10-24-05

   so many things are wrong with this picture. as we all know, halloween is right around the corner. i went through so many different costume changes this month. My first costume idea was tank girl, but i didn't even attempt that idea. then i chose to be satine from 'moulin rouge,' but to make the costume would have cost me around $200, which as of now, i cannot spend.  Then sydney bristow from 'alias' was what i was going to stick with until i found this amazing punk rocker wig and decided to be a misfit from 'jem and the holograms' along with LOREE (who is being jem).

   so you might ask, $200 to create a costume isn't that expensive, right? well, when you are broke and have no income, it can be. i cannot believe how hard it is to find a fucking job around here. i still am looking for a fashion design job because i am really good at it, but it is just too hard to get anywhere around the downtown area without a car. so i decided a sales job would be suffice for now. well apparently i am either not good enough, or just have way too much experience to be hired for a stupid little counter job. one would think someone with three college degrees, two from two distinguished schools, could find a flippin' job even a high schooler could achieve. so i have been feeling fairly inadequate lately and have been drowning my self in activities to keep my mind off my current situation. Lots of reading, illustrating, cleaning the apartment over  and over, shopping, watching countless hours of 'alias,' video games, and writing stories have been my only means of survival this past month.

   and then there are always personal problems we all have to face, which have also been weighing on my mind greatly. but those are perhaps for another blog at another time.

8-25-05

   as most of you know, i can get a tad hectic at times, especially when it comes to electronic devices. when i was younger i would bite and throw video game controllers against walls to make me feel better when i would lose at super mario bros. i would punch the computer monitor when i would lose a paper because of a frozen error. i tore the 'e' key out of my laptop because it made me angry. i got damn close to breaking my wireless card because it wouldn't connect. so my phone just had it coming! this bitch has been causing me problems since day one! throwing it across the room didn't work. slamming it multiple times against the counter top...didn't even phase it. ah...but its day of reckoning has finally arrived!!! buah ha ha!!! take that mother fucker!...

...sorry if i don't call ya peeps in a while, i don't have a phone or your numbers anymore. : )

8-11-05 (1:15pm)

   myspace.com is such a funny concept. basically a webspace where you can say just about anything to anybody, jack off to other peoples' pictures, and still act like you want to be friends. it's great! here are some recent private messages that i found amusing:

"ABSOLUTLY BEAUTIFULL......................JoHnNY"

"Wow....I came across your profile and just wanted to say that you're so damn cute. "

"love to hang out withu sexy"

"I AM TOTALY CRAZY ABOUT YOU !! CAN WE MEET ???"

"will you be my wife ?"

and my favorite: "hey u .. u look damn hot! where in cali are u? maybe we could meet form some fun... id love to rim ure asss and "more" hehe ... "

the funny part is i cut and pasted each one of these quotes, which means NOBODY ON MYSPACE KNOWS HOW TO SPELL. well, that's just a taste of the lonely mountain men us queens get to look forward to.

8-11-05 (2:14am)

   i know what i said on the 7th, that i was never going to drink heavy again. well i didn't, but i did however get really buzzed off boxed wine tonight. it was my defense against evil omens that i fear have been brought about tonight. i fear that my lovely TINA (soon to be my roommate) made a bad decision when she brought a boy over in lust. and i fear that ANGEL's plan for making a girl he likes jealous will blow up in his face. hopefully my drinking will save both my friends. well, it probably won't but i did however kick TINA's friend's ass tonight in poker! that's right ladies and germs, i am a card shark so watch out! actually i'm sure it was all just luck...and boxed wine.

8-10-05

   we can't always be PC, and i just have to complain about the fucking homeless people who ride the metro; picking at their funky scabs and talking to the passengers as if we gave a damn. come on security! can't you see these people shouldn't be there, especially since we know they didn't pay? so why won't you do your goddamn jobs? there was this one crazy-ass motherfucker on the metro today who kept talking and talking as if people cared what he thought about anything! the poor ladies next to me were probably clenching fists and eyeing the pepper spray. i just pretended he didn't even exist with my headphones up high and a blank stare on my face. i'm sorry but it's not a soup kitchen! and you aren't wanted, especially underground!

8-09-05

   yes, i changed my look again! that's because those of you who know me know that i cannot make up my mind for shit. it's like stretching someone's anus around your entire head, i just can't do it! so here i am recreating, reinventing, blah blah blah... who knows what's gonna happen next?!

