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living in shame feeling the same changing always never remains a long time ago but too close for comfort feels like new but simple frightens confusion thickens peace reliving the memory
weak from the constant bleeding drip drip drip slow heart beating sinking deeper feeling circling around again miss the painful urgings that came with being alive sorry for the life that was taken by those who didn't mind confronting fears that make me cower but only because of faith drip drip drip slower slower approaching sudden death or sudden life?
fantasies are all my mind is filled because of you your magnetic to my view i can't believe in anything but you how can you fill my mind in this way so unexpected so free complete but within containing fields of gray and colored confetti freezer burns and conquered fixes chained to emotional contractions
i'm a tired traveler looking for welcoming shores not unfriendly lands once again and i feel and fear i've found in you the first feel because i trust fear because i yearn so much coming times of bliss and touching the sands makes me dream of light and sun again
flailing failing trailing behind the train that left me behind trying to catch the back rail but falling in dust pick me up again if you i found here there i'm glad i missed were you here beside me running the whole time both trying to catch the same train
not seeing the same right beside try to explain the feeling you send to my electric brain but can't describe the pain of discovery if its you i find give me the pain again change me mold me again free me again i'll die again if i see you again take me under again
spin me again spin again spin again sugar spin spin sugar spin me round again again again again to you again confuse my muse again become my muse this time you i find safe and sound take me down again if this is down why do i feel so high low with you is heaven high
can't be fallen when in you i find salvation from the fear flames that consumed my whole conception of life i wanted no more of living no more feeling anything to stop the fearing then i saw you far ahead and realized all i had to do to catch up was stop and now here i am and you hand me wings but do i still know how to fly or will i just die?
number the times death has come to mind and you will be lost in the flurry of the lows of my conceptions what if i'm not what you thought will i let you down when you're flown me so high so much risk just take me no more thought just you and love
drown me in your empathy and i may lose my apathy come from too much caring bringing too much daring comparing past does not much for compression put me in a box and keep me in your pocket feed me with your red and i'll pay you with mine
drip drip drip not blood but poison draining slowly out to reveal the purity again feeling again but not pain discover the possibilities of freedom and precarious stability
maybe i'll learn to love sunshine again maybe learn warmth again maybe learn to trust the dark again maybe the monster under bed will disappear again you i see the focus will be and so i lift my wings and soar again beside you i learn how to fly again
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