Cursed
Often times I like to think of my life as a Greek tragedy, particularly when it comes to women, of course I've also long noticed that I am just missing the dramatic irony inherent to a good tragedy. Well... No more... Now bare in mind that I have the worst luck with women, or at least the ones I'm attracted to. Around New Years Day I asked out a girl I know, who we shall call Teri for the stake of the story (also because that's her name and I really have no ability to keep a secret...). Now personally I didn't think I was going out on a limb here, she seemed to like me and flirted quite a bit with me. She broke up with her boy friend about a month or two earlier so I thought now was a good time. Well, my luck with women has held and of course she turned me down, even after admitting that she had been flirting with me a little, but she just hadn't meant anything by it. Oh course my first thought is why in the world would she have flirted with me if she wasn't interested... I was of course a little miffed and depressed.. not the best way to start the new year.
The next two weeks were looking pretty bad as I was covering someone else's shift in addition to mine, giving me a total of 0 days off for the next 2 weeks, working 12 hours a day on the weekends and then a normal 8 hour day (4-midnight) during the week. So not only was I a bit depressed, but I was also going to spend the next two weeks alone and not see any of my friends. Pretty depressing, huh? So anyway I started spending some time on an Internet Chat page while at work that another friend had introduced me to a long time ago, WBS. The first day I was jut there out of curiosity, the second I went back to meet some people I'd met before and by the third day I was actually in a pretty good mood. I'd met some really cool people and made some new friends. I was still a little depressed about getting turned down by Teri, but I was dealing pretty well now that I wasn't alone. Thursday is when everything started to break down. One of the girls on there I chatted (Ok, flirted) a lot with, Shelly (who will have to forgive me if she stumbles on this web page :) started complaining that I was chatting too much with another girl, Eileen. She went on for a while and said that she was flirting with me and that I was flirting too much back to her. Of course I KNOW this is all Shelly's imagination, I mean this is over the Internet, why would anyone take it seriously, but then as we can talking more and she seemed more and more upset about it I figured it out, Eileen may not be interested in me, but I think that Shelly really did like me. OK, this is more than I really can deal with right now so I dump all this on a friend of mine on the network and she tells me that Eileen has told her that she really does like me. ARGH! It's about then that I figure out the Irony, here I am whining and complaining that some girl I liked was flirting with me even though she wasn't interested in me, and within a few days I turn around and do the exact same thing to not one, but two other girls. I am such a loser.