8-07-05

   i'm never going to drink heavy again! last night DEREK and i went to weho for girls night out. we began at fiesta cantina with two double drinks (amaretto sours and kamikazes) then we made our way to motherload for some more drinks, intending to go to the abbey afterwards, but we never made it that far... the night basically ended with three maddy's, bar dancing, run in with the cops, public intoxication, throwing up in a cab, and having a horrible hangover. if u want the full story you'll have to ask me!

7-14-05

   CAPTAIN EO?! yes!

7-12-05

   who the hell am i supposed to fuck around here?! luckily this isn't so harsh a concern for the vast majority of the population. you're gay, you like same sex, you're straight, you like opposite sex, you're bi, u like both. that's a bit simplified, but semi-accurate. so where do trans people fit into this equation? for people like me, and our intense fabulousity, it is a bit different and difficult to understand our place within this relationship spectrum. for many of us trans or genderqueer people, it is hard to find someone who might generally care for you rather than just fuck you and run off. i don't know how many times i have had boys hit on me, but when i reveal my love for lady-ness it's bye-bye, so long. not that i blame them. if you are someone who likes masculine, boyish guys, it would be very difficult to be attracted to femininity.

   i only bring up this discussion to make a point. due to the turned backs on the trans community, we have been stigmatized to the point where it disfigures us into eroticized and exoticized sex toys or other extreme as sexless, unwanted creatures

   to my amazement, recently there have been some positive role models for trans people in the media, including progressive film imagery and characterizations. and with the new queer TV channel coming out, hopefully everyone will see these images day after day until it becomes tasteful and beautiful, as we are meant to be seen. i would bet that since films such as 'Boys Don't Cry,' 'A Soldier's Girl,' 'Iron Ladies,' and 'Beautiful Boxer,' were released, the desire for transgender people has significantly increased. people are beginning to learn that we are the same when it comes to love, happiness, and acceptance. and in the end, isn't that all that there is anyway?

7-11-05

   on saturday, july 9th, TANGO went to heaven. she can finally be reunited with her sister BONGO, grandmother HERO, mother BLANK, and uncle FUZZY. it must have been such a lonely life being without the ones she loved. at least she can now be happy and rest in peace.

7-10-05

   "it'll be an experience." last night i went out with MISS DANNY and MISS NICK to silverlake for some bar hopping. the night started out great at akbar. akbar had sweet 'sex on the beach'es and cute boys as well as some good 80's music to dance to. the boys were definitely looking over at miss thang here because she was fresh meat, it being my first time there. at around 1:30am DANNY and NICK decided they wanted to go to a latin bar for some latin cock; well when we got there, we were the only girls in the house! the place was absolutely deserted. then they decided to go to a leather/daddy club call 'cuffs,' which was definitely not my cup of tea. "it'll be an experience," insisted DANNY. the place was dark, the testosterone was so thick it was peeling the wallpaper, and nobody in the tiny place was under 30, save for me and my friends. DANNY asked if i would like to meet 'the principle,' me having no idea what that meant inquired, and found out that he was a fat old man who would take you to the back room and spank the shit out of you. HECTIC! it was the most unbearable hour and a half i can remember in recent times. i had to give the 'evil ojo' to everyone within view, just so they would leave me alone. i didn't even want to sit down for fear i was be swimming in somebody's DNA. we finally left at around 3:30am and i was home by 4:00am. damn it was a long night.

7-07-05

That's why I couldn't be happier
No, I couldn't be happier
Though it is, I admit
The tiniest bit
Unlike I anticipated
But I couldn't be happier
Simply couldn't be happier
Well - not "simply":
'Cause getting your dreams
It's strange, but it seems
A little - well - complicated
There's a kind of a sort of : cost
There's a couple of things get: lost
There are bridges you cross
You didn't know you crossed
Until you've crossed
And if that joy, that thrill
Doesn't thrill you like you think it will
Still -
With this perfect finale
The cheers and ballyhoo
Who
Wouldn't be happier?
So I couldn't be happier
Because happy is what happens
When all your dreams come true
Well, isn't it?
Happy is what happens
When your dreams come true!

