I wish I'd level out.  One day I feel ok and the next I feel like I'm going to die if I don't stay very still.  It really, really sucks when you can't go from the living room to the kitchen and breathe normally.

Still no luck looking for a job.  I guess I'm gonna have to go thru DAR--if they decide I'm worthy of help.  Hell, all I need is a foot in the door but with all my problems I can't even get an interview.  I keep trying though.  Gotta keep trying.

It's getting close to the time when I'm going to have to let the dept. know that I'm not going to be able to finish.  I'm so dreading that but yet so looking forward to it because at least once it's done I'll feel free.  I just hope I can find a job first.

I looked online yesterday to see exactly where Howe is.  Man, it's almost to Sherman!  I guess T. knows that if she winds up living there we are never going to see each other.  That would be an hour drive one way and I just don't have the energy anymore to do that.  I wonder what she thinks we'll do when we get really old and need each other.  But I guess she has as much right to live in Howe as I do to live in Garland or Mesquite or wherever I end up.  I just hate that we'll be so far apart.

Time to get busy again.  Break's over--back to work!