how could i do such a thing? how could i even think of it? that's not me. that's not me holding the handle of the blade. i could see my reflection in its shiny surface. who is she? why is she doing this? a sharp pain. right in the chest. right in the heart. still i see the blade in my hand, arms length away from my body. but still i feel the pain. the pain. the pain...

a blackened poem '97

as i walk down a street of a crumpled-up world,
the blackness grows thicker and thicker.
and a pebble-sized imp tugs at my brow
and laughs, causing my candle to flicker

i said i'd be home about eleven or twelve,
but it's already a quarter past three.
the sky starts to thunder and red lightning flashes
and the rain sheets envelops me.

i claw at the sheets and rip out the seams
and i toss them into the abyss.
and i stop and i stand where a black river flows
and i think...
and i sink...
and then quietnes...

deep.'01 deep as the blue sea. it runs deeper than the core of the earth. is that where true love lies? past the layers of earth. past all the memories. past age-old dirt and lovers. past rocky terrain and relationships. past forgotton caves and promises. past boiling magma

and tempers. past all of that and right into the heart of the world. into the core of me. i am my own world. you are your own world. but the essence of you has planted itself in the heart of me, growing up, up, up to the surface where your lips touch mine and your eyes give it light and your heart showers it with nourishment and love. i love. so deep...