              Glinda (from WICKED)

6-30-05

   tonight i got laid...again. yes another random misadventure. not by plot or plan, no, no, no; but by some sheer freak accident. a good accident. after the escapade under the covers i took a shower to wash away my sin, when i began to go over reasons why booty-calls are better and reasons that could make an actual boyfriend better. i set before you the statistics and let you be the final judge.

6-17-05

   go here to check out RUPAUL's fucked-up sexy music video to her new single, 'workout!' you better work! it's so fuckin' sick! i'm going to cum in my pants right now!

   a night on the town. last weekend ISABEL, BECKY and i went to west hollywood pride and had a great time. we walked all the way from my apartment, which took a good 45 minutes. i saw PARIS HILTON and DEBORAH HARRIE (BLONDIE), LUCY LAWLESS, JULIE BROWN, EVELYN CHAMPAIGNE KING, and CECE PENNINGSTON perform. it was fucking awesome! i also got some free porn : )

   two nights ago i went with DANNY, JOEY, and JOEY went to the motherload and then to club 80's. i love the double JOEYs because they bought me drinks; i didn't have to pay for one thing the whole damn night! we drank and danced to 'boys don't cry' all night long.

   last night DEREK and i went to the abbey for a few drinks. not too much happened and the guys weren't all that hot. and i so wanted a hot latin boy to sit on my face! when i got home there were about five thousand victoria secret girls at my apartment having a little mixer. i'm amazed i fell asleep at all.

6-09-05

   due to the fabulous nostalgia of Broadway, it has recently again become a bad-ass on the silver screen, like so many great musicals have. now one of my very favorite musicals, 'RENT,' is making its way to the big screen. bringing hopefully some very controversive issues back on the table of straight white male america. maybe to shake things up a bit? a lot of sex, some sleaze, bunch of queers, drugs, AIDS, rock n' roll, one great queen, and a twisted love tale to top it all off. now that's my kind of motha' fuckin' romance novel! i can't wait to see what kind of controversies this film/musical will stir up in middle america. hoo ya! and speaking of controversive films, i've seen 'Closer' a plethora of times in the past few days and love it! talk about another twisted love tale that the likes of disney would never release! i love it. So here are my top broadway to big screen favorites:

- Cabaret

- Phantom of the Opera

- The Bird Cage (La Cage Aux Folles)

- Hedwig and the Angry Inch

- RENT (i can already tell)

- Gypsy

- Evita

- Rocky Horror Picture Show

5-11-05

now wouldn't that be a hoot!

5-04-05

   ye ha! ride 'em cowboy. this was taken at a local bar two weeks ago.

4-20-05

   'a long, long time ago, our Childlike Empress was deathly ill, for she needed a new name, and only a human could give her one. but humans had stopped coming to Fantastica, no one knew why. and if she had died, that would have been the end of Fantastica. then one day - or rather one night - a human came after all. it was a little boy, and he gave the Childlike Empress the name of Moon Child. She recovered, and in token of her gratitude she promised the boy that all his wishes in her empire would come true - until he found out what he really and truly wanted. then the little boy made a long journey from one wish to the next, and each one came true. and each fulfillment led to a new wish. there were not only good wishes but bad ones as well, but the Childlike Empress drew no distinction; in her eyes all things in her empire are equally good an important. in the end the Ivory Tower was destroyed, and she did nothing to prevent it. but with every wish fulfillment the little boy lost part of his memory of the world he had come from. he didn't really mind, for he had given up wanting to go back. so he kept on wishing, but by then he had spent all his memories, and without memories it's not possible to wish. so he had almost ceased to be a human and had almost become a Fantastican. he still didn't know what he really and truly wanted. it seemed possible that his very last memories would be used up before he found out. and if that happened, he would never be able to return to his own world. then at last he came to the House of Change, and there he would stay until he found out what he really and truly wanted. you see, it's called the House of Change not only because it changes itself but also because it changes anyone who lives in it. and that was very important to the little boy, because up until then he had always wanted to be someone other than he was, but he didn't want to change.'

         -excerpt from Michael Ende's The Neverending Story.

4-14-05

   a diva in her own right. tonight we celebrated DEREK's 21st b-day at the spider room in hollywood. it was fucking fantastic! i was tipsy off my one drink (even though the doctor said i shouldn't be drinking), and danced up a storm with about 8 other beautiful girls. i was complimented multiple times on my 'unique' look by total strangers. i didn't even do anything super-special either. i think what it comes down to is that i was born to be a diva. there is no other explanation for it. i was born to have 'the look'...or something. i was born into divahood. so i had better start acting like the diva i am and take on the responsibilities...and then conquer the world!!! buah ha ha ha! on a side note, DEREK was completely trashed; so much that he freak danced with me in front of the bathrooms and began yelling out "num nums!" lol!

