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Someone spoke of life to me
the insanity preceding tranquility
the way every star up in the chaos of space
would one day be assigned in perfect place

my head was heavy in my palms
all the while i heard whispered calms
and my mind was full of unsettling fears
that was gently emptied by open ears

i'd find my soul, i was lightheartedly told
in an empty, new place i would unfold
the carefree life i've yearned to possess
would reveal itself and all its grandness

our synthetic outer cover, Someone had voiced
was significant only by our own choice
but our soul, a solid inner core, Someone emphasized
was our well deserved, most meaningful prize

breathe, Someone said and then let go
how frightened i was to even know
the vigourous journey i was about to begin
with the apprehension that i wouldn't win...

...and then one dreary night i sat alone
no star in the sky, no moon brightly shown
i heald my breath and closed my tired eyes
and exhaled the hurt, the sadness, and the lies

and before the tightness turned to pain
i heard the patter of pouring rain
a gust of wind made the curtains set sail
and a deep breath of new life i inhaled

then all the suffering and doubt i've known
floated away by the breath i'd blown
out of my body, out of my mind
everything i've feared was left behind

and so i breathe to cleanse my thoughtful soul
no longer will i pay the world's materialistic toll
i will take what's mind and own the life i lead
individuality and independency i no longer plead

and through the sands of time i will never forget
how Someone had known i was powerful yet
with a humjble heart and the strength of two
my guide, my teacher, my Someone was you

my journey had started in the desert.
satisfied was i with the clothes on my back and food to eat.
throught the years spent walking alone,
i was searching for something i could not see.
farther and farther it lead me into the scorching sun.
the blistering heat was unbearable.
it blinded my eyes and beat upon my back.
i fell to my knees and prayed to God.
and then a shadow fell upon me.

Through the blinding light and flames of the orange orb,
i saw what i was searching for.
i saw Jesus
i saw the cross.
i saw my sin nailed into His perfect flesh.
and i started to cry.
i realized that He went through torture
just because he loved me.
teardrops fell from my eyes and onto the sizzling sand
and soon became a flood of tears.
but it was not only tears of my eyes,
it was from Jesus.
the flood of tears rose from my ankles
to my knees and to my waist.
and it became the sea.

now my baptism awaits.
a decision made my my heart.
and my sin will drown in the sea of His painful tears,
and i will be his forever.
the symbol of the cross will be branded upon my heart,
symbolizing His love for me.
to lose the cross would be to live without a heart.
to survive without a vital organ.
i will live my life for God
and i will live by His word.
i will hear His voice
through the whisper of turning pages of the Bible.
and HIs word will lead me into a new life
of faith, wisdome, and of love.
He will once again lead me into the desert,
thorugh no searching i will do.
the sun will no longer harm me.
for God is my protector
and His love will shade me from the sun.