...oh and p.s., DEREK's friend SCOTT is totally cute and we're going to have beautiful children together.

still 4-07-05

   today i start back in school. i have class at 3pm and i'm not looking forward to this class because i hate pattern drafting and especially when it's computer pattern drafting. sooooooo boooooring. well, at least my class loads will never be as horrible as they were the last three quarters. i also am not very found of my manager at macy's because i wanted to go to a conference in SB this weekend and see all my friends, but she never called me back after leaving two messages. what a bitch. TRAVIS, CRYSTAL, and i are going to see 'Sin City' friday night. should be good.

albums i recently purchased on a whim:

 - Stevie Nicks -Other Side of the Mirror

 - Stevie Nicks - Street Angel

 - Stevie Nicks - Trouble in Shangri-La

 - October Project

 - Dana Glover - Testimony

 - Shawn Colvin - A Few Small Repairs

 - Cherie

 - Sarah Hudson - Naked Truth

 - Tracy Chapman - Telling Stories

 - Susanna Hoffs - When You're A Boy

 - Nelly Furtado - Whoa, Nelly!

 - Go-Go's - God Bless The Go-Go's

 - D'Lovely - Life in Color

 - Tara MacLean - Passenger

4-07-05

   and i still haven't found what i'm looking for. last night and this morning i was at boardner's, the usual wednesday social scene: tons of hot boys with black hair and long bangs, dark booths, hot bands, and great booz; but for some reason, everything is just so seemingly blah nowadays. boys are great, but i'm just not getting any satisfaction from it all. tonight for example. my straight boy who i made out with many weeks ago came up and kissed me, but i only thought of it as a friendly gesture, and i was hollered and wowed upon by a group of boys and girls as i was walking tonight, and though it was flattering, it just didn't feel as great as it once did. i'm not sure what exactly is going on with me, but i had better snap out of it because i might miss something really spectacular if i don't keep my eyes open long enough.

4-06-05

   RUPAULINA has some new dollies coming out. go play with 'em. you betta click here bitch!

3-31-05

   moving is a pain in the puss. about a week ago i moved into my new apartment with LOREE. my first week here i hated it because i had both the flu and strep throat. girl, i thought i was gonna die! luckily, with proper bodily maintenance, i was was able to beat that shit. i went home for easter, it was nice to see the family. now i am back in hollywooooood califOrniiiia, with my fellow freaks and geeks. there are also three new halloweeny '04 pictures in the album.

here's a link to DEREK's photo album featuring the fabulous and talented ME! click here.

2-26-05

   fuck-ing oldsmobile! fuck-ing wilshire! heh. two nights ago JOSH and i decided to to see 'beautiful boxer' at an independent film theater. but the godesses were against us on that very night... it started off with me being called into work, so instead of going to the 7:15pm showing, we planned on the 10:15pm show. since we had some time to kill after i got off work, DEREK, JOSH, and i went to cpk, thinking it would be a quick bite to eat. instead, we had to wait forever for a table and only an hour and fifteen minutes until the show started. we ordered as fast as we could, had a few drinks, and ran back home to get in LULU (JOSH's '79 oldsmobile). on the way to the theater  we had a few problems. first, the lakers game just finished, so traffic was horrendous. then, we tried to take a detour down wilshire, but non-working traffic lights created a stop-and-go situation. then, we hit a pothole and lost a hubcap! lol. and THEN...we hit another pothole and got a flat. had to wait for aaa for a half hour and instead decided to go to rage since the movie had already started. after rage, we were driving down santa monica with a donut in place of LULU's front left tire, which was not strong enough to support her. we had one long, loud and bumpy ride from west hollywood to downtown going an average of 25mph! lol. fuck-ing oldsmobile!

   tonight JOSH and i went to a musical called "The Last 5 Years," which is a good musical, but the production was lacking. what can you expect from a community college near compton? at least the lead male took off his clothes and sung in his boxer-briefs for his final solo. it was hot!

2-20-05

   i know i am the worst when it comes to updating this blog, but rest assured here is an update to catch all ya'all up on what's been going down these past few weeks. lately i have been stressin' big time on work and school because it seems that i am scheduled to work more when i have lots of school work. luckily, this weekend i had a bit of a break. the ESTE LAUDER counter wanted me for full time, which i could not give them, and the CHANEL counter requested me for this past week. girls! you just have to both stop fighting over me!

   my v-day was fun because i had a bonified boy as my valentine! a cute boy from sf, who after we got some drinks at the abbey, also got a little play on the couch at my apartment. on friday, LOREE and i found a hot apartment in hollywood, which we get the keys to on wednesday. then on saturday, TRAVIS came over and went with me to the movie costume exhibit on campus and then played video games the rest of the day. that same night JOSH, DEREK, and i went to rage to dance it up a bit, all glammed up and only one place to go bitches! and today, ISAPOO and KY came over and we had lunch and went shopping. not a bad turn of events, all in all. too bad the weather here is horrendous, it has been raining non-stop for the past four days. we had to practically swim from rage to our car on saturday night! today was just as bad! not to mention the t-storm JOSH and i sat through while watching 'Iron Ladies II' the other night! but even thought it has been cold and rainy lately, this past week was still hot!

1-22-05

   on today's episode of the AEG (American Eyes Groupies), we  follow our fearless trio on a trip to the T.O. (thousand oaks) to hear their band rock them hard! upon arrival to the T.O.T.C. our heroes begin to feel "out of their element" while approaching an array of high schoolers who were also eager to see the bands play. but, fearless as they were, our three black eye-lined heroes ventured forward. And that's how the story began... but after getting over the shock of the teeny bopper infestation, we felt fine after a while. AE was hot as fuck! damn. and i was also complimented on my fabulous eyebrows. ;) we ended the night at smell nacho and are ready for wednesday night to come around!

1-18-05

   LA ROUGE and i had a fabulous night out at the grove yesterday. after doing some homework at forever 21 and nordies, we visited SMELL at vickie's and then it was off to dinner. unfortunately we didn't have the $2 in cash we needed to exit the parking garage upon leaving, and spent a good half hour scrounging around the mall looking for loose change on the ground. we almost had to go snorkeling in the fountain for pennies. luckily, SMELL was a savior and gave us our freedom in exchange for our leftovers. i think that is a good deal don't you?

1-17-05

   last night was fuckin' awesome. AMERICAN EYES were insane and hot as ever on stage! i know COUTURE, SMELL and i creamed our pants at least five times. the v.i.p. party afterwards was rather interesting as well. i was drunk as a skunk and made out with a quasi-straight boy. we call him the vamp now because he nibbled on my neck! he also made out with SMELL, so depending how you look at it, SMELL and i made out! but that's ok because she is my luver after all.

1-16-05

    tonight i am going to an AMERICAN EYES concert with LA ROUGE and SMELL, should be a blast! i am starving right now because i have not eaten all day, and my tummy is angry at me. on a happier note, i did some amazing gowns for a collection i am creating, so i am glad about that. unfortunately i still have about a thousand years of homework left, due monday. i talked to a cute and nice guy last night, but i doubt anything will come of it. oh wells : ) well, i'm gonna go find something to eat before i waste away to practically nothing.......

12-08-04

    a year in passing. 2004 was perhaps one of the best years thus far. Finished one great school with lots of great friends and entered a new school with just as much potential. although I do miss my friends from UCSB, i like most of the friends i've made at FIDM. i have a job at macy's as a makeup artist, which suits me well, and TRAVIS and CRYSTAL are close enough to visit me whenever they wish. so all in all, a good year altogether. So here we go again with my year-end list of favorites:

Music

   Rupaul - Red Hot

   Bif Naked - Purge

   TIna Turner - Twenty Four Seven

   Tina Turner - Simply the Best

   Cyndi Lauper - At Last

   Sara Evans - Restless

   Faith Hill - Cry

   K.D. Lang - Invincible Summer

   Cortney Love - America's Sweetheart

   Marilyn Manson - Lest We Forget

   Janet Jackson - Damita Jo

   Gwen Stefani - Love. Angel. Music. Baby.

   Wicked - Original Broadway Cast

   Taboo - Original Broadway Cast

Best Singles

   Modest Mouse - Ocean Breathes Salty

   Modest Mouse - Float On

   Anastasia - Outside Alone

   The Killers - Somebody Told Me

   Rupaul - Looking Good, Feeling Gorgeous

   Janet Jackson - All Night (Don't Stop)

   Gwen Stefani - What You Waiting For

   Scissor Sisters - Take Your Mama Out

   Sara Evans - Suds in the Bucket

   Tyra Banks - Shake Ya Body

Movies

   Harry Potter: Prisoner of Azkaban

   Shrek 2

   Tank Girl

   The Simple Life: Season One

   Lord of the Rings: Return of the King

   13 Going On 30

   The Butterfly Effect

   Ever After

   Stargate

Books

   Wicked

   Midnight in the Garden of Good and Evil

   Mrs. Dalloway

   9 Heads

11-15-04

     "US WEEKLY said they didn't have interest in reviewing my (RUPAUL's) album, but would i consider joining their line-up for "Fashion Police." No, thank you. That's like telling a black person that they're not welcome at the all-white party, unless they clear the table and wash the dishes. The message is: my only importance is how i can compliment their straight life...i.e. QUEER EYE... yet, we're all subjected to every riveting twist and turn of Jessica Simpson's fascinating life." ---RUPAUL on US Weekly Magazine

11-09-04

     flashback. SCOTT, remember back in the day when we listened to JEWEL nonstop? well, i happened to pull out her 'spirit' album last night as i was sewing and all these flashbacks of past x-mas' and bus trips came to mind. when listening to the first song, it was kinda like, 'those were the days...and we'll never get them back' lol. no just kidding...just kidding i'm not kidding. lol. sorry, little amusement. buah ha ha. that is all. retrospection's a bitch.

9-25-04

     wine me and dine me. i had a nice day with SUSAN. we made an adventure to paso robles (wine country), where we went wine tasting at 'justin' vineyards. not only did we have really good wines, but the trip over and back was nice. SUSAN and i traveled upon a rollercoaster of zig-zagging roads through miles of hills to reach our destination, which was a medium-sized, cozy facility west of the city, listening to RUPAUL's, 'red hot' most of the way. we tried five different wines, including their famous 'isosceles' wine. my favorite was their sauvignon blanc, which we bough a bottle of. i returned home at 5pm and am ready to rest for the remainder of the day.

9-22-04

     i just returned home from san francisco. yes, my break from school has finally started. being back with ISABEL was a blast! i love her so much. i spent five days at her place with BECKY and LUIS and just had so much fun. but lemme tell ya, we did a lot of activities. unfortunately none involving hot, passionate, throbbing sex. but what can ya do?

     the first day i arrived, i had to lug my eighty pound bag of designer wear across the damn city just to get to poopoo head's place (ISABEL's chateau). draggin' my ass around in 7" high-heeled stilletos was definitely a feat. the poo and i then went with some randoms from MECHA to a film festival back downtown where i had just ventured from. then at around 10:30pm we sped all the way to daly city to pick up BECKY and LUIS, of whom were just arriving in sf. then around midnight we walked about four miles to the nearest food joints, which happened to be in-n-out burgers and krispy kreme doughnuts. and then around 3:00am or so after a short cab ride home, we went to sleep.

     the second day, we got up around 11:00am and bushed ourselves off for another adventure, this time a shopping one. we went from bulvgari and dior to china town and a korean festival. strutting our shit up and down the hills of the city and then off to another film festival feature queer people of color. a series of 12 short films. all were very good, but after the seventh or eighth film, it became rather tedious.

    on the third day of christmas we traveled along the outskirts of sf, including the beaches and the golden gate bridge. after having lunch in a cute thai restaurant by the ocean, we basically walked 90 miles to the bridge. on the beach before the bride we happened upon a trio of male nude bathers. it was so hot and they had damn fine asses and cocks. it was fuckin' hot! we basically stood there and watched them play. they didn't seem to mind our voyeuristic pleasures. we finally got to the bridge after traveling through miles of forest, and then went home and watched 'taking lives' staring the damn-fine ANGELINA JOLIE.

     on the fourth day, BECKY and i hung out together because poopoo head had class almost all day. we had lunch at the mall, bought pounds of see's candies, bought a new cd player, bought RUPAUL's awesome new album, and then went home to watch 'big fish'. we met ISABEL on campus and caught the muni and bart to berkley to have dinner with LUIS. that damn city wreaks of the marij-i-wanna. we at at a nice sushi restaurant with bad service, went back to sf, and again to sleep.

     on the final full day we watched the rest of 'big fish', did some more shopping, and sent BECKY on her way back to ucla. as for poops and i, we went to a fucking freaky ass nightclub in central sf, the crazy drag queens and trannies were performing for their documentary of 'trannyshack'. they were fugly-ass bitches, but put on one hell of a show, in a dank club which was hot as hell.

    on my leaving day, poops and i made breakfast and then i was well on my way back to sunny fresno. sf was so cold most of the time we spent there. i had to buy a new sweater because it was just too much for me to handle. the ride home on greyhound was long, but i'm glad i'm home. i miss poops and the rest of 'em a lot. i had a wonderful time and hope to see them all again soon.

9-14-04

     no one mourns the wicked. a lot has been going on this past week. finals are almost over. i took four already and have one to go on thursday. i've started hanging out a little with one of my new suitemates named JOSH. i'm kinda mad about having to move since i requested to stay in the same apartment because i'm a lazy ass and didn't want to move my shit, but that's life. i also met the cutest boy saturday. i thought he was absolutely adorable. we made out all night, but i don't think anything is going to come out of it. sigh. but only time will tell. i'm hoping he will come around.

     lately i have been absolutely obsessed with the broadway musical, 'wicked.' it is absolutely flawless. i laughed, i cried, i listened to it about 25 times in the past five days. i have been reading the book, so i thought i would give the musical a try and struck gold. it's the only reason why i have been able to get all of my homework done lately. next i am going to listen to BOY GEORGE's broadway bomb, 'taboo'.

     and finally, i am going to see ISABEL on saturday and stay with her in san francisco for a little bit. we are celebrating mine, ISABEL's, and KY's birthdays, but KY won't be able to be there, she is in the philippines for a while. so i'm planning on a good vacation coming up.

9-07-04

     the show must go on. the homework has been loading upon me this week, but we'll see how everything pans out by the end of the quarter.

     on a happier note, i went to queer latin pride on sunday with MICHELLE, it was so much fun, we danced most of the time. there were a lot of great performers and a gaggle of beautiful boys and girls, trannies and drag queens. MICHELLE and i had a blast! the day before, TRAVIS and i hung out together. first we went to amoeba records and bought some good albums and dvds, and then we went to the old spaghetti factory for some pasta. those two days, were sandwiched between visits from ANGEL. on the first day ANGEL was over and we drank, watched a movie, ate pizza, and drank some more at the standard. needless to say, i was soo drunk by the end of the night, but i got to ask ANGEL a lot of sex questions. and then on labor day, ANGEL and i spent most of the time working on his rush video for his frat, though we weren't very productive (he blames it on me, but i think he's just mad at the world, hehe).

     side dish: it's interesting when one finds out things about a friend from someone else. i don't understand people sometimes. i will end on that note.

9-01-04

     another birthday come and gone. i turned the big 2-3 today. woo. thank you to those who made this birthday better than it could have been. i had a nice time going to cpk for dinner and the standard for drinks. unfortunately, there are those who did not call me to wish me a good birthday, and to them i say, 'you suck.' overall it was a nice birthday.

people i like because they made my birthday special:

LOREE, RACHEL, DAD, TRAVIS, CRYSTAL, CORTNEY, MEL, ISRAEL, LISSA, KY, GRAMME, SUSAN, ISABEL, and THE NICE COUPLE FROM THE ELEVATOR

people who suck:

SCOTT, ANGEL, SOULLA, and ASHLEY

8-28-04

     almost done with my first quarter at FIDM. it seems to be dragging on forever and a day. i've been talking to ANGEL a lot over aim lately. heh. he's so weird. come breaktime, i'm going up to san francisco for KY, ISABEL, and my birthday. should be lots of fun.

    last weekend i went out with SCOOTER to the abbey for his birthday. it was nice to see him since it has been a while. unfortunately i lost my driver's license somewhere during that night and had to go to the dmv yesterday with TRAVIS and CRYSTAL to order a new one. CRYSTAL found an apartment in westwood near ANGEL's frat house, so this might be an interesting year coming up. another friend hung out with PARIS HILTON last weekend, so it was funny to hear her tell what went on that night.

     not too much going on for myself and no witty remarks to make right now. just updating for the moment. but i'll be back with something intelligent, provocative, and assuredly licentious!

8-18-04

    oh gawd this has been the worst week ever! (well, not ever), but in la thus far! i hope it does not give birth to a horrible weekend as well. i just got off the phone with ISRAEL (my mother/sister) and ISABEL, so things are looking up already. it's a good thing chocolate isn't drugs, because i would have ODed by now.

8-17-04

     these past two days have been horrible. school is sucking and i revealed my T to a boy i used to really like and i don't think it turned out too well. he says he likes me just the same, but i think that is a crock of shit. i left a message on his phone, but he never called me back and its been two days. this boy and i go back to times before i graduated ucsb and we were only talking at the time, but out of nowhere he's back, but everything's gone to shit. such are the pangs of being fabulous...or something.

8-15-04

     lucky star. i had  a very interesting past weekend. it started out with ANGEL (aka alpha male, aka Biff Rodriquez) coming over and going over to AMY's house to celebrate her 22nd birthday. ANGEL decided to nickname himself 'alpha male' because he was the only straight guy among me and the girls. this only made the night more hilarious when he was bitch-slapped by one of my friends when his 'trying to keep it real' went wrong at the Conga Room. the night ended with drunken madness at IHOP and AMY's house with vomiters galore. ANGEL and i prostituted ourselves on Sunset Blvd. until we hitched  a cab ride home.

     the next day ANGEL drove me around L.A. and through West Hollywood until we reached the Bev Cen. where we saw RACHEL, MELISSA, and i introduced myself to this really hot boy named ANTHONY who lives in the same building as me. We spent the latter of the day at HELEN's nice pad, and then watched "AVP" at 12am. i got home at around 2:30am to find my roommate EARL with a girl in our bedroom, so i made ANGEL go with me to Denny's for a bite. at around 4am i got home and she was still in my room, so i slept on the chair in the living room. ANGEL left this afternoon at 1pm. the deed was done, and the day was mine!

8-13-04

     here is a short, but interesting article i found concerning queer themes in video gaming. enlighten yourselves.

8-12-04

     its midway through the quarter and midterms begin today for me. good times, noodle salad. but it should be a piece of pastel. TRAVIS and CRYSTAL came over yesterday. they are so cute. they brought me very nice gifts from Europe. God love 'em. ANGEL is coming down today and is spending the night. hopefully i see ASHLEY and SCOTT this weekend as well. we shall see. i really wan to go to a queer bar. all these fucking straight bars, i swear. get over it people! they are no fun and the music is bad! i need to make more friends, heh. i got my new sewing machine yesterday, yay. now i can do my damn homework. all in all, the week has been blahzier. maybe today will begin more excitingeresteringolastabonita days.

8-08-04

     check out Australian Idol's COURTNEY ACT's music video 'Rub Me Wrong' under her multimedia section.

8-08-04

     straight people sometimes make me want to vomit. last night i went to Joya (a horrible club) with some friends, and had a close to lousy time. my company was fine, but half of the night i didn't even know where they were. the place was completely ghetto, everyone was ass bouncing, and everyone was straight. i was a horrible reality check. i didn't see anybody from the WB, but the NBA players were there  (maybe i misheard my friend and she actually said it was gonna be a NBA party, not a WB party). All of the NBA players are ugly. i think i was one of 5% white people. straight people have no style either! they were dressed like elbows and assholes. also, because it was a themed party, the club was decorated horribly with black lights (the sign of a cheap club) and hanging neon flowers. then the fire marshal came and closed the place down because it was over capacity with uglies. there were police everywhere.

     on the other hand, afterwards we went to Wakano's on sunset to eat. the food was good, though i had to wait over an hour for one california roll because they forgot about it. then at around 3:00am, the police came and closed down Wakano's as well. i think they were following us. i finally got to bed a little after 4:00am. and i'm damn glad i'm rid of that night. all i can say is, 'fuck straight clubs!' because they suck arsehole!

8-07-04

     today i plan on doing as much homework as possible before i go shopping later, and then out tonight. if all works as planned, my roommate and i and two other friends are meeting up with others at Joya for a Warner Bros. party. hopefully it will be lots of fun with beautiful people. i bought this really cute shirt yesterday to wear for tonight, so now that i'm broke...I HAD BETTER HAVE FUN, DAMNIT ALL TO HELL! that's all